I Screamed Out Your Name As I Submerged Under The Water. The Air Escaped From My Lungs As I Descended

I screamed out your name as I submerged under the water. The air escaped from my lungs as I descended to the pool floor. At that moment, I longed for your lips to be eternally intertwined with mine, fused, never unlocking or escaping like the last air had done from my chest.

douleur-douce/douxsouffrance, fused

I was looked at, but I wasn't seen. — Albert Camus, The Misunderstanding

i think spitting in a guy's mouth would be beneficial to my mental health

I have not broken your heart - you have broken it; and in breaking it, you have broken mine.

Emily Brontë, Wutherinng Heights

I question my confidence, and I question my worth,

on the raft I get scared of falling—plunging into the water head first,

losing all breath,

sinking to the cold depths

of the abyss to drown.

unconvincingly telling myself,

all it takes is one step,

the water is not deep,

I can walk through the seemingly,

infinite abyss

—below,

I can swim,

I can float,

without my raft.

but will I dare losen my grasp,

will my float lighten their grip,

it has on my anxiety,

will it force me to flip,

will I fall silently,

I don’t think so,

I cling to my raft.

douleur-douce/douxsouffrance, my raft

sometimes all I do is school, work, and sit in my room.

i occasionally like to go out because it reminds me that the world is still here.

i can hear it

and when im in my head i cant hear it.

it disappears, it’s dark, absent of life.

douleur-douce/douxsouffrance, can you hear me?