Foreverabeliever - Today A Dreamer. Forever A Believer.

Out for late lunch and a selfie with my best partner in crime. Hohoho xD #instagram #family #siblings #brother #sister #selfie #PhotoGrid #sunday

I sit before flowers hoping they will train me in the art of opening up I stand on mountain tops believing that avalanches will teach me to let go I know nothing but I am here to learn.

Shane Koyczan (via lazypacific)

As time goes on, you’ll understand. What lasts, lasts; what doesn’t, doesn’t. Time solves most things. And what time can’t solve, you have to solve yourself.

Haruki Murakami, Dance Dance Dance (via quotes-shape-us)

Overthinking Mind

The problem with me is that, I overthink things, many things. I think about my problems, my feelings, my work, and how some things will affect me in many ways, and how I should deal with stuffs that happen, or will (probably) happen to me. I think a lot, well A LOT, and it has been kind of a habit to me since ever. I think about bad things, also good things, how those things work, and how I should react when they come up.

I think about my self almost as much as I think about the others. I usually think of what people might feel about me or what they really think of me, and then I need to decide (through a lot of thinking proccess) whether I should care or not of what I think the others think of me. (It sounds complicated, but believe me it’s not).

Sometimes when I read a book, or watch a movie, I find my self thinking about the person who is in the book or movie, and start to wonder what I would I do if I was in their shoes or if things in the book or movie happened to me. I even think when I am listening to a song or a music, and through a thinking proccess, I think I can feel the feeling and understand the story behind the music and the lyrics.

And this gets worse. I often find myself thinking lots of stuffs, even when I don’t tell my self to do it. It has become automatic even I can’t control it... And now I realize, most of my problems are actually the results from my overthinking mind. Actually things are really as not as bad as, or as good as I think they are, because sometimes my overthinking mind creates an illusion, that reflects things that I am scared and afraid of... or things that I really hope for...

See, that is the problem I have... I just like to overthink things... and my mind often is the main problem of all the problems I have... So I guess I need to take a little time, to clean up the mess I’ve made inside of my mind, and start to sort the thoughts that I should and should not keep, because lately some of my thoughts seem to be very bothering, and I think I could go mad if I don’t take control of my mind... 

So I have new goal : TO TAKE CONTROL OF MY OVERTHINKING MIND :)

Have a nice weekend, people!

You know when it's 2 a.m, I am all alone, have nothing to do, and just can’t sleep at night, it is so easy to think about how much I want to see you, be around you, and wish the time would stop when you are around. I hate that no matter how many times I say  or text "I miss you", it is just never enough. Sometimes it makes me want to stop thinking because it hurts, and I know it hurts because there is nothing I can do about it.

My personal consciousness