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I had a dream about you. But I didn’t see you from what I remember. I’m guessing it’s bc I blocked you and won’t let myself see you. But I was in your bedroom for some reason and I went in your closet and it smelled overwhelmingly like you. I don’t even know what you smell like but I knew in my dream it was you. And it made me happy. Which now makes me mad bc I’d rather be angry or sad than feel anything good for you. It makes things easier. I wish I could hug you and have your scent surround me.

I saw something that said he knows what he did you you and he doesn’t care. Does he know how much he hurt me? I mean he didn’t set out to hurt me so i can’t blame him but does he realize that he inadvertently hurt me?

I had another dream about you. I’ve never dreamed about you two days in a row. Weird. I don’t remember all the details but I remember cuddling on a couch and just feeling completely at home and comfortable. After crying all morning yesterday I think I’m too drained to feel anything about it right now.

It’s weird liking someone on and off for 8 years and never being super close bc they were never interested. I don’t really know him and he doesn’t really know me. And I’ve changed a lot since we last talked so I’m guessing he has too. He’s a stranger in a lot of ways and it sucks bc I always wanted to just be a part of his life even if that only meant checking in once in a while on social media. But he didn’t care enough to be a part of my life so I don’t need him in mine. Maybe someday but I can unblock him but not anytime soon.

Dear crush,

I think I might finally understand my attachment to you. I don’t want to say much in case I am wrong. But it would make so much sense. It might not make things easier. But at least I would understand why this is happening.

One thing I’ve realized is him not responding is an answer of its own. That is important bc I always have felt like I need a response for everything to understand what someone is thinking.

Was I really that easy to forget?

I started spiraling when I blocked you. I can’t get as bad as I used to be again. Not because of you.

I’m so confused right now. Nothing has changed except that I am wondering if I could unblock you and be ok. But I know I’m not over you and it still hurts sometimes so the time isn’t right to unblock you. I just miss you. Even though we didn’t talk really and you never liked any of my posts, I liked knowing that you might see them at least. Sometimes I feel pathetic. We’ll see what happens in time.

I don’t even have any words to describe how I’m feeling about him right now. It’s weird. I’m feeling very empty about the situation.

I feel so numb when I think about you now, I’d rather feel sad or something other than this emptiness.

I miss you. I wish things would have turned out different.

I saw something that said after a breakup wait 21 days and you should start to feel if you did the right thing and it should hurt less. I never dated you and only blocked you and it’s been a month. A full month. And I am still hurting just as much. And now I’m wondering if I did the right thing or not. I know I need to not talk to you but what’s the point of blocking you? To prove I could do it? To make you feel like you did something wrong? So you know you hurt me? I need to think some more.

I’ve been blaming you for my sadness bc it’s easier to blame someone else than to realize that all this hurt is from myself. I’m sorry if that has somehow affected you. I know you never really cared about me so I doubt you care what I do or think. But you didn’t do anything wrong. I’m sorry.

I’m having a bad day mentally and I just want to break down but I can’t. Too many people awake and around. I can’t talk to my friends bc I already feel like I’m annoying and a burden. Then to try and avoid this hurt my mind goes to him. And I can’t talk to him or anything bc I blocked him. And I can’t unblock him bc then I might get worse. Idk what to do.

A few days ago the urge to unblock him became too overwhelming. For me it was a pressure in my chest that was painful. As soon as I unblocked him it was gone and I wasn’t anymore sad than any other day. And I’m still doing ok. Sometimes you have to figure out what’s best for you. Maybe I’ll get bad again but right now I think I did the right thing. Everyone said it would make things worse but right now I feel a little better.

I’m not super sad or hurt when I see you. But I do miss you and I do want to talk to you. But I can’t. I wonder if you noticed I unblocked you. I wonder if you wondered why I did. I wonder if you think of me.

I hate how I compare everyone to you.

Does anyone know if Instagram has a glitch that will change the seen time to a more recent time? A few times the seen has changed for one person. Like two weeks ago it was seen Thursday then after a week went back to seen. Then today it says seen 6 hours ago. Is this person checking the message again or is it just a mean glitch to get your hopes up? Also hopefully replies work on this post if anyone knows lol

You know what sucks? Not only do I constantly want to see you and hug you and talk to you, I constantly want to talk about you to whoever will listen. I want to talk about how I miss you and want to see you. I want to ask people how you’re doing and what you’re up to. It sucks and I hate it.