Either Ive Got (another) Migraine, Or The Stress From Work Is Hitting Me Extra Hard. I Dont Know Which

Either I’ve got (another) migraine, or the stress from work is hitting me extra hard. I don’t know which it is but I strongly suspect its the stress. Especially since I’ve spent most of my day trying not to cry. We’ve been trying to transition to a new system at work, which will (theoretically) make things easier in the long run but right now is causing endless headache. Last week, my boss told me that I have until the 18th of this month to get our new scheduler fully functional and implemented. That is not doable in 2 weeks but he refuses to see reason. When I told him today that I would likely need at least a couple extra days (what with being interrupted every five minutes, since I’m the only fucking receptionist and also the only tech-capable person in the office for the next ten days) he told me that if I couldn’t do it, then he’d find someone who could. And maybe its just the stress talking, but there seemed to be an undertone of me being in deep shit if I couldn’t. To make matters worse, we’re short handed this week so I have one back office person to help with phones when they start ringing off the hook. I had maybe two hours total to get anything done that wasn’t answering phones, and that was with me working through my lunch.

And then, there had been talk about the counselors scheduling their own follow-up appointments (which, come on, most counseling offices do that), and the counselors were supposed to start that this week. I sent out an email this morning requesting they not schedule out past a certain date in the new scheduler so that I have a chance to finish getting everything in and not risk them double-booking themselves...and the boss sent out an email saying that we’re putting a hold on having the counselors do that. Which means my work-load is even larger now, because scheduling follow-ups from my end takes longer than it does from the counselors’ end.

I already don’t really like my job. I was hired on as data entry, and wound up getting moved to front desk--I hate phones and my anxiety has been through the roof since the position change, but I’ve dealt with it as best I can because I know we’re going through a lot of change right now (another thing I don’t like) and I’m not the only one having a hard time. But it’s gotten to the point where I dread even getting out of bed in the morning, because it means I have to go to work. By the time I get off work, I feel like a zombie. I’m emotionally and mentally exhausted, and I have no motivation for anything. I just want to go home, get into my jammies, crawl into bed, and do absolutely nothing, and I hate feeling like that.

I’ve gotten very little done in the last few weeks, and nothing at all in the last almost two. I don’t even have the motivation to pull up Netflix or play a video game, let alone do any sewing for my Tokyo in Tulsa costumes or clean or any of the million other things I really should be doing. 

I’m just so done right now...

Help me do some research into videogame experiences

I’m trying to prove that there are two main groups of videogame players:

A) Players who play for the gameplay experience. Story and characters are important, but less important than gameplay. They might be enjoy the characters, but are not deeply invested in them.

B) Players who play for the characters and story. Gameplay is important, but not as important as the fictional narrative. They spend more time enjoying the characters (fanart, fanfiction, etc) than playing the game.

Reblog and put in the tags which group you are, or send me an ask. It would help a ton!

So, one of my coworkers is taking care of a kitten (not quite orphaned, but the mama isn't doing a great job), and she had to bring the kitten in so she could keep his feeding schedule. He's been chilling with me almost since I got in (I have less work to do at the moment, since we're waiting on my new computer to arrive, so I offered to kitten-sit so my coworker could focus on her work). If I didn't already have five cats, this little guy would be coming home with me. He's so sweet. My supervisor just picked him up to cuddle him, then gave him back and he layed right back down on me. He loves me :D. And there is no better way to spend my work day than working while cuddling a kitten.

Mothers Day PSA

Shout out to everyone out there who has uncomfortable, strained, nonexistent, or abusive relationships with their mothers. 

I see you, and I know how hard today can be for you. Please take care of yourself in whatever ways you need to *hug*

There’s no way I can move him, and he knows it.

THIS POST IS TO REMIND YOU ABOUT YOUR CUP OF TEA

it’s sitting there somewhere, going cold. drink it before u regret it.