I Think I'm Already Starting To Feel The Symptoms Of Not Feeling Attracted To Irl People Like Not In

i think i'm already starting to feel the symptoms of not feeling attracted to irl people 😭 like not in an aroace way bc i still do feel attracted to people sometimes but i dont think i can get into a relationship and love someone more than i love my paracosm and my paras

is it even possible to feel the same kind of love in real life that you feel in your paracosm? i swear i love nobody more than my paras, and i'm scared i'll never experience love in real life because of this

maladaptive daydreaming fucking sucks cause i got this whole series written in my head with complex characters and lore but the only problem is that the main character is spider-man and if i actually act on it then disney will fuck my butthole

i hate it whenever i seek to write my words down and postpone it. eventually, those precious words lose their urgency, and another important glimmer of mundane life is overlooked, overshadowed, forgotten

THIS IS SOOOOO REAL especially since i have a 4 year old paracosm with the most complex lore the human brain probably can't comprehend & sometimes when i tell people about it i js wish i could let them borrow my brain so they already know the story before i unleash my next idea so they can js be like WOOOO YEAH 😕

yknow what would be really nice? if there was someone who was like. as invested in my paracosm's story as I was. bc then whenever something exciting happens I could just go up to them like "hey look!!! look at this idea that popped into my head!! look look look!!" and I wouldn't need to explain every tiny detail that makes the idea so exciting bc. they already know the details

it's like a ritual

me ranting to myself about the parallels and relationships between my OCs (it's 1am)

dohmain eckthpanthion ☝🏽🦷