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TIME TO HYPERFIXATE ON THE PHILOSOPHY BEHIND THIS PAINTING AND ICARUS.

(shaking like a chihuahua) this terminal keeps taking me out every time i dare to think about it. girlies when they try to rationalise their way out of crushing guilt. girlies when they make a display of vulnerability and uncertainty, claim responsibility for an atrocity they could not have predicted would happen and speak of it in a way that positions them as distancing theirself with ruthless calculus all the while revealing a protective streak.

at the same time, i think about the conversation between durandal and tycho in M1. "can't you see the ends that i had in mind" (looks at the end that befell tau ceti and the marathon).

and really it's the way that durandal's choices in M1 clearly show he would have tried to prevent tau ceti's destruction. he didn't need to converse with tycho at all or justify himself to tycho if he truly didn't care. he didn't need to reboot leela before leaving marathon if he didn't care! and i think lots about how the weight of tau ceti's sacking manifests in durandal's choices during M2 (being angered when the colonists get killed by the phfor, providing them safe passage to escape afterwards) and during Infinity where, knowing that he's doomed, pushes the player to escape. to survive.

having a gender identity crisis for the 4th time this week (it's only Monday) (im going to cry) (somebody pls help my brain make up its mind)