Whats Funny About Me Is That I'm Not Funny At All.

Whats funny about me is that I'm not funny at all.

PARA SA PINAKA-DRAMATIC NA CLIMAX NG BUHAY NATIN.

Darating din ang araw na mafifeel mong umeepekto pala ang Aloe Gel Mask mo dahil naging moisturized at glowing din yung balat mong kasinggaspang ng tabla. Dahil sa wakas, nakita mo na rin yung self-worth mo at kailangan talagang layuan ang mga taong nakakapanget.

Darating din ang araw na wala ka ng matatanggap na video call galing sa kanya. Dahil sa wakas hindi na kayo LDR. Hindi na distansya ang namamagitan sa inyo– bilbil mo na lang.

Darating din ang araw na hindi ka na lang basta makukuntentong pagmasdan ang lovelife ng iba. Dahil sa wakas, hindi ka na Dakilang Third Wheel. May lovelife ka na at eto na yung moment na pinakahihintay mo.

Darating din ang araw na hindi ka na mag-aalarm ng sarili mong orasan. Dahil ang mga yakap at halik niyang puro panis na laway na ang gigising sa’yo tuwing umaga.

Darating din ang araw na hindi ka na magpapadala ng Balikbayan Box. Dahil sa wakas, hinding-hindi ka na aalis. Makukumpleto na kayo.

Darating din ang araw na magkakaroon ka na din ng lakas ng loob ipasa ang resignation letter na matagal ng nakasave sa desktop mo. Dahil sa wakas, narealize mong sundin kung ano ang mas makakapagpasaya sa’yo. (Ang mag-asawa na lang ng afam).

Darating din ang araw na sisimutin mo ang huling hibla ng Lucky Me Pancit Canton sa pinggan mo at sisipsipin ang latak ng 3in1 sa tasa mo. Dahil sa wakas, tapos na ang sunod-sunod na overnight sa bahay ng kaklase mo matapos lang yung group project at thesis ninyo. Makakagraduate na kayo.

Darating din ang araw na wala ka ng ibang gagawin kundi magshare na lang ng mga Cute Penguin videos sa sa FB mo. Dahil sa wakas, tapos na lahat ng deadlines mo sa trabaho, chill ka na lang tapos walwal later.

Darating din ang araw na hindi mo na kailangan ng running shoes. Dahil sa wakas, mapapagod ka ng maghabol. Dahil sa wakas, magsisink-in na rin sa utak at ibang parte ng katawan mo na ang tamang taong para sa’yo, kahit kalian hindi ka magagawang iwan at ikaw ang pipiliin araw-araw.

Darating din ang araw na yayakapin ka rin nila ng mahigpit na mahigpit. Dahil sa wakas, tanggap na nila ang buong ikaw maging ang lenggwahe ng pag-ibig ninyong di kayang intindihin ng iba. At sa pagkakataong iyon, malaya ka na.

Darating din ang araw na hindi ka na magtitiyaga sa Spotify playlist mong puro kanta ni Moira. Dahil sa wakas, may lakas ka na ng loob kantahin ito sa videoke habang sumisigaw ng, “Hoohh taenamo hindi ka kawalan!!!” Nakamove-on ka na.

Sa ngayon, tiisin muna ang lahat ng hirap at sakit. Namnamin pati pait. Dahil lahat ng bagay, gaano man kapakshet, may maganda pa ring patutunguhan hangga’t patuloy na ipinaglalaban. Darating din ang pinakadramatic na climax ng buhay natin. In full slo-mo. With background music. At walang epal. At sa pagkakataong iyon, tayo ang pinakamasaya.

Darating din ang lahat ng ‘yan. In God’s perfect time.

Laban lang. Walang Bawi.

Photo by: Thom De Villa

We can talk about anything just ask.

So many people trying to be different, that they end up being the same..

I was like a boomerang you threw

No matter how far I go

I keep coming back at you.

boomerang

I also have anxiety and don’t know what to do about it can you give me some tips..? Btw your poems are so beautiful. Wow.

Thank you much. I thought a lot about how to answer this and I don’t have a brief answer, so sorry for the long ramble.

Eat health and workout. I truly believe this approach helps some of the way, but it can be hard getting to a place where it’s manageable and it doesn’t solve everything.

Seeking help from friends, family, a trusted person or especially a therapist. A therapist can help you figure out what’s triggering it and help you come up with strategies to deal with it.

Meditation/mindfulness especially MBSR based mindfulness can help. They are evidence based and can be found for free on a lot of American Universities websites. They help you stay in the moment and focus your energy.

Free yourself the best you can from environments and people who get you down or stress you. There is no need for extra pressure or things making you feel bad. I also try to position myself in rooms and places where I know how to get away.

Learn to listen to your body and emotions. This way you can with time start to understanding and learn when and how you are triggered. This takes time and is draining, but can maybe help in the long run.

When panic attacks hit or I feel them on the way. I usually try to focus on my breathing. Focus on breathing in and out. Taking long slow breath. Depending on where it is. I walk outside to breathe in fresh air. I also might steady myself by sitting down or holding on to a wall so I don’t feel like falling.

I have also heard that it helps from stamp on the ground or move your toes. Telling your brain you are here and it can try its best to knock you out, but you will survive it.

Then there is also the idea of exposure therapy where you expose yourself for anxiety the places where it usually hits. Then you let the anxiety get to its fullest so the body learns it’s not dangerous. The theory is that if you do it a lot of times, the anxiety will be less and less and make it more manageable.

Sorry for the long ramble. Leave comments below with your advice!