THAT IS THE PERFECT WAY TO DESCRIBE HIM! :D

THAT IS THE PERFECT WAY TO DESCRIBE HIM! :D

sunshine amidst the storm... 🥺

You said nothing wrong! It makes sense for Eclipse to do that sort of thing. And with what Sun said in today's episode, you could easily be right.

Sorry, I wanted to post this sooner but my brain has been out of it for some reason for the past few days. It still is today, really, but I couldn't wait any longer to say something when I heard Sun ask those things.

Okay. So this is serious and important.

Let's talk about "Eclipse is a nobody" episode.

TW/CW: su*c*de, manipulation, abuse

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So I've been seeing that a lot of people were saying that Eclipse is su*c*dal. And I've been thinking about this and "Eclipse is a nobody" episode a lot.

And please don't hate me for what I'm about to say. At first I'll ask you this question: Isn't it even a little bit suspicious that our boys found out that star is basically killing Eclipse after Sun finally was able to talk back and stand up to Eclipse who abused him?

For me it seems very suspicious. Don't get me wrong. Su*c*de is a serious topic and we should take signs of it seriously.

But there is also the other side of it. Some people may use su*c*de as a threat and that's a form of manipulation. I think that Eclipse isn't su*c*dal. And I think that he only manipulates situation once again. Because doesn't that scene felt a little bit like: "oh poor Eclipse, he has no purpose in his life and he's in pain" and people immidiately feel pity towards Eclipse. And that's not entirely a wrong and bad thing. What I'm trying to say is that for me it seems that Sun didn't feel well with that situation. And I'm afraid that he might regret what he said to Eclipse. Even if he shouldn't.

Even if it would turn out to be true that Eclipse is in fact su*c*dal it isn't Sun's fault. I think that Eclipse isn't su*c*dal because there aren't any signs of it. If they'd show more signs that Eclipse is in fact su*c*dal then I'll take back my words.

But for now to me it looks more like a manipulation rather than anything else. Because like I said that I think that Eclipse is trying to manipulate Sun into believing that he's evil. And this situation works well for that because Eclipse may seem more like a victim, someone we should pity etc. And Sun could easily think that he caused Eclipse to feel like that. That he hurt Eclipse with his words so much that now Eclipse may consider taking his own life. And it may end up with Sun feeling even worse about himself, blaming himself for whatever is happening with Eclipse even more.

And if what I've said about Eclipse using Moon's computer for his advantage is true than it really makes sense that this whole situation is only an emotional manipulation. Because don't you think that everything that happened in that episode was too fitting for it to be truly just a coincidence?

And once again, please don't hate me for this. I just have a really hard time to believe that Eclipse is su*c*dal with all of his manipulations, gaslighting and abuse he inflicts onto others.

You're free to discuss this with me but in a civil manner of course, please and thank you.

I think I read that they're actually the shrine names spelled backwards.

some of the names of the shrines/roots are very inspired

You're right. You're absolutely right. I keep trying to tell myself this, but I keep going back to feeling like what I do is some kind of performance.

It's hard for me to change mindsets, and it takes a long while, but I'm determined to be a creator that loves doing what they do.

for the love of god, write all the self-indulgent scenes you want.  be utterly  shameless about including every last fantasy.  i know everyone likes to share quotes and quips about how miserably hard writing is, but please please try thinking of it as a joyful act where you get to be a messy human who makes art rather than some pain filled quest for icy perfection.

Celestial ceilings

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DON'T READ THIS IF YOU'RE IN A BETTER MOOD, OKAY?

Oh god, I know the feeling. I'm going through a similar thing; a family member is suffering and their attempts to cope through the day are hurting the rest of us more and more, but they STILL haven't gotten professional help because THEY ARE SO DAMN STUBBORN!

I'm so sick of the patterns repeating every freaking day, and I'd just like to hide in a makeshift cocoon and just hibernate until things get just a little better.

I’d rather feel sad then just feel nothing but tired with a underlying dread. I hate feeling like this