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I want to know what it feels like to stand at the edge of a roof, one more step and I'm gone, I wanna feel death at the top of my tongue wanting to consume me whole.

I want to know if I'll be scared, I want to know if I'll be tempted to jump or if I'll suddenly remember something that will make me regret and back away from the edge.

I'm not suicidal but sometimes the lines get all blurry.

If I jump will they miss me for longer than 3 months? will they talk about me to all their new friends? will they talk their kids about me?

Head: What's the hardest thing to say??

Brain: Goodbye

Head: what about the easiest thing to break

Brain: a promise

Waking up and wishing you could not

I realized today that I have stopped living life. I'm literally just trying to get to the next day, just living in the thought of tomorrow. I’m not living, I’m waiting. And the trouble is, I don’t know what I’m exactly waiting for. I’m kind of scared for what it might be.

"Who are you when no one is around?"

"Im a girl torn between falling asleep to escape the thoughts and staying awake to escape the dreams"