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Fuck it, Urbanism hot take night, none of you bitches actually know what gentrification is
Do I have an example to add to this?? No
If I think for longer than 5 seconds will I find one?? Also no
Should I reblog this for the reason of: I know for certain that in under 3 days, at most, this will happen to me anyways?? Yes, yes I should.
I will forever stand by what I said when I repeat that Eddie Diaz held his husband's Buck's waist too long to be considered platonic in this scene
chim during the buddie hug: “you’re doing amazing sweetie!”
I JUST NEVER NOTICED IT BEFORE LMAO HES ALL OF US FR
Jason was acting strange.
Bruce was worried. It had started when the batfam investigated the hideout of a new gang in Gotham. They had attacked Jason earlier that week with strange weapons, so Batman, Nightwing and Red Hood followed them to a warehouse. They saw the men in white suits with the weapons, several vans and some sort of powersource they called a core. Batman and Nightwing were making a plan when one of the men activated the machine housing the core.
Suddenly Red Hood had gone ballistic! He attacked them recklessly, with much more force than neccesary. Nightwing had to sto him from beating one of them to death! Batman was furious. They left the men for commisioner Gordon and took some evidence to the cave. When they arrived, Jason looked shaken. Bruce wanted to scold him, but the look on Jason's face made him pause. He needed to focus on the case, but he knew he couldn't bring Jason along. So he 'benched' Jason. Thats what the Robins called it, anyway. But someone needed to guard the evidence, they had no idea what this power core even was.
He expected Jason to protest. To insult him to complain. But when Bruce told Jason to look after the core, he instead looked suprised. Really? Jason had asked. Then Jason had told Bruce he could count on him. Red flag number 1. This had confused Bruce, but if it kept Jason from following then it was fine.
Then Jason had started carrying the core everywhere. He held it in his hand, close to his chest. He stayed in the manor, wich was red flag number 2. Damian had caught him talking to the thing numerous times. Alfred had heard Jason in the library, reading a children's book out loud. Tim noticed whenever they discussed the gang of men in white suits that Jason would leave, instead of listening. Dick had even caught Jason singing softly to it! Too many red flags to count.
Bruce was worried about him. He was starting to worry about mind control! But when he had tried to confront Jason, he had cut him off. Jason told Bruce that he knew he had messed up at the warehouse, that he had gone too far. So he was really happy that Bruce had trusted him with this. After that Bruce had been too stunned to say anything about it. But they knew the problem had to be adressed. During dinner, the whole family where going to discuss this matter with Jason.
That was before the core transformed into a glowing, white haired child.
Rando 4AM painting thoughts: Part 8
Insomnia
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Tell me, fellow insomniacs, when your brain says "nope nope, it's staying awake hours my dude 😌" to a healthy sleep schedule, when you have an early start the next day due to plans with friends -
But then between the ungodly hours of 3 and 4AM it changes its mind and tells you that "you've done a lot, you deserve to feel highly exhausted. Take a nap, it'll be fine"
BUT IT WON'T BE FINE-
The only reason you're brain has for orchestrating this mess of chemicals and existence was to lure you into a false sense of security. You wake up late and have to sprint to get things done, purely so it can watch on in amusement and gaslight.
Now the question: when this happens, do you internally scream like you're performing an exorcism gone wrong in frustration or is it just me??
Who knows how long we have before these old lil b*tches have before they go entirely deaf.
Thus, I'm handing out free megaphones stole- I mean bought from amazon. 🤗
!!Be sure to preach this as loud as we can for the b*tches in the back everyone!!
Welcome to the United States of America where if you want to be safe from guns you die if you want to get a safe abortion you die if you're gay you die if you're black you die if you're a woman you die if you're disabled you die if you're a kid you die if you're a POC you die if you're trans you die and no one will do anything about it because some stupid cuntrags that are two steps away from tripping on a staircase and dying cling to some dipshit beliefs from over 6 decades ago and decide to make it everyone's problem
the common variation of the "arthur comes back" trope is that he emerges from avalon, fog headed and confused, and countless time has passed, and the only thing that makes sense is merlin.
but.
imagine an awake arthur. arthur, who enters the realm of avalon with a hand clamped tight over his eyes, refusing to watch as his friends mourn. arthur, who bangs against the walls of the veil, who slams his shoulder into invisible barriers, who reaches for his sword that won't pierce through. "i have to go back," he says. it's like no one hears him, in this liminal space, where nothing is familiar and all he can see is a technicolour hellscape that is life without him.
arthur, who watches the years pass, and his friends grow old, and die, but never forget. who watches his kingdom grow and diminish, suffer and sing.
but then there's merlin, who only grows old when he wants to. there's merlin, who doesn't die, even when it's well past the time he should. and as the familiar faces of his loves fade away, he clings to that. and watches.
watches as merlin grows his magic, and learns, and reaches into the core of the universe to pull out more beauty than arthur has ever known. watches as merlin tells his story, over and over and over and over, and watches as the light never fades from his eyes when he tells it.
and there are parts arthur has trouble watching. those years where merlin pleads at the lake's edge. give him back to me. take me to him. make me forget. each iteration hurts in different ways, and arthur finds himself slamming his shoulder against the veil again, gasping for breath he doesn't need.
and worse yet, somehow. merlin falling in love, doomed from the start. merlin watching as everyone he believes in and seeks comfort in grows old and dies. he slowly stops telling the stories, and arthur screams his voice hoarse-- or imagine he does-- trying to get him to hear, i'm still here, i'm still here.
but centuries pass and he comes to learn that merlin never forgets him. faces fade and he changes towns, villages, cities, but he keeps waiting, hoping.
and arthur watches the world fall apart and stitch itself back together again, often at the behest of his sorcerer. and his magic grows more and more subtle, but it's still there, never leaving him.
arthur never leaves him, either.
somewhere in the liminal, he realizes what he's known all along, the steady thrum of love beneath his chest. and it drives him mad for a while, and there's the sword through the veil again.
but he's doomed to wait, and finally, finally, finally--
he's spitting up vile, murky water, his legs a newborn stag's, and he's looking up into the blue eyes he's been watching for so many aching centuries.
"well," merlin laughs. "took you long enough."
"you," he'll reply, whether his voice is ready or not, "have no idea."
💖💛💙 Let's go my pride of perfect pans
Happy pansexual visibility day!!
punk doesn't have to be expensive!! here are some tips for cheap punk fashion:
steal
Rando 1AM painting thoughts: Part 7
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Quotes of 2022 from people I associate with:
"I'm not even 20, yet my archnemesis is inflation"
"So when was my life supposed to begin improving?? I'm on a tight schedule here"
"Capitalism?? More like capitalising your emotions 👉😗👉"
"Aren't we all being yeeted forwards in time towards a brick wall in slow motion"
"Ah yes, breakdown Tuesday's my old friend"
"I'm gonna have to hold another parent better parent conference aren't I?? Sighs"
defending dabi online aint enough we need to commit arson
This is a textbook example of why I am not straight
listened to Bohemian Rhapsody today… i’m so very sorry
Hate to be that person, but WW3 trend on TikTok is not funny at all, especially your stupid POVs. Because no, Jessica from Chicago, you won’t have to hide in the basement to avoid being nuked and no, Kyle from LA, you won’t get drafted to the front lines.
You again missed the whole point and managed to make this situation all about yourself, so I’m going to assure your stupid ass - this war is not going to affect you in any way, but you know who it’s going to affect? Actual people from Ukraine, who are going to lose their lives and be displaced from their homes, just like for the past 8 years.
So congratulations on your stupidity, because it’s not about “I need a way to cope 🥺🥺🥺”, it’s about you celebrating and making fun of other people’s death.
Rando 1AM painting thoughts: Part 6
Ships
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An a solute law of my existence at this point is that I will almost always, without fail, shamelessly like every . single . post on a ship I've decided to look at in the time.
For instance, if one decides to look up wolfstar in the peak Marauders area within a bubble of serotonin there should be an invisible magnetic force drawing my finger towards that heart icon. If that force isn't there the world is ending and I stand by that.
I felt that this was a necessary rant from my slight train of sane cognitive function :)
Rando 1AM painting thoughts: Part 5
Fictional world obsession
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Now was it a good idea to listen to a playlist about an emotionally compromised character I relate to very much at 1AM?? probably not
Am I ranting about it anyways??? Fuck yes.
nOw
There are several memes, that I agree with, about selling the remains of our souls or families (pets not included, back the fuck off jimmy) in order to go to the universe of any fandom we're in. And reality is a cruel bitch only deranged people like, so the possibility of that happening is close to zero.
BuT yA kNoW wHat???? I'd be okay with that on ONE condition. And that condition is that they can see me, giving them my support and anything I think they need whilst I'm watching/reading them. For the sake of not breaking the laws of fandoms and fourth wall they won't break character when I'm watching/reading and interact with me, but if I knew that when I close whatever I was watching on or book I was reading the characters I wholeheartedly hope to comfort and support remember the words of encouragement I said to them, saw that look I gave them or felt me hug that book cus they needed it and took comfort in that, I'd be content not getting reincarnated into one of my fandoms.
...but just to be safe if the fandom gods are listening I have a list and if there's a place free in one of em when I die then yes I would very much like to go. Please ignore the above rant 🙃
THESE TWO MOMENTS WERE TOO MUCH
Just saw no way home (*insert sobbing here* don't mind me 🥲✋) and in this scene I had that exact thought
‼ SPOILERS FROM THIS POINT ON I'M SHIRKING ALL RESPONSIBILITY ‼
Like Sir, I got here for the movie but I stayed for the Domesticity of two adorably polite nerds that are practically married in my eyes giving out pep talks to the insecure and socially challenged (themselves included) whilst trying to persuade their newly adopted spider child not to commit murder.
Tobey (Dad 2): Been there, done that sweetie, it's not worth it and we are not doing that laundry for you when we get home.
Andrew (Dad 3): Now be a good little parker and fix the multiverse or no more star wars lego for a month young man, it'll be mega blox instead <😤>
Andrew!Peter: :)
Tobey!Peter (in his head): friends to lovers, slowburn, hurt/comfort, 300k+ words
Rando 1AM painting thoughts: Part 4
Telepathy
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So one of the stereotypical questions asked cus why not?? 'If you had a superpower what would it be?'
One of my go to is to talk to animals. But I realised, I dont really need that... cus I already can to a degree. At least when it comes to suffering through human behaviour. Like for example, is someone in your family being stereotypically loud when there's no need?? You and your animal are just chilling or working in another room, and an ungodly sound echoes through the house for an unnecessarily long amount of time??
And my dog just picks his head from his nap, turns over his shoulder to look over at me.
And that look just begs for help. Specifically along the lines of "why are they like this..."
To which all I'll reply with is a sigh and a resigned, "I know, I know..."
Here's a visual aid I thought appropriate
Me My dog
What superpower do yall sorta have??
Rando 1AM painting thoughts: Part 3
An abstract to my darling day-crawler family
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Oh dear family, you can like the sun: it's light that leads the way, it's kindness that makes your day, the life that everything shows before decay...
HoWeVeR
Some may still like the light... the artificial light that doesn't burn I mean- The moon can be as kind than the sun, just in a less 'present mic here, say goodbye to your hearing' kinda feeling and more like an 'aizawa shota, now leave me alone,' gentle tone. Life is good, life is good... I'm dead inside but I'm happy so hey! Life's still pretty good. The day crawlers can crawl, and the night walkers can roam, both shall dance together at the same ball come the days fall. 😌
Summary: mom, plz leave me alone, the moon is friendly. I don't even go outside at night to climb on objects I really shouldn't anymore 🥲
No I will not stop screaming revelry in the dark
Rando 1AM thoughts whilst painting: Part 2
Blue exorcist rant
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I really do try but since I'm a Rin kin I'm probably a bit bias
Does anyone else hate Konekomeru more than anyone, even Satan, manga and anime entirely?? And we have Yukio, that's saying sonething.
Koneko lost his parents in the blue night, was taken in but still was left with the reality of not having his parents, he thinks that he isn't as smart or as capable as bon or shima. So naturally, his hatred for Rin was expected, if we think of it as hatred for the flames only then it's even more justifiable
Here's where I get pissed
Konekomeru (at least to me) is angry at himself, it's obvious if you're familiar with the feeling. After Rin's exposed, in the tengu episode/chapters Koneko is terrified of Rin for the flames but his anger causes him to lash out. when he does it creates an awkward situation painting Rin as a monster to everyone and makes people only see the bad while he backs off in fear that Rin will hurt him. He doesn't stand for what he says, it's not part of a plan or goal, it's just a fear induced rage at not wanting to delve deeper. Leaving only a distrustful image of Rin, strengthening the bias because Rin scared a weak human as "he couldn't control himself." Konekomeru is more than capable of defending himself, that's why he's here. But he doesnt understands the gravity of what he does for the longest time and disregards Rin's character entirely to fixate on his lineage
I know it takes a while to realise the root cause of that type of anger, but it's just the way he just clamps up like some weak creature when he's capable. If you're going to lash out at Rin for his flames and your family's loss hold to it, don't back down as easily as you do and actually express your desire to defeat Satan and avenge them.
How can they stay angry at this????
Someone tell me am I alone in this or am I missing something??
Rando 1AM thoughts whilst painting: Part 1
Destiel AU one-shot
What if, for some absolutely out of the blue reason, Cas had to go somewhere in an astral form and Jimmy regained consciousness, only to find himself in a 'wtf did I drink' situation???
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It felt like he'd just awoken from a dream for Jimmy, comfortable and warm in the best bed he had ever slept in. Jimmy deserved a lie in, given that his body is usually being inhabited by a monster hunting angel, and snuggled into this amazingly warm and perfect pillow with a content sigh.
It was fine until Jimmy felt the pillow... chuckle?? And something wrap around him, keeping him in place
Jimmy looked up, only to be met with the lopsided grin and sparkling, apple green eyes of Dean Winchester if he was remembering correctly. He was just about to voice his confusions when-
"Well good morning to you too sleepyhead," the hunter smirked, proceeding to trail soft kisses along Jimmy's neck before gently connecting their lips together.
And that was when Jimmy realised he was in bed, pinned to Dean Winchester's chest, and both of them were quite naked...
"This is not what I signed up for when I gave my body to an angel..."