Why Am I Here?

Why am I here?

I have one life lesson I want to share and that is, I came here to find myself. I am referring to my self which is the all encompassing and ever expanding eternal being that I AM.

I discovered this lesson after having parted with my twin flame. In fact it was he who was the key to bringing this lesson to my consciousness. To explain, let me start with some history.

We, my family and I, left our home as refugees and were placed in a refugee camp for about a year. I would be 5 years old when I arrive into a new country, one I now call home. It's been home for over 40years. I didn't realise how traumatic this experience was for me until I started my shadow work, which essentially came about during the time my twin and I parted.

My 5yo self did a great job at locking away her true self. She built walls so high that no one could ever know her true, authentic and beautiful self. Her armour was strong and (almost) impenetrable. Her veils and her facades, they were always perfect. Her perfect defence mechanism. Her heart, my heart, our heart was underneath all of that. It was my job to unveil and unmask. Take off the armour and tear down the fortresses which surrounded our hearts.

I am finally on the other side of this journey of 'self discovery', to finding myself. Yes I still have many other 'lessons' in this lifetime to learn and explore and experience but this lesson was a major one that will pave the way for many new lessons that I will be discovering.

How wonderful it is, I can now feel the tides of my heart. I love feeling with it and I love seeing from it. I love that it is filled with an abundance of love and light. I love the way it connects with me and everyone else too. My perceptions have changed and so has my experiences. All because I found my self and I am now able to live authentically with all my quirks and vulnerabilities. My heart and soul is wide open and I love it! I live in brillance and joy!

It's been about 2years since I've seen my twin flame and that's the marker for how long I've been doing this inner work. Its not always smooth sailing but I am committed to my path and all the experiences I am yet to discover and explore. My soul craves it and finds it very enjoyable.

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#newmoonincancer

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I feel very different. Very very different from the person I was this time last year, but also from the person I was just 2months ago.

Im not sure how to articulate this but it would seem that I'm starting to see the different layers of our society, this construct. Maybe what I'm starting to see is the now moment, made up of the past, present and future as one moment, the now moment for time doesn't exist as we would know it, in the linear sense.

I dont know if this story relates but somehow I think it does..

Last week I experienced a profound moment. I've had these types of moments occur in my life before, just a handful of amazing times. Last week I had another. I was lying in bed, thinking about time, the magical shape of time and I found myself in perfect alignment within time which was made up of my present, past and future all at once. It was a major wow experience for me. I'll never forget it because 'time' as I experienced it, was circular in shape.

This Dark Night of the Soul certainly strips you bare. I'm having one of those crazy moments so I'll share something I reflected on.

I'm not going to lie, there are times where I wish he would just try to see us from a higher perspective. Not from this male, female, 3d relationship construct viewpoint.  See who we are, who we truly are.  Look beyond the physical.  Remember us. Know us. Feel us. Believe. Believe because it's all true.  Remember him, remember who he is! Remember why he chose to come here.

It definitely was not to just exist. Work, rest, sleep, eat. There's more! So much more!

We are magnificent.  Yes we are that special. We are bound you and I. We were bound before we came into being onto this Earthly plane.  We have purpose here.  We are meant to be here together and help the world to heal, just by being together we achieve that.  Should we activate our purpose, know that our light is powerful and enduring and shines into the great vastness of the Universe.

Think of the period of time in which we were around each other's energy and reflect on the time where we are not. Do you notice a difference in your own energy and that around you? Compare the differences. Did you not feel the power and intensity of our energy together? Did you achieve greater things? Things you wanted seemed possible, not only did they become possible but they manifested for you quicker than usual.   That's not even half of how powerful we are designed to be. 

I choose to exist in a different vibration, higher frequency. When I think back I can't seem to 'see' him anymore. He comes up like an idea I once had in the past. I don't recall him in the physical sense anymore. I think the realities we exist in, simply there's just too wide a gap between the two. To recall details would take me too long and the effort too much, I'm happier in the higher vibrations.

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Take the journey to find the universe within you.

The light within me is the same light within you.

The love that I am is the love that you are, the love that we are.

Allow the expansion of your heart.

Allow all the feelings to move through you.

Allow yourself to feel all the uncomfortable feelings and allow them to move through you. Small feelings and big feelings from deep deep within will start to surface. You may not be able to recognise them or identify them yet, but they will rise to the surface and they will be released.

Feel them and breathe. Let it come and let it go. This is the natural process.

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