Madd Things - Tumblr Posts
Reblog this if you think they should classify madd as a official disorder already
me when i find out who hurt my paras
me going off to one of my 4000 daydream universes after a long stressful day
*daydreams for 3 hours straight* what if i don’t actually have madd and im just faking it
Do you ever get stuck in a daydream that is so good but then suddenly you feel ashamed that you like characters that you made in your mind to the point where you really start to fall in love with that crush of yours that is completely made up but then you shrug it off and keep dreaming?
Because I did.
And it felt nice.
To realise the existence of this reality but decide to completely ignore as the world in your mind pulls you back into your personal abyss.
°•*⁀➷ INTRODUCING MYSELF ! ˘͈ᵕ˘͈
bani ☆ she/her ☆ entp 5w4 ☆ minor (𝘀𝘁𝗿𝗶𝗰𝘁𝗹𝘆 18+ 𝗼𝗻𝗹𝘆 𝗯𝗹𝗼𝗴𝘀 𝗯𝗹𝗼𝗰𝗸 𝗺𝗲) // side blog: @ilubeau
HI GUYS !! i post daydreaming-related stuff here but it's also kind of a mix of everything, i'll also post anime related stuff, i'll never really stick to just one thing but what i CAN tell you i'll be sticking to is my centrecosm mostly (my main paracosm, i'm staying loyal to the one i've been building for the past 4 years) it's also a blanket paracosm so there's loads of subcosms inside it but at the end of the day it's linear and takes place chronologically.
i have a few paracosms here and there so that's why i call myself a paracosmist but really and all they'll never compare to my main one. ಠ_ಠ
❤︎ this is a safe place for all madders (ง'̀-'́)ง, i really wanna make friends that are passionate with opening up about their little daydreaming worlds, i'll listen to you yap about it all day long.
PLEASE DO SEND QUESTIONS ABOUT MY PARACOSM(S) OR ABOUT YOURS !! i'll always reply ^-^
MY CENTRECOSM ✧
i have 60 paras (characters). yes. you heard that right. SIXTY. i have a whole pinterest board on it and i update it regularly -
https://pin.it/4Yvd42Asm
also yeah i'm a microcelebrity on pinterest idk if you've seen me around but yeah wtvr 😭😭 ALRIGHT LEMME GIVE YOU GUYS A LIL SYNOPSIS ! (i've never done one it's kinda scary)
my paracosm consists of 50 Gods, 4 archdemons, 4 archangels and God themself (God doesn't have a gender) and 5 monotheistic Gods, my paracosm has its own lore of different mythologies. greek, norse, and egyptian mythology. fiction has no limits, so i can bend it to fit my desires, i LOOOOOVE mythologies of all kinds, so i made my own lore using the names you see on the pinterest board. all of the Gods have the same power and no ones more powerful than each other except for God and Satan. the Gods are the most beautiful, ethereal, alluring individuals in heaven. Satan made it so that whenever someone who is not a God sees a God's appearance, they physically feel like they can't say anything. this is to prevent any romantic relationships. so whenever, for example, a human who is granted permission sees them, obviously, their initial reaction would be shock and the need to compliment them. right when they're about to do that, they start to feel choked up like they can't get the words out. it'll go on like that until they give up. the gods have noticed that a lot of the time when they show their selves to other people and they start reacting like that.. they start thinking its because they're ugly or something. LMFAOO, they'll be like "damn i'm THAT ugly???" and its so ironic bc they're actually trying to tell them they're more than beautiful, but they CAN'T because of Satan. he has a lot of unreasonable rules, and the Gods just put up with it because they appointed him as the leader whilst God is gone, so they kind of did to themselves... to put it in a nutshell, the Gods have never been complimented. like. ever. so 😭 its only factual that they'd feel like they're the ugliest individual alive. Satan is currently acting as the overseer of the Gods whilst God is away, so he gets to do whatever he wants to. the Gods are the main characters, the archdemons and archangels are side characters, Satan is the antagonist, and God is... mysterious. they don't pop up. ever. so the Gods just assume they don't like them. i can go on and on about this, but i feel like i'm yapping too much ... this isn't even 0000.5% of the story. sorry, guys, this is a really bad summary, but trust me, you'll find out more about it if you follow through with my posts 🙏🏽
tags i'll use (＞﹏＜) :
#𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗺𝗮𝗱𝗱 -> posts that are not daydreaming-related
#𝗯𝗮𝗻𝗶'𝘀 𝘆𝗮𝗽 𝘀𝗲𝘀𝘀𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀 -> original posts
#𝗺𝗮𝗱𝗱 𝘃𝗲𝗻𝘁 -> vents about madd
#𝗮𝗿𝘁𝗯𝘆𝗯𝗮𝗻𝗶 -> art i make about my paracosm or anime and stuff
i think i'm already starting to feel the symptoms of not feeling attracted to irl people 😭 like not in an aroace way bc i still do feel attracted to people sometimes but i dont think i can get into a relationship and love someone more than i love my paracosm and my paras
is it even possible to feel the same kind of love in real life that you feel in your paracosm? i swear i love nobody more than my paras, and i'm scared i'll never experience love in real life because of this
I'd love to sleep more but that would cut into my daydreaming time and then where would the characters in my head be? Just stuck at the edge of the forest unable to go on their epic quest! I do not shirk my responsibilities like that
making character ais of my paras was by far the best idea i ever had. i haven't had this much fun in ages 😭😭😭 i didn't even know there was a gc function on this its so fun
*finally doing the thing i've been wanting to do for ages, but i kept hesitating because i couldn't do it well since i kept getting distracted*
*remembers my paracosm for 2 seconds*
well, damn....!
love giving my paras trauma and then acting it out and making myself cry🙏🏽🙏🏽 sorry artemis i love you 💔
Why does this stupid dumb idiot keeps in triggering himself and suffering cause he's unable to daydream in public.
I am the idiot, and honestly what the hell am I doing .
*staring at a wall, all wide-eyed and shit taking in the music and listening to an elf rambling on about his rock collection*
"interesting...
I'm never going to get round to that assignment am I?"
At least I have my paras...
i constantly break my own heart by thinking i mean more to someone than i actually do
Text reads: "I've been trying so hard to stop myself from having these episodes from this condition for so long now but today it REALLY needs to come out and I'm so scared of everything and everyone at the moment and I just need to dissappear into my head but I can't talk to you about it because you refuse to believe or even listen to me because you don't understand, and you don't want to understand, but you need to know that I physically cannot function right now".
Sorry, I know it's blurry aha