Been Absent, Now Im Back

Been absent, now I’m back

It has been more than a month since the last time I posted a note on my tumblr page. And I know it is not a new record, I have been absent for a longer time before, but still I missed doing my tumblr routine here. I love tumblr! And I love my own page...

I know I don’t have to talk about why I have been absent from my tumblr activity here (since no body on tumblr really cares – lol), but it is my page so let me share some reasons. I promise it won’t be long, I will make it clear and as short as possible...

First thing is that I actually have done my “co-assistant” program, as part of my education here in Faculty of Medicine, Sam Ratulangi University, since 21st June 2015 and my beloved faculty has given me and other colleagues our degree as a Medical Doctor since 15th July 2015. And since that day I was very busy, preparing myself to take The National Competency Examination, an exam to determine if we – fresh graduates are competence enough to use our degree officially to practice as a medical doctor, which means I am not officially a doctor if I don’t pass the National Competency Examination, and yes I can use my degree as I want but really can’t do much about it.

The examination are held on 22nd August and 29th August 2015, it has two parts which are separately held: firstly the CBT (Computer Based Test) to test our knowledge about Medicine in MCQs (Multiple Choice Questions), and secondly the OSCE (Objective Structured Clinical Examination) to test our individual clinical skill and ability in diagnose and therapy with patients. So I have to pass all of them to get my clinical practice license as a doctor. That is the reason why I was very busy with my life from June until August. I had to prepare my self, even studied in a group every night and day (I studied with my 7 other friends), also studied individually, and more important – prayed every night and day, just like The Bible teach us to pray and work.

I have all my praise and worship to God whom I serve, because all the hard works are paid off eventually, the results were announced online on 25th September and I passed the examination. I give all the credits to my One and Only Creator, who always keeps His promise. I am happy and so thankful that I finally pass the test, I also feel happy for my friends who pass but also feel sorry for my other friend (we worked hard together) who didn’t pass.

I still have my other reasons honestly why I have been absent for a long time on my tumblr, but I have promised to keep this note short. So I think this note is enough for today. I need to do other things this afternoon. I will just talk about it next time on my other post (when I get the chance to). :)

Have a blessed Sunday. Blessed to bless. God bless you. 

As time goes on, you’ll understand. What lasts, lasts; what doesn’t, doesn’t. Time solves most things. And what time can’t solve, you have to solve yourself.

Haruki Murakami, Dance Dance Dance (via quotes-shape-us)

I sit before flowers hoping they will train me in the art of opening up I stand on mountain tops believing that avalanches will teach me to let go I know nothing but I am here to learn.

Shane Koyczan (via lazypacific)

You know when it's 2 a.m, I am all alone, have nothing to do, and just can’t sleep at night, it is so easy to think about how much I want to see you, be around you, and wish the time would stop when you are around. I hate that no matter how many times I say  or text "I miss you", it is just never enough. Sometimes it makes me want to stop thinking because it hurts, and I know it hurts because there is nothing I can do about it.

My personal consciousness

Homeostasis and Allostasis

The word homeostasis is derived from the Greek words homeo, or same and stasis, or stable and means remaining stable by remaining the same. Homeostasis is conceptualized as a state of being in which all systems are in balance around a particular ideal “setpoint”. Claude Bernard, a nineteenth century French physiologist, believed that the various vital physiologic mechanisms of the body had as their goal the maintenance of a uniform and constant internal environment or milieu intérieur, for the body. In 1988 Sterling and Eyer introduced the concept of allostasis in recognition of the complexity and variable levels of activity necessary to reestablish or maintain homeostasis. They described allostasis as the ability to successfully adapt to challenges. In order to survive an organism must vary all the parameters of its internal milieu and match them appropriately to environmental demands. Like homeostasis allostasis is a derivation of the Greek words allo, meaning variable and stasis, meaning stable. Therefore this term accentuates the role of allostatic systems in maintaining the organism’s stability by being variable. Allostasis is a dynamic process that supports and helps the body achieve homeostasis; homeostasis from this perspective, is seen as a steady state. In essence the organism’s overall stability is accomplished through change. (Taken from "Pathophysiology" 5th ed) So just like the human body system, we all need to adapt through challenges in order to maintain stability and well-being in life. We all can learn from this concept of homeostasis and allostasis to continue living. This world we live may be cruel, but I believe that God created us with the ability to succesfully adapt to challenges (or Allostasis), to remain stable (or to get homeostasis).