Anonymous Part Twenty Five - L.hs 18+

anonymous part twenty five - l.hs 18+

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(disclaimer: bit of a heavy chapter but we're airing out all the issues we have here lol,,,,,, so lots of character development <3 sorry for slower updates, I'm back to work now!)

“So,” you mumbled over the rim of your mug. “This is kind of weird.”

Heeseung caught your gaze from opposite you, opting to just hum in response. You’d arrived home a little while ago from lunch with the boys, you texted Heeseung on the drive home to ask him if he wanted to have a chat when you got back. In hindsight, that sounded terrifying but you honestly just wanted to settle things a bit.

Sunoo had mentioned how rough things were for Heeseung recently, especially with all the mess from his ‘job’. Sunoo never went into detail, he said it was Heeseung’s business and he didn’t want to upset him by telling you. Which you respected, you’d learned by now that Sunoo was a loyal friend.

“Did you want to talk about something?” Heeseung asked, he seemed nervous. His fingers were tugging and pulling at the threads of his jumper and he was finding it hard to be in your presence without feeling his cheeks flush.

“Kind of,” you replied. “I just mostly wanted to talk so that things aren’t super awkward between us. And I wanted to talk about things without Jungwon here, because I know he doesn’t know about all of this shit.”

“Yeah, he doesn’t need to know all that,” Heeseung laughed awkwardly. “I know you said to stop apologising, but I honestly don’t understand what was going through my brain when I did all that.”

“I don’t know either Heeseung,” you sighed. “The whole thing was a bit fucked up, and I probably could’ve looked past the fact that you were Ethan if you’d have told me sooner rather than letting me find out by accident. The worst part was the obsessive behaviour.”

“I get that,” he tucked his feet up underneath him. “It was weird for me, when I was Ethan I felt completely different to when I was Heeseung. Because Ethan got your attention, and I know it was because of the money and you probably felt that you had to talk to me more because of all the money I sent, but the attention got to my head I think.”

“Yeah, and that’s my fault too. Like, we’re both to blame, I definitely lead you on when you were Ethan because of the money. But I’ve been in that situation before and it’s so hard to keep those boundaries sometimes, I’m glad it ended even if it ruined our friendship for a while.”

It was harsh but true, and Heeseung knew that. The ‘relationship’ you two had when he was Ethan had to end, it was never going to go anywhere and Heeseung knew that deep down, but he wanted to stay in his little delusional world for a little longer. And the fact that he never got to tell you himself made it worse, it definitely did ruin whatever friendship you two had in the real world.

“I’m glad it ended too, in a bittersweet way,” Heeseung replied, he took a sip from his own drink and you could see how his hands shook a little bit. “I do miss it sometimes, but now that we’re out of that situation I can see how toxic it was. I felt like we had something, but it was purely because I felt like you owed me attention when I sent money. And now that I’m slightly less of a fucking incel, I can see that it was stupid to think that. I really am sorry Y/N, I never meant for it to get out of hand like that. And when Jake and I became friends I never even knew he was friends with you too, maybe that was the universe’s way of telling me to sort my shit out and stop what I was doing.”

You nodded, it felt good to get everything off your chest, “the universe simultaneously split us up and bought us back together again, maybe we were destined to be friends.”

Heeseung looked up at you finally, wide eyes blinking slowly as he took in your face. You smiled softly at him.

“Does that mean we’re friends again?” He asked you, hanging off your every word like a puppy.

You smiled wider, “yeah, friends again.”

And for the first time since you’d started talking, Heeseung actually smiled at you. It was genuine and warm, he was truly happy. He didn’t reply, he just nodded, biting down on his lip to stop the grin that threatened to split his face.

“So we can agree to put it all behind us, yeah? Let’s act like it never happened,” he nodded, grateful for your forgiveness. “I’ve taken a step back from that side of my life now anyway, I wasn’t enjoying the dm sessions and the personal content, I prefer just making videos and putting content out that I want to create.”

“That’s good, you should do what makes you happy,” Heeseung started to fiddle with his sleeve again. Even though he wasn’t Ethan anymore, he still was enamoured with you, and thinking about you talking to other guys made his stomach churn unpleasantly. He reminded himself that it was your job, you didn’t care for clients like that.

If he thought about it too long then he’d start spiralling again, so Heeseung decided to not ask any more questions about your job. The less he knew the better. He didn’t want to become the obsessed version of himself that he was when he was Ethan.

“I did want to talk about something else before Wonnie comes home,” you said, bringing him out of his thoughts. “It’s to do with your job.”

Heeseung paled a little bit, it was part of his life where he was truly ashamed. He hated that he’d followed in his father’s footsteps, especially when he had promised Jungwon to look after him. He felt like he wasn’t doing a good job at that, Jungwon was in danger every day because of him.

“Heeseung?” You called, snapping him out of his thoughts, “can you tell me about it? I need to know what we’re dealing with here, so I can help you out of it.”

Heeseung thought he might cry, why were you being so kind to him after everything?

“There’s no way to sugar coat it,” he started, slumping down onto the couch. “I sell drugs. Our Dad did it too, and I took over when he got caught. He’s in prison now for a long time, and he left me to look after Jungwon. I was only seventeen when he left us, and I had no idea what to do, I didn’t want them to take Jungwon away so I lied about everything to everyone. I told them I worked in a convenience store, and no one questioned it.”

You could see how Heeseung’s eyes started to get glossy again as he blinked back the tears. You hated that he’d been through so much already. Putting your mug down on the table, you stood up and made your way to the other couch to sit next to Heeseung. If it was anyone else you would’ve hugged them, but for now just sitting next to him felt like enough. You didn’t want to overwhelm him.

“I’ve been fine for years, I never had to worry about a thing because I was good at the job. When Jungwon got into university I had to fund it myself, I lied to Won and told him we had savings from Dad but in reality we have nothing from him. I spent all our money on his fees, so I had to up my game a bit and sell more, sell harder stuff. And we were fine for so long,” he took in a sharp breath. “But I sold the wrong thing to the wrong guy and now his entire family is after me, and they’ll go for Jungwon too just to get at me. They have my address so we had to leave until I can find out a way to get them off my back.”

You didn’t know what to say in all honesty, you’d never have imagined such a thing from Heeseung. Your soft and quiet Heeseung. One thing you did know was that you wanted to help him.

Pulling your sleeve over you hand, you dabbed at the tear marks on his cheeks, wiping away the droplets. He looked up at you, his eyelashes were wet and his eyes looked so much more endearing like this. He looked really pretty and it was going to get you in trouble if you kept looking at him. Curse your attraction to pathetic looking men, now was not the time.

“I’m sorry Hee,” you mumbled. “But we’ll figure it out. We’ll figure it out and get you out of this job, and then you’ll never have to worry about this shit. And we’ll keep Jungwon safe, I promise you that.”

You rubbed his back gently, you wanted to hug him but you didn’t want to push your luck. Things were still fragile between you two, baby steps were the way to go.

“Thank you Y/N, honestly,” he leant back into your touch a little, closing his eyes at the warmth coming from your hand. “I really want to get out of this, I just want a quiet life for me and Jungwon.”

“We’ll make sure that happens, it might take a while but we can figure it out. You’ve got me on your side now,” you gave him a light pat on his back before removing your touch and standing up. You offered him a hand, which he took gently and let you pull him to his feet. “But first, I’m hungry. What’s Won’s favourite food?”

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You texted Heeseung that you were on your way home, just out of politeness and to see if he would hide away from you in the spare room like you'd told him to. You were still a little on edge, the line between Heeseung and Ethan was so blurred that it was hard to separate the two of them. But over text, Heeseung was, well, normal? He wasn't weirdly obsessive, he didn't say anything that made you uncomfortable. In fact, he was so different that you almost couldn't believe that him and Ethan were the same person all along.

Jay had dropped you home to your apartment block, lingering in his car outside until he made sure you were safe inside. He wasn't too keen on the idea at first, having you share your space with Heeseung, but knowing Jungwon was there and seeing how Heeseung had already matured in such a small amount of time, he felt a little less worried.

He didn't even know Jungwon but he seemed like a sweet kid, Sunoo had shown them all Jungwon's social media. He portrayed himself well, he was a university student at the school nearby and he adored his older brother. He did arts in his spare time and loved to dance. There was so much to love about Jungwon.

"Hello?" You called out into the apartment, dropping your bags on the floor as you kicked off your shoes. You could already see two other pairs of trainers tucked away nearly that weren't there when you left. It was quite sweet how they'd tucked the laces in the shoes so that they wouldn't be strewn around messily. You didn't notice the smile that crept it's way onto your face.

"Y/N-ssi?" You heard from the living room area before light footsteps made there way towards you. A boy a few years younger than you popped his head around the corner, wide eyes blinking up at you. Jungwon.

"Hi Jungwon," you smiled, hanging your jacket up. "Did you unpack everything ok?"

"Yeah! The room is so big, thank you so much!" He glanced down at the grocery bags by your feet, "let me help you."

Jungwon took over half the bags, carrying them to the kitchen whilst you trailed behind with a few in your arms. He set off straight away, putting away any items he could figure out the places for.

"You bought so much food Y/N-ssi, are you having a party?" He asked curiously, struggling to reach the top shelf of the fridge to put away some vegetables.

"Jungwon, please just call me Y/N, you don't need to be so formal," the younger boy flushed with embarrassment but nodded nonetheless, "and no, no party. I just assumed having two more mouths to feed would constitute a lot more food so I stocked up a bit."

"We can buy our own food! You don't need to feed us, just letting us stay here is more than enough," Jungwon replied. "Next time, let me and Heeseung go shopping for groceries, ok?"

Ruffling his hair gently you agreed. Jungwon protested quietly but you could see the small smile that decorated his cheeks as he brushed his hand through the messed up strands. You flicked on the kettle, grabbing some mugs.

"What sort of drinks do you like? I have anything you could ever think of." You asked, starting to make tea for yourself.

"Hmm, I like coffee but Seungie says I drink too much of it already so I should cut down a bit," he giggled the last part. "So I'll have tea too if that's ok?"

"Of course," you poured him a cup whilst he instructed you on how he liked it best, one sugar and lots of milk. "What does Heeseung like?"

Jungwon blinked at you slowly, wondering why you were making his brother a drink. From what he'd heard from Heeseung, you two weren't on good terms and that's why Heeseung wouldn't be hanging out with you, opting to stay in the room instead. But his older bother must be lying, because why would you be making him a drink if you didn't like him?

"Won?" You asked softly, noticing him zone out for a moment.

"Oh, sorry! I was just thinking about something, Hee likes tea as well! But he likes it without milk, I don't know why I think that's kind of gross like that but whatever." You poured the third cup and handed Jungwon his and Heeseung's drinks, "I'll take this to him, thanks Y/N!"

"No problem Jungwon, tell Heeseung I'll cook in a little while if he's hungry. If not then he can come and eat later or something, no pressure."

Jungwon nodded, scurrying off with the two drinks to where Heeseung sat on the bed with his laptop, scouring the internet for jobs.

"Seungie," he sang, placing the mug down next to him. "Y/N made you a drink, she said she's cooking soon if you're hungry but if not then help yourself later. I thought you said she hated you? She seems really nice!"

"Woah Jungwon calm down, one sentence at a time," Heeseung said, taking a quick sip from his mug. "I didn't say she hated me, we're just not on the best of terms that's all. Maybe I'll come for food if i get all this finished, ok? But you go join her, I'm sure she'd love that."

"Thanks Seung, this place is so nice! I'm glad Y/N is letting us stay for a while," he said, gulping down his drink even though it was still piping hot.

"Yeah, I'm glad too."

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