I Think Im Breaking Down

I think I’m breaking down

https://www.facebook.com/share/p/pLyH46EAC2bBqvnA/?mibextid=oFDknk what is wrong with people?

So apparently Zeus and Loki were really faunagender or something. Because his shapeshifting. Even MOGAI genders existed before tumblr.

So I made a mistake, and sought out Posts here on Israel and Palastine, and I should go off the rails and now it’s in my suggestion feed and I am going to find it hard to not engage with the gatekeep gaslight genocide crew and oh. No. Why did I do that to myself

I can't go a month without throwing up

I think some of my anxiety is the result of being found out and punished for any antis deemed problematic. And getting punished and banned and loose accounts and anything on them. And not thinking I broke any rules. I sort of had a. Inkling. But commenting in a snarky fashion on certain topics drove it up, and it took me so long to realize. And I don’t know if I would be banned here or if I should switch f. Accounts to start fresh and just behave and play nice. No fighting, no correcting, no sarcasms. No telling somone something is messed up. Being on sites where people don’t know me and are ok with me, because I am there. Expecting to live all these double lives. But I’m empty without social media.

Shame? guilt? But I deserve it. All my antagonism and darkness.