@class1akids You Somehow Always Come Up With The Description To Make Me Realise A Lot Of Things About

@class1akids You somehow always come up with the description to make me realise a lot of things about MHA👍

Hawks is interesting to me because it's kinda like he decides things for everyone and assumes that he is always right/smarter than others but he couldn't understand twice and understimated how he felt for the LOV and is now assuming things abt how endvr should or shouldn't react to dabi like ????? Even his feelings of guilt for his family are confusing because i don't think he really understands how any type of relationship works? Tbh he just knows how to be a soldier. Idk hawks is weird lmao

I don't see Hawks deciding things for others as hubris / assuming he's always right, but more as a coping mechanism. After all, he is also a child abuse victim and someone who had no healthy ways to process his experiences growing up in the institutionalized setting he did, as part of a government grooming programme.

Hawks was trained to believe that cutting ties with his parents, his past, his identity would make him a better hero - and even if he had no agency in that process - he is restructuring it as something that he himself decided - perhaps to feel some control over the situation.

But I think the way Hawks never addressed his past, never really faced the fact that his father hated him and his mother was willing to basically sell him - all of that are part of his subconscious.

To the point that he sees his own self-worth only in terms of how useful he can be to others.

To me, Hawks' and Endeavor's relationship always felt fundamentally a kind of child/parent framing, where Hawks projected a lot of his yearning for being protected / accepted onto Endeavor (at first the doll/fantasy version). And even upon meeting the real guy and seeing his flaws up close, it feels to me that Hawks is trying to save him because it's the only bond resembling a familial one that he has (even if it's largely built as a defence mechanism) and he hopes to find himself if only he could help Endeavor become that shining ideal again.

And I think it was with this in mind that Hawks used his influence over the battle planning to ensure that Endeavor wouldn't face Touya, because he correctly surmised that Endeavor wouldn't be able to fight his son and would just accept Touya's rage (and quite possibly die in the process).

What Hawks didn't factor in though is that it wasn't Endeavor's role to fight Dabi. That's not why the Todoroki family wanted him there. It wasn't meant to be a hero vs villain fight. His role would have been to face Touya, face his past mistakes, and not to leave him alone on Sekoto peak once again to burn himself to death... and who knows? Maybe, if Touya saw proof of Endeavor's change, things wouldn't have escalated the way they have.

But Hawks still operates purely in a villains vs heroes logic, having shut away the part of himself whose literal family is a pair of villains, or the fact that he himself could have easily fallen into villainy.

So even as Endeavor crumbles, Hawks tries to rationalize his decision, holding onto hope that he can keep Endeavor on track, and when Endeavor is wounded, Hawks is ready to pay with his life for miscalculating.

I'm not holding my breath that Hori will dive deep into Hawks' character, but the narrative generally makes it clear that not facing the past is a weakness. Quirk awakenings / upgrades happen when people look back unflinchingly and find a way to move forward in full acknowledgement of the past. It doesn't need to mean forgiveness, but it means accepting the fact that it happened and trying to make some sense of it.

So I'm hoping that his interaction with Tokoyami (whose support of Hawks is very similar to Hawks' support of Endeavor) will allow Hawks to let his true identity/feelings (even the ones he believes are weaknesses) more to the surface, and instead of trying to protect Endeavor from facing the past, he will instead look at those things he himself locked away - be it the issue of his parents or killing Twice.

I love that, I adore it all: The ship, the chaos, the humour, the facts

I made cabin 3 moodboard, I don't own the pictures

“oh, why’d you have to be so cute? it’s impossible to ignore you. why must you make me laugh so much? it’s bad enough we get along so well — just say goodnight and go.”

— the most relatable lyrics i’ve ever heard (goodnight n go, ariana grande)

Blue moodboard, I made three months ago, lol

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