Always Loved How Revali's Pupils Change Depending On His Behavior. They're Normally Raptor-like Slits,

Always loved how Revali's pupils change depending on his behavior. They're normally raptor-like slits, but when he's being genuine and showing his softer side they become softer and rounder.

I'm Sorry

I'm sorry for flipping out a few days ago, screaming and swearing and saying "f**k the world".

I'm just so tired of real life after having family members struggle for two-and-a-half years. My grandmother, a prisoner in her own body, treated like trash in a place that was supposed to help us take care of her. My grandfather, now a widow and succumbing to dementia with my family being forced to watch because he's physically healthy (sort of) but losing his memories in a slow burn.

And that family member being affected the most by it all; struggling with a disease, alcoholism, and turning into a shadow of their former self. They were the person I felt closest to and, after drinking, they become apathetic and just... they're "taking care" of themselves in the least healthy way. AND they're stubborn as hell and don't want to get ACTUAL help!

It doesn't help that I don't have my driver's license yet because, during the time I should have used more time to learn, but I was depressed as hell and scared to even leave the house at the time.

And now I'm trapped here. Every day. Do you know what it's like having chronic anxiety and almost never getting a day's break from them dealing with a disease so drastic and unpredictable?

Earlier this week they seemed to be willing to try, but I don't even know anymore because just a day or two later was hellish. They can't remember any of it, but I can. I remember it all, and they officially broke me AND THEY HAVEN'T EVEN SAID THEY'RE SORRY!

Funny how they always apologize for relapsing, but they have yet to even acknowledge that they put my other family member and I through hell. Even if they don't remember the details they KNOW they relapsed, so them not knowing is not an excuse.

Next week they and my other family member are going on vacation for a week and I can't tell you how much we all NEED a break from our shoddy "routine". I used to have the house to myself several days a week to unwind and practice voice acting and singing without worrying about someone walking in on me. Now I'm lucky if I can even get a single day of the week to myself for just a few hours.

Call me selfish if you want, but my family and I have given so much to them and get so little in return. I don't even know if they're on board with getting help anymore, and everything has become so obscure and painful that I've run out of hope. All I can do is keep myself buried in fantasy and worlds that actually make sense.

WELL TODAY'S EPISODES OF SUN AND MOON AND MONTY AND FOXY WERE INTENSE.

No spoilers, but I hope The Invisible Davis is alright. The characters he voices were put through the FREAKING WRINGER.

shoutout to slow creators!

i know it can be disheartening to work so slowly when it seems like everyone around you works so fast and churns out great content left and right. i know it's easy to get frustrated with yourself for having to spend so much time on one thing and sometimes it's hard to stay motivated long enough to finish. but the things you make are so good, and taking lot of time on something isn't a bad thing. creation can be a very painstaking process, but the amount of love and care and effort and attention you pour into your work bleeds through. people can feel it. they appreciate it. they see how hard you try and they see how your thoughtful approach to creation affects the quality of the end product. speed is definitely a skill you can develop and chances are as you practice more and get more comfortable with things, you'll be able to work faster. but no matter what, the things you make are worth waiting for. keep creating! you are wonderful!

Hey guys just saying that any type of discrimination isn't welcome here ^^

This should go without saying but anything along the lines of

Ableism

Racism

Sexism

Discrimination against the LGBTQIA+ community

Discrimination against any type of religion

Xenophobia

Is NOT allowed, and should be common sense not to bring here.

Sorry to put this on dash guys but really.

Language and Possible Trigger Warning...

This will sound overdramatic, but... sometimes I don't even know why I bother to hope. This month has been bad day after bad day ever since the 1st, no exaggeration.

The record of days that haven't devolved is FOUR. FUCKING FOUR DAYS OF A BREAK BEFORE EVERYTHING WENT TO HELL AGAIN.

AND AFTER THAT? FUCKING ONE!!

I'm so done right now. This family problems I've been dealing with have been at their worst! I just. Can't. TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!

It feels like it's just going to be day after day of misery and anger and confusion! I DON'T EVEN UNDERSTAND WHAT'S WRONG, THIS TIME! THIS IS THE FIRST DAY THAT I'VE BEEN ALONE WITH THIS FAMILY MEMBER AND THEY SEEMED FINE YESTERDAY! WEAK, BUT FINE!!

I can't believe it took me THIS long to start crying. REALLY crying. I want to scream and throw things and just jump OUT A GODDAMN WINDOW!

I've been trying SO HARD to get into mermay and I have some ideas, but writing is exhausting and I just can't do it! This could've been the first time I ever took part in something like this, but HELL IS HERE AND IT ISN'T GOING AWAY!

This family member was going on vacation with their spouse during the first week of June and I'd FINALLY have a break and the house to myself.

Ha.

Like THAT'S actually going to happen.

It's too good to happen. It WON'T happen, simple as that. I'm not even going to hope for anything better.

It's ironic to me that the year 2020 was the year my family suffered the least, but all of 2021 and 2022 had been pain and anxiety over family members. I wanted SO BAD for this year to not be worse. These family members are just dying of old age! It's made me realize just how SHIT our country treats older people. Bodies failing, dementia, FUCK THAT! THEY CAN'T LEAVE WHEN THEY WANT BY ASKING TO BE EUTHANIZED IN A HOSPITAL AND DIE WITH DIGNITY AND AS THEMSELVES! THEY HAVE TO FUCKING SUFFER PAIN AND HUMILIATION UNTIL THEY DIE AS SHELL OF THEIR FORMER SELVES, AND EVERYONE THEY LOVE HAS TO SUFFER AND STRUGGLE AND FALL BACK INTO AWFUL HABITS AND DISEASES AND IT JUST DOESN'T END!

FUCK PEOPLE!

I just... I can't handle this anymore. I'm not going to kill myself or anything; even if I wanted to it'd be the worse thing I can do to my family. They don't need or deserve that on top of everything else.

I just want to hide and hibernate until all this pain is over. I just want to wrap myself in a blanket cocoon and sleep until everything is less shit in the world.

The person I trusted most, the one I was closest to in the entire world, is figuratively dead.