WIP Wednesday

WIP Wednesday ✍️

Time for a writing share!! For some reason I'm not getting notified for tags right now but I know @the-golden-comet and @tragedycoded got their writing shares out today~ Right now I'm working on 3rd drafting chapter 8 and chapter 9 and I'm STUCK in BOTH of them 🫠 🎉

Ch 8: In Proper Behavior (Seeker POV)

They go to see how Valian fared, moving very slowly, and very quietly so they wouldn’t disturb him. Seeker finds him cuddled up in the same closet they found him in yesterday. And oh.. he was achingly lovely- Lovely for his skin which was green like the moss fields beyond the Navesen Citadel, lovely for his hair white as clouds, and lovely for his eyes.. like Seekers, but a pure brilliant gold. Achingly, because when Seeker met him yesterday they thought his eyes made a nice contrast to his thick silver necklace that now glints coldly in Seeker’s knowledge. Achingly because they saw the silk wrapping around his lithe body and thought it enticing. Achingly because he was so small, over a foot shorter than They and so thin, his cheek bones prominently crowning his dimples, and yet that tiny body held the burden of an unjust system and ultimately- the burden of Seeker’s admiration which had put him here.

Ch 9: Tea/Party (Kazimier POV)

Kazimier figured he’d earned it- instigated and burned for it, even. It couldn’t be fuckin’ helped. The damn Nexi holding Kazimier’s leash had an even tighter leash over himself and had far too much self-control for his own good, and more importantly for the good of Kazimier.

Please sent me good writing energy and put in a word for me with the muses 🙏 I need a spark to get these chapters pressed and ready to show.

Tagging my 7C list: @gioiaalbanoart @biblicallyaccuratefruitbat @katenewmanwrites @lychhiker-writes @autism-purgatory

@wyked-ao3 @cowboybrunch @zackprincebooks @smellyrottentrees @aalinaaaaaa

@quillswriting @nbkuhn @ddgraywrites @desastreus @theglitchywriterboi

@shanakin-skywalker @honeybewrites @sincerelydorky (hmu to be +/-!)

A Musing Monday 🎐

Today I am musing on too many things! 😵‍💫

My brain feels crowded by little rabbit holes and I keep catching myself fully lost in them to the point where im getting salty or spicy or sad over imaginary scenarios. Ive been having more nightmares than usual lately, too. So I guess what im going to muse on today is processing things (I'll leave musing on innovation and the way its weaponized against the working class ((one of the rabbit holes🐰))for another monday)

WHY am I circle-thinking about stuff like 'what would I do if I was stuck in the past?' 'why didnt the industrial revolution provide more ease and profit for every class' or 'how would I convince strong people to protect me if I was in an apocolypse situation?' 😣💫

Now take this with a grain of salt, I may have a psych degree but im not a researcher or anything (just a nerd with autism 🤓); my brain is using fictional scenarios to practice processing🎭🧮. It feels the need to practice because there's a LOT within my brain thats unprocessed right now (hello trauma, hello issues with finding a better job, hello feeling very vulnerable lately). 👋😩

Our brains are solving machines geared to find the answer🤖, and when that answer is not immidiatly available we may experience things like nighmares and intrusive thoughts and maladaptive daydreams to try to get an angle on The Thing thats not processed.🔬

Thinking about The Trauma directly often puts the body in a stress mode thats not condusive to creative problem solving📉. Like being stressed is literally counterproductive to solving bc we go into 🔥survival mode🔥where fight flight etc are The Options Available. Imagining yourself in a historical fiction situation is not a 1-1 ratio to 'what exactly happened when abuse appeared in MY past' and but ya know what, its close enough for our brains to bring it up as a substitute. 🤷

And the fact that our brains have this reaction to The Bad Thing is interesting in itself. 🤔 Why are some bad memories just things that happened, and some are so triggering your mind would rather process terrifying nightmares every night than just.. face The Memory? 🫠 Like it's over, it can't get you now, the past is dead, right?

The solution? Well obviously it looks a bit different for everyone, particularly depending on where you are on your path. 🧭 Like if you have nightmares/intrusive thoughts/maladaptive daydreaming and dont uh... dont have any trauma coming to mind that aint my place to tell you whats next 🤐. I can only really mind my own gourd here and MY next step is Accelarated Resolution Therapy🗃, which is often used with war veterans with ptsd, to store my truama memories in a better, less triggering way. 📈

Well it turns out that memories like to be filed away by our senses 📂. Like memories sit best and retrieve easier (lets take xmas as an example🎄) if you're remembering the smell of xmas dinner, the sound of wrapping paper, the bite of the cold outside and the taste of hot coco✨️. When memories store poorly, as they usually do with trauma 😔, your body is not just remembering- it is acting as if You Are Still There. 💥📍

Infact to prepare for ART, I have had to purposly bring up all my old memories 😬, which has in turn signalled my brain to circle around pseudo truama thoughts when I'm 'at rest' in attempt to solve whats not really 'solvable' and with that weve gone fuuull circle on my musings here lmao ➿️

I got two weeks until that all important therapy session and until then I figure my brain is gonna keep trying to hampsterwheel 🐹🎡, but perhaps my loop will inspire something within you, or help you out of a loop, or perhaps make you realize you’ve been in a silent loop for awhile now.. 🔄👁👁

In anycase, thank your brain for me! Particularly if its doing these things I described above. It's trying so hard to help and protect you 🧠🫶 My apologies for giving it something so tough to chew on this Monday lmao 😅 Stay safe out there 🫂

(I don't have a taglist for my Monday posts yet, hmu if you want to be tagged on these zanny adventures plz)

Fanart Friday~ 🎨

@the-golden-comet keeps drawing my ocs and I'm so touched and grateful 😭💕 thank you as always for the care and consideration you use drawing them!!

Look at these sweet beans!!!!! LOOK AT THEM!!! It's Seeker from my WIP 7 Circles having their hair braided by Goldens angelic boy Tenshi and.... ugh it's just cavity-inducing holy shit 🥺💗 the two of them would enable each other to incredible degrees I think 😂. Thank you so much Goldie, your art always brightens my life.

Art stuff!: @lychhiker-writes @gioiaalbanoart @quillswriting @wyked-ao3 (hmu to be +/- to my fanart friday posts)

He's not my little meow meow, but he might be my little yowling-bloody-murder-from-the-damp-alleyway.

OC Interview 🐁✨️

Thanks for the tag @tragedycoded

I'm going to be answering as Valian from my WIP 🌐7 Circles🌐

What is the worst insult you can give?

You're less qualified than I am.

(Why is that the worst insult?)

I'm a fuckin' ifrit, an' a collared one to boot. You do the maths.

What is the nicest thing someone could say to you?

Hey Valian, I gave you all my money an' a lifetime supply of good eatin'.

(Couldn't you just get money and buy food with it?)

I'm just coverin' me tail, here.

Are you a jealous person?

I'm practical. If I have somthin' another bloke wants I figure they're like to take it from me 'n vise versa.

Have you ever committed a crime?

-Laughs- 'Oo, me?

Are you neat or messy?

You've gottu 'ave things to be messy.

How do you feel about crying?

Oh, cryin' is great when you're a lad but at some point you get old enough that they stop believin' the waterworks.

Let it out or hold it in?

We talkin' about words or unmentionables here? Ain't healthy to put off goin' to piss.

Who has betrayed you most?

Ripley..

(Who is Ripley?)

Flea-ridden backstabbin' lycan bastard.

What style of accessories do you wear? Is it willingly?

-He grips his collar with a dead expression- Sure, I willingly got this hunk of metal trackin' me at all hours.

(Fair enough. Anything else?)

-He sticks out his tongue, which also reveals a tongue piercing- I didn't choose that neither if you're wonderin'.

What is the most sublime thing you have ever eaten and why?

It was the crust o' some pie one of my owners tossed me. I had a gluttony mark at the time, makin' any food not given to me by his hand tast like ash. He hadn't given me food from his hand for o'er a month an' that crust was good enough I near wept.

Tag games!: @katenewmanwrites @smellyrottentrees @wyked-ao3 @lychhiker-writes @the-golden-comet @cowboybrunch @zackprincebooks @urbiggestfan-01 @quillswriting +Open tag!

I kknow absolutely nothing about your characters but are they homosexuals

They look it

That there group of characters are in fact genuine ho-mo-sexuals, yessiree.

[To be more queerly precise here:

🌻Klaus is pansexual, panromantic, cisgendered. Sexually nonmonogamous but flexible, romantically open to polyfidelity.

💋Kazimier is grey-ace but pansexual, somewhere on the aromantic spectrum, and is gender-fluid. Strictly nonmonogamous sexually, romantically.. unwilling.

🌠Seeker is androsexual, biromantic, and intersex with some demifem identifying. Culturally predisposed to polyamory.

🐁Val is pretty apathetic to all notions of these identities, he identifies as a bloke just lookin to get by.

At least that's how they are off the top of my head lmao 😅]

Tagging peeps incase any o yall wanna talk about how your characters identify.

@gioiaalbanoart @biblicallyaccuratefruitbat @katenewmanwrites @lychhiker-writes @autism-purgatory

@wyked-ao3 @cowboybrunch @zackprincebooks @smellyrottentrees @tragedycoded

@aalinaaaaaa @the-golden-comet @quillswriting @nbkuhn @ddgraywrites

@desastreus @theglitchywriterboi @shanakin-skywalker @honeybewrites @sincerelydorky (hmu to be +/- to my taglist!)