// Dmsp, Derealization I Think?

// dmsp, derealization I think?

Ranboo at the beginning of his live, "It's gonna go- its gonna go fine, everything's gonna go exactly according to plan. It has to, it has to go exactly according to plan. Or else we're screwed..."

Ranboo later on, having a full blown panic attack.

What if the beginning was him showing "signs" that he (in character) isn't mentally okay? Like, not insane wise, that just demonizes panic attacks and mental illness, but in a way that he's been through this more than once? Not even because he says "it's happening again" or "I couldn't save them again", which are huge factors, but because he sees the issues with everything and wants to actively help it,

He just isn't capable yet.

As another post I saw read, "For a man in black and white, he's the only one who can see in grey" which, if you aren't understanding like I did at first, means for a man who is made of two sides (black/white), he only sees as neutral (grey) or none at all.

it came to my realization that 99% of my fandom related headaches would be cured if everyone understood this

having a gender identity crisis for the 4th time this week (it's only Monday) (im going to cry) (somebody pls help my brain make up its mind)

Fascinating how the man in black & white is the only one to see how things can be grey.

an eye and a tear

Don't talk to me right now I'm thinking of the new Jupiter photos and Vincent Van Gogh: