This Is Why I Hate The Debate Of Dazai Would Choose Oda Over Chuuya. Would He Really? Because I Feel

This is why I hate the debate of Dazai would choose Oda over Chuuya. Would he really? because I feel like without Chuuya he wouldn't even have considered Oda request.

Oda's request would have just proved Dazai's (suicidal) point that life means nothing, that it doesn't matter what side you're on, or whether you're a good or bad person.

But since Chuuya made him WANT to live, is why he considered that request, because Dazai knows that life isn't completely meaningless, Chuuya showed him that.

Because Chuuya showed Dazai that life is somewhat worth living, that makes it easier for Dazai to consider oda's request, because it wasn't about just doing good because there no meaning, it's about finding more meaning in the thing that you never considered exploring.

For all we know Dazai's life has been bad to say something, Chuuya was a highlight of the little good he had in his life and was a beacon of the present good in it, while oda's request was casting light on the possible good in the future.

So to reiterate, Dazai wouldn't choose Oda over Chuuya, because without Chuuya, Dazai wouldn't have been alive to meet him, much less care about him or Ango.

The same way that Chuuya wouldn't choose the Mafia over Dazai, if force to pick between the two Chuuya would pick Dazai without second thought, Chuuya would destroy the world and himself for Dazai. Chuuya may be loyal to the Mafia but his loyalty lays with Dazai.

And Dazai may have left the Mafia and followed Oda's dying wish, but Dazai never risks Chuuya, Dazai is willing to let Oda's wish burn with the world for Chuuya. Hell Dazai was ready to let Yokohama get destroyed just to prove that Chuuya human, why would Dazai care that Chuuya human? Because Chuuya cares about whether or not he's human, so it matters to Dazai.

Dazai is Chuuya's humanity, and Chuuya wants so desperately to be human, Dazai ability is truly a gift to him, and one he adores full heartedly

Chuuya is Dazai's reason to live, not much to say to it, Chuuya highlights the good that Dazai struggles too see, he makes Dazai consider things he thought useless, and he lets Dazai feel more comfortable in the fact that his existence doesn't have to have meaning. (And Chuuya ability is something that Dazai finds beauty in, it something he finds mesmerizing to the point where he can just stop and stare and just forget about all the bad things even for just a moment)

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Tldr: Oda just gave him something to fill his need for a meaning to life and living, while Chuuya makes him not care/think about whether life needs meaning or not to live.

Chuuya made Dazai want to live.

Oda made Dazai want to change.

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do you ever think about post hawkmoth enemies au where adrien is finally free from his father and gets to go to public school like he’s always wanted but everyone hates him. and then do you think about how he’s conditioned to accept a certain amount of abuse by everyone and to think that standing up for himself would invite greater retaliation. because i do.

Where do you see yourself in 5 years?

Look buddy, i’m just trying to make it to Friday.

my headcanons about dazai's childhood leading up to being found by mori at fourteen (contains mentions of self-harm and suicide. read at your own discrestion) :

**note that i have not read no longer human and so will be deriving most of these hcs from irl dazai's life and my own personal interpretation of him. this is purely self-indulgent with very little canon examples to back any of it up. but this is how i portray my dazai and some things in here will be mentioned going forward.

born as tsushima shuuji on june 19 to tsushima gen'emon and tsushima tane. he is an only child.

the tsushima family was actually quite wealthy and held a lot of power. yes, dazai was a rich kid. gen'emon is also a diet member and so it was a very strict and feudal household.

dazai got next to no parental love as a child for two reasons: 1.) his mother had a chronic illness since dazai was three and was bedridden for the rest of her life. he was basically told not to disturb his mother at all. 2.) gen'emon worked long hours as a politician and when he did come home he was either too tired to take care of dazai or would focus on taking care of his wife instead. this is the first step towards dazai's alienation from humanity.

this also means that he was basically taken care of by the family servants. taken care of, not raised, for they did not know how to handle a child like dazai.

dazai has undiagnosed schizoid personality disorder. this means he has a very limited range of emotional expression and has trouble forming personal connections. so even when the servants did try to reach out to him, dazai did not know how to reciprocate. it was easier to just clothe and feed him instead of trying to actually interact with him. by age five he already had a reputation for being and odd / strange child.

his high intellect and observation skills manifested at a very young age. as soon as he began to understand language, he was observing and understanding the world. he was great at puzzles, riddles, and mathematics. he was called a child genius to offset his strange demeanor. at age six he was placed in a school for (intellectually) gifted children.

now in a social situation with peers and not just in his family home, dazai's alienation became even worse. he was different from kids his age as well. he didn't get happy or excited like they did. it was impossible to reach out to them, to make any sort of meaningful connection. he started getting nicknames at school: the doll, the robot, the machine -- all things not human. not even organic.

dazai was under a lot of pressure to succeed. he was the only heir to the tsushima name. his personality disorder was passed off as an eccentricity of a genius mind. he was told he was going to do great things in the future. that he was going to run the country some day. this is where his perfectionism developed as well as his need to lie as a defense mechanism. he simply could not disappoint anyone.

this was when his depression started to manifest which only made him retreat further into himself. by age nine he was cutting himself just to see if he could bleed.

dazai's first suicide attempt was not actually meant to kill him but to bring him close to death. it was a desperate attempt to seek his father's love. his father always cared about tending to his sick wife more than parenting dazai and so he believed that if he were to also be on death's door then he would finally win his father's attention. he tries to drown himself in the river when the water level is relatively low.

but his plan backfires completely. instead of love, dazai was met with cold anger. his attempted suicide brought shame to the family name and gave his father unwanted publicity. dazai was disowned that night and cut off from any support. he had just turned fourteen.

he's on the streets for a week, trying to get away from his hometown because he still doesn't want to disappoint his father. in this time, dazai becomes disillusioned with life and his own existence. he no longer sees the point of trying after he gave and gave and gave his whole life only to be turned away. seeing his father fight to keep his mother alive though she was suffering from an illness also instilled his values of death in him. that death is just another part of life, that the two coexist to make up the entire experience of being alive. he does not understand why his father would keep his mother suffering by making her live.

dazai tries to take his life in earnest by hanging. an ability user finds him and tries to saving him using his ability. no longer human activates for the first time, stopping the gifted from rescuing him. dazai wakes up in mori's clinic, dehydrated and malnourished from his time on the streets. he's bound under suicide watch and mori offers him a deal: do exactly what he says and he will mix a cocktail that will peacefully kill him. dazai agrees. the rest is history.

AU where young child Five grew up hearing about and idolizing the adult Umbrellas, and ever since he discovered he has powers himself he has dreamed about being a part of their awesome, epic superhero team.

He finally runs away from the children´s home he lives at, makes it to Reginald Hargreeves´ grand mansion, and as he´s peering into the gates with wonder Klaus just comes wandering up to him. Five is extatic, cause here is the Seance in the flesh, and he explains how he has powers and would love to be part of their team. Klaus just shakes his head and tells him to go home, that this is no place for a child, but seeing his greatest idol walking into the great Hargreeves mansion Five can´t contain his excitement and ends up teleporting right into the house.

Reginald is initialy angry, but when Five demonstrates his powers he is delighted, telling the young boy that of course he can stay there there´s an extra bunk in Klaus´ room. While Five nearly bursts with joy, the Umbrellas are concerned, cause this is just a young child and this life is dangerous and difficult. They will need to protect him, shield him from their father´s rage and the dangers of missions the best they can, Klaus so especially since Five seems to have baby duck imprinted on him and decides he is just about the coolest person in the world.

Maybe Five has started to soften the icy exterior the Umbrellas gained after years of knowing nothing but horrific abuse and dangerous, maybe the siblings´ will to protect him is what will bring them back together into a family and give them strenght to stand up to Reginald