I Gotta Find Me A Therapist Like That, My Dude. Holy Spa-heckie Itd Be Nice To Have Someone Who REALLY

I gotta find me a therapist like that, my dude. Holy spa-heckie it’d be nice to have someone who REALLY understands...

Words cannot express how deeply I appreciate having an ADHD specialist for a therapist, who also has the same type of ADHD as me because it means they also know that time is a meaningless construct, and the odds of both of us showing up late with extra starbucks are inevitably in our favor.

Here to rant about my fixation about how wonderful a beiing you are.

Sdhsjdhsj e x c u s e me whomst

A renovation is needed

So, I've decided to finally get my ass in gear and do something I've been meaning to for.... a long while now.

Instead of my art blog, this will now be a personal blog where I post about my experiences and struggles with ADHD, and the hyperfixations that come with.

I will probably post rants pertaining to my current hyperfixations, be prepared for a lot of screaming and less-than-eloquent keyboard smashes.

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Like for example, I'm TERRIFIED of going to the dentist now. Not because their tools spook me, or anyth- well... not ONLY because they spook me... That's not the main reason.

ANYWAYS I'm terrified of going to the dentist now because, 3-4 years ago when my depression got to its worst, I stopped taking care of myself; brushing my teeth being something I quit doing. I'm doing so much better nowadays, don't you worry! Like a year later I came out as transgender and a lot of my issues went away. But... As a creature of habit, it took me a while to get back on track- to pick up good habits and keep them, y'know?

I just started brushing my teeth regularly again last week. And I'm still not all on top of it, despite. Like, 5/7 days I'll remember to brush, and it's always while showering that I remember.

I have to get my wisdom teeth taken out, I remember being told last time I had an appointment. I KNOW I have to go back and get that done before they come in wrong and fuck up my mouth alignment, I know it logically. But I don't want them to see how bad my teeth have gotten; I don't want to learn that I've got a rotting tooth and that I need a root canal, or that I've got 12 different cavities. Which is STUPID, better to stop it and fix it all before it gets worse. But here I am. I haven't been to see the dentist in like 5 years.

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Especially with emotions.