I Am So Anxious, I Wish A Bus Could Hit Me So That I Wouldn't Have To End It Myself

I am so anxious, I wish a bus could hit me so that I wouldn't have to end it myself

I can't wait for the end of the school year and at the same time I have not clue of what I'll do after college, but I have Jesus.

It's been 6 years of college, for degree which are pretty useless on the workmarket. I don't regret my bachelor in english literature nor my master degree in the field of education. Though I have a longing fear that I might not have enjoyed my student years as much as I should have. Six years of college but also six years of an eating disorder which both ruined my mental and physical health. Six years of spiritual journey which eventually led me to Jesus Christ. My heart feels heavy still but thanks to Christ I don't dwell into that feeling no more. I hope to get better, I no longer hope to put myself down.

I don't know what the future holds but I know that Jesus Christ holds it. Whatever happens I know I live in victory. The one of Jesus Christ. I won't let myself go to death.

Being anxious is sexy until your health starts to leave the chat

My ED recovery is a nightmare.

So many health issues and teeth issues. I don't deserve what's happening now. I feel like I have been abused by my ED, telling me lies about how good I'd look underweight. Now, I am filled with regret, cause nothing can buy my health back. I'm too young for what's happening to me

Please, contemplate recovery for the sake of your future health.

I hate capitalism cause it created ultra processed stuff filled with sugar, causing me to binge.

Imagine if everyone was kind, that would be so hot