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This is why I hate the debate of Dazai would choose Oda over Chuuya. Would he really? because I feel like without Chuuya he wouldn't even have considered Oda request.

Oda's request would have just proved Dazai's (suicidal) point that life means nothing, that it doesn't matter what side you're on, or whether you're a good or bad person.

But since Chuuya made him WANT to live, is why he considered that request, because Dazai knows that life isn't completely meaningless, Chuuya showed him that.

Because Chuuya showed Dazai that life is somewhat worth living, that makes it easier for Dazai to consider oda's request, because it wasn't about just doing good because there no meaning, it's about finding more meaning in the thing that you never considered exploring.

For all we know Dazai's life has been bad to say something, Chuuya was a highlight of the little good he had in his life and was a beacon of the present good in it, while oda's request was casting light on the possible good in the future.

So to reiterate, Dazai wouldn't choose Oda over Chuuya, because without Chuuya, Dazai wouldn't have been alive to meet him, much less care about him or Ango.

The same way that Chuuya wouldn't choose the Mafia over Dazai, if force to pick between the two Chuuya would pick Dazai without second thought, Chuuya would destroy the world and himself for Dazai. Chuuya may be loyal to the Mafia but his loyalty lays with Dazai.

And Dazai may have left the Mafia and followed Oda's dying wish, but Dazai never risks Chuuya, Dazai is willing to let Oda's wish burn with the world for Chuuya. Hell Dazai was ready to let Yokohama get destroyed just to prove that Chuuya human, why would Dazai care that Chuuya human? Because Chuuya cares about whether or not he's human, so it matters to Dazai.

Dazai is Chuuya's humanity, and Chuuya wants so desperately to be human, Dazai ability is truly a gift to him, and one he adores full heartedly

Chuuya is Dazai's reason to live, not much to say to it, Chuuya highlights the good that Dazai struggles too see, he makes Dazai consider things he thought useless, and he lets Dazai feel more comfortable in the fact that his existence doesn't have to have meaning. (And Chuuya ability is something that Dazai finds beauty in, it something he finds mesmerizing to the point where he can just stop and stare and just forget about all the bad things even for just a moment)

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Tldr: Oda just gave him something to fill his need for a meaning to life and living, while Chuuya makes him not care/think about whether life needs meaning or not to live.

Chuuya made Dazai want to live.

Oda made Dazai want to change.