Stuff Like This Is Why I Enjoy Posting My Works. It Warms My Heart So Much That Something Ive Written

stuff like this is why i enjoy posting my works. it warms my heart so much that something ive written can give someone comfort when they need it. biggest compliment ever. stay strong everyone, you've got this! fighting ♥

Tears and Healing

A/N: just a small comfort fic because i broke my clean streak a couple minutes ago. you’re never alone, if you want to talk, i’m here. hurting yourself isn’t the answer and i say this as someone who does. don’t be afraid to reach out, you’ve got this.

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CONTENT WARNING SH!!!! don’t read if you’re not comfortable with this

-choi jongho x reader

written quickly and tearfully; mentions of fresh sh and general depression

LAST WARNING OF SH MENTIONS BELOW THE CUT

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Tears filled your eyes quickly as Jongho held your hands gently, his eyes on your thighs as you sat in front of him. You wanted to tell him you broke your clean streak rather than him finding out on his own one day. It was painful to sit him down and tell him… to show him. But you loved him. And he loved you. No secrets. Not when it came to your well being. 

His eyes filled with tears to match yours as he looked between your fresh cuts and your own watery eyes. 

“What made you do it?”

“I don’t know…”, you sighed, “it’s just been a lot lately and I know you have your own things to worry about so I kept it to myself…”

“You’re my everything, love. You never have to hide stuff like this from me. I just want you happy.”, his hand left yours to wipe away some tears from your cheeks.

You nodded at him, words failing you as you watched him cry for you. You loved him so much and you never wanted to see him cry, but telling him, going through it all with by your side made it so much easier to face tomorrow. 

“I know it’s difficult speaking up, going through this… thank you for telling me, love. It’ll be okay, yeah?” 

You smiled at him sadly, your tears falling with his as he pulled you to his chest, a comforting hand rubbing your back gently.

“You’re not alone. You never are. I promise you, Y/N… I will always be here for you.”

i may be a mingki first and foremost but san is so easy to write in my head??? maybe i need to accept that san is going to be one of if not the most written for on my blog…….. we shall see. this san network is not helping my brain wanting to write san either pls 😭

i want to make mingi mad… think about it:

mingi who’s entire energy changes when you give him attitude

mingi who’s hand wraps around your thigh in warning when you’re out to dinner with the other boys

mingi who levels you with a stare that sends shivers down your spine and tingles to your pussy

mingi who, seeing you smile a little too much with yeosang instead of him, hooks his pretty fingers in your cheeks and forces you to smile as he fucks you in front of the mirror

mingi who gets so mad that he has a little darker intent behind his movements when he chokes you as his cock slides into you

mingi who knows you want him mad to receive his worst punishment so he ignores you in return, his jaw clenching with every word you talk back with

mingi who snarls at you when you say you’ll get attention from jongho instead if he wanted to ignore you

mingi who sits jongho down roughly across from your shared bed, his hips bruising your ass as he fucks you, a hand wrapped around your throat and his eyes dark with his jaw clenched, veins popping everywhere (iykyk)

mingi who apologizes for his rough treatment and then promises to do worse the next time you want to make him that mad

mingi who orders your favourite food just in case you were still plotting a little to get him mad…

yeah, i wanna make him mad. bias man mad 😔🤌

Changes

i’m going to be making some changes to my account. a new pfp, a new bio, and a master list pin that’s hopefully easy to navigate. i still won’t have that much of a layout for posts but you’ll be able to find everything i’ve written in one place, it will take a minute to have it up to date but it will exist! (and then we can see everything i’ve abandoned from my early days)