The Way I Scrolled Past This And Then Said "WAIT YEAH" And Went Straight Back

The way I scrolled past this and then said "WAIT YEAH" and went straight back

An addition if you don't mind- Surface pressure but Dick Grayson (and his eldest daughter syndrome)

Waiting On A Miracle but Tim Drake-

I hate it when I stop enjoying activities that I used to like. I've been taking japanese lessons and I've just started dreading them (even though I usually enjoy the lessons) but it doesn't just affect me and I'm rlly fucking struggling

So I'm trying to learn Japanese and I have an online lesson every week, that's because like two years ago I was really into anime (still am but I'm way less obsessive about it now) and I was like "I'm gonna learn the language too!" So my mum thought it was a great idea and found me lessons.

I know learning a language would be good for me and that learning languages is way harder as an adult. I really like the language and I love learning it (it makes me happy when I can recognize basic words, it's fun to learn, its really interesting and I usually enjoy the lessons). But for some reason I'm kinda dreading it every time.

It's probably related to the fact that I've kinda been struggling with my mental health lately and I just kinda think I'm really fucking stupid. Like every time I don't know something I get really close to crying, and I know basically nothing so it's pretty common. I'm really emotional about everything and I have an awful memory so yk, a lot of the time when I do know things I forget them anyway.

So every time I have a lesson I feel so fucking stupid and I feel bad because like my teacher's really great and it's usually pretty fun. I find Japanese so interesting and I don't find it that hard but I remember nothing and I always end up really struggling to remember words I've said a billion times.

I have two notebooks (one of them's been completely filled) that I really can't get through 5 minutes without. But I forgot I had a lesson today so I have like half an hour to go to my nans and get set up.

I can't cancel without 24 hours notice because they're pretty expensive and my grandad pays for them. My mum's started making me feel really guilty whenever I do try to cancel or move the lesson (even with enough time) so there's been like three times I've had to cancel plans bc of the awkward timing (it was from 12:30 to 1:30 on saturdays but it's been permenantly moved to 5:30 on Wednesdays)

And they're really expensive too (idk for sure but I think it's around £70 per lesson) and I feel so guilty for making my family spend that much on me and even worse for being so ungrateful. Like that's £70 per week and I'm fucking dreading it?

I think if I really wanted to quit I could but I just feel like it'd be a bad idea? Like this'd be good for me and it'd be such a waste to quit now but I'm so bad at it and idrk what to do ab it

Presenting Makotowing! (naegwing?)

I finally drew something for my DC/Danganronpa crossover lol

If this is the first part of it you've seen then here is the masterlist of the posts I've made so far (assigning and explaining characters)

Thank you!! You get it 🫵

I think of dick with surface pressure every time I think of the film lol

Waiting On A Miracle but Tim Drake-

Every time I see the acronym ndrv3 I read it as neurodivergent 3 and tbh it's kinda fitting

My family keeps standing around me in a circle and staring at me??? Am I the fucking sacrifice???? Stoppppp