And For The Record, Im Aware Of The Latest Bsd Chapters.

and for the record, i’m aware of the latest bsd chapters.

ik what happens.

im electing to ignore their existence and live in a state of continuous denial until they are animated and i am consequently forced to acknowledge their existence.

thank you for your understanding in these harrowing times.

time to combine two of my fixations rq

look me dead in the eyes and tell me that Atsushi Nakajima wouldn’t serve The Vast.

i can see him loving the wide open space of the sky or the sea or space, absolutely nothing there but his god as he’s constantly floating or free falling, it’s exhilarating and makes his heart pound and it’s pure ecstasy to him. there is no past to haunt him, no need to keep fighting to be good, no need to constantly prove himself, no incessant worry that he’s not enough. he doesn’t have to do anything, or fight anyone, or meet some impossibly high expectation set for him. he can simply be and exist. it’s just him and his god. he’s not sure where he ends and his god begins, and he doesn’t think he cares anyway, he just knows he is utterly surrounded by his god and that in the middle of its infinite vastness, he is insignificant and meaningless. compared to his god, the meager time span of his life is incomparable. it means nothing. he means nothing, and he relishes in it. allows himself to just let go.

update on this thought!!

the fic is almost done, just a few scenes left to right and some beta reading before publishing! it’s currently 12k words, which is the longest piece of written yet, and will be published to Ao3!

but now, it needs a name! and i cannot decided, like the indecisive anxious creature i am.

i have a few options, and yes they’re all hozier or fall out boy related, and no i’m not sorry for that. the poll will only be up for a day, given that im hoping to have this finished and published within a week!

okay y’all i have a ✨thought✨

what if, whenever atsushi regenerates, he’s physically fine but for some reason, his body still feels the pain of the wound he received??

like immediately after it happens, he’s fine if not a bit more tired than usual.

and then he wakes up the morning after and the afflicted limb (it’s the leg. you KNOW i mean the leg i mean come on, it’s practically a bright red target atp) is just screaming in pain.

and eventually the pain starts to ease up and he’s able to function again but he’s still left with flair ups sometimes and just general chronic pain.

again: especially the leg i mean SERIOUSLY THAT POOR LIMB-

but yeah basically chronic pain atsushi. (totally not in the process of writing a one shot for this with a sprinkling of sskk)

anyway, thoughts? feelings? helpful commentary?

my handle is languortears !! ignore the one fic on there that’s forever unfinished 💀

okay y’all i have a ✨thought✨

what if, whenever atsushi regenerates, he’s physically fine but for some reason, his body still feels the pain of the wound he received??

like immediately after it happens, he’s fine if not a bit more tired than usual.

and then he wakes up the morning after and the afflicted limb (it’s the leg. you KNOW i mean the leg i mean come on, it’s practically a bright red target atp) is just screaming in pain.

and eventually the pain starts to ease up and he’s able to function again but he’s still left with flair ups sometimes and just general chronic pain.

again: especially the leg i mean SERIOUSLY THAT POOR LIMB-

but yeah basically chronic pain atsushi. (totally not in the process of writing a one shot for this with a sprinkling of sskk)

anyway, thoughts? feelings? helpful commentary?

hello dark mode users :)

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Ladies, Lords, Nonbinary Royalty, and other gender-nonconforming courtiers!! May I proudly present to you, the hard-won efforts of my last month of screen time.

The Chronic Pain Atsushi fic has been born!!

If you don’t know what I’m talking about, find the og post on my page (it shouldn’t be too far down.)

This is by far the longest fic I have ever written and I am very proud of it for that fact. Coming in at a whopping near 25k words, this short and sweet one-shot turned into a novella.

Enjoy lovelies ✨