Change Your Tune

Change Your Tune

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I stared at the patterns on the ceiling in my room, my hands clench and unclenches the sheets as Tommy thrusts inside me grunting in my ear. My eyes shift from the roof to the vanity mirror across from me, I frowned softly staring at myself trying to figure out why on god green earth was I here.

"Am I boring you?" I snapped my head to looked up at Tommy not noticing he stopped and was staring down at me with a unamused look.

"No, I was just..." I trailed off sensing he didn't really want a answer, so i just shook my head.

"Nothing, I'm sorry." He stared at me for a few seconds, before his hand moved from my thigh to my neck turning my head the opposite way of the mirror. His mouth licked and bite at my skin causing my body to react, he started thrusting inside me again but harder and faster. His rough thrust caused the bed to knock against my dresser causing littler trinkets to fall to the floor.

His hand tighten around my neck causing me to close my eyes and let tommy continue fucking me, after a couple more thrust I squeezed around him tensing making tommy came inside me groaning well burying his face in my shoulder. I groaned mentally at tommy heavy body going limp on top of me, I can only imagine the looks on my father face if he find me like this now. He probably be disgusted by me if he known men did this me...well a man, tommy shifted on top of me making me snap back to reality as he gets up off the bed. I covered my body with my thin blanket before turning on my side to watch tommy put his cock back in his pants and fix his trousers, he moved over to my dresser where his jacket was pulling out a pack of cigarettes.

He put one in his mouth before glancing at me offering me one, I shook my head I didn't like the taste of them and they kinda made my lungs feel funny. He shrugged litting his cigarette and putting on his jacket, I shifted sitting up on the bed my back leaning against the wall. I looked over at tommy as he holster his gun in his back waistband before looking back on the dresser, he backed up looking on the floor for something making me move to the edge of my bed. I bended over checking under my bed to find a golden ring not too far from my reached, I lifted myself up and looked over to tommy and held out my hand.

"Thanks." He mutters taking the metal out of my hand and sliding his wedding ring on his finger, I wondered watching him look at his ring if he felt gulity for being here after lizzie forbide him from coming to this place.

He was my first and only client on the account of him being the leader of the peaky blinders, which meant I didn't have to deal with some of the pricks who go through here like the other girls. I'm not an idiot I know tommy wanting me to himself doesn't mean he gives a fuck about me, he may not say it but he makes it clear that I'm just another hole that he can stick his dick inside whenever he wants.

"It's not proper to stare." My eyes averted from his gazed when he spoke up making me look down at my bedsheets.

"I'm sorry." I heard him move towards my bed before sitting down, I felt his fingers grab my chin lifting my face up to look at him.

"You want to ask me something. Ask." He stared into my eyes as I stared into his thinking if I should ask.

"Do you ever feel gulity coming here even though lizzie told you not too?" His face was unfazed by the question, but his eyes grew hard as his hand moved from my chin to grab my jaw making me wince as he held it tightly.

"Not that its any of your business, but no I don't. Why? You getting tired of me fucking you." He said calmly.

"N-no." I shook my head in pain.

"Good." He said letting go before he stood up heading towards the door, i rubbed my jaw moving it as I scowled him with his back to me.

"Because it be a shame to found out they switch you to a different brothel, where the men could be so much worse." I looked at him startled by his threat, tommy glanced halfway over his shoulder bidding me a goodnight before opening and shutting the door with a loud bang.

I sinked back into my bed pulling my blanket tighter around me, now that tommy is mad i wonder if he going to make good on his threat. I buried my face in my pillow trying not to think about it, I threw all my thoughts about tommy away and started imagining I was back in my home in my comfortable bed and my old room with clothes all over the floor and the window that looks out to the backyard where I sit to be alone. My body started to relaxed as I imagine my old life with my friends and family, and finally fell asleep.

My brain was awake before my body as the banging on my door signal that it was time to get up, I opened my eyes staring at my reflection in the mirror seeing the hickies all over my neck and shoulder.

I groaned pushing myself up before crawling off the bed, I put on a dress shirt and some underwear from my dresser before heading towards the door.

"Hi." I looked up from closing my door to see my next door neighbor.

"Hi, blondie." The blonde smiled at me like she always do as she follows behind me down stairs.

"The madam want to talk to you." A red hair girl said walking up to me, I nodded walking towards the room where the madam would be at this time.

"Come in." I stepped in looking around before standing in front of her desk.

"Do you have your earnings?" She asked putting down her pen and looking at me, I nodded digging in my shirt pocket and pulling out a couple of pounds.

"30 pounds?" She looked impressed before putting them in bra for safe keeping.

"You can go back to your room, now." My brows knit togther.

"But I haven't eaten breakfast yet."

"Only girls who satisfy their clients get to eat." I frowned.

"But I–"

"Mr.Shelby told me about last night, he said you were distracted and gave him lip...so dismissed." I clenched my teeth watching her pick up her pen and start filling out paperwork again.

I walked out and headed towards the stairs back to my room, I sighed flopping on my back and staring at the ceiling patterns. I only hope the food I had yesterday would be enough for me, and I still have chores around the house that I had to do to get lunch so it isn't too bad. But the worst was to come when tommy didn't show up that night or the next day or the next day or the next day having to depend on doing a good job on my chores to eat, I guess this was tommy way of punishing me.

I was reading a book blondie gave to me a well back to keep me entertained, I heard two knocks from my door making me hide my book under the mattress before standing up and looking at the door as the madam and an unfamiliar man walked through the door.

" (Y/N) meet Mr. Solomon his a friend of Mr. Shelby." I looked over at the larger man before plastering on a small smile.

"Hi." I said softly, he look me up and down before looking around the room.

"Mr. Shelby instructed that you take special care of Mr. Solomon tonight. " Madam hummed giving me a look, I nodded with a smile.

"Good girl." She says before glancing at the man as she walked out the door, I turned my gaze to the man as he sat his cane against the dresser.

"How long have you been fucking?" He asked looking at the tinklets on my dresser, I hesitated to speak not knowing if I should or he grow mad like tommy and do something to me.

"Come on don't be shy spit it out, girly." He huffed turning in my direction.

"Only a few months." I said looking at him, he nodded grunting as he took a seat on my bed. He massaged his knee grunting before unbutton his white shirt, I watched as he grabbed my pillow from beside him and put it behind as he moved to lay down putting his arm under his head.

"My knee is givin me 'rouble so you gonna 'ave to do mos' ov the work, girly." He says unbutton his trousers and taking out his cock, I nodded again reaching under my dress and pulling my panties down making them drop to my feet. I kicked them to the side and make my way to him, I sighed mentally before putting him in my mouth.

He was a bit bigger than tommy by length and girth which is good it means it won't hurt as much like the first time I did it, I looked up to see his eyes closed and him biting his bottom lip.

"Fuck!" He exclaimed under his breathe, his hand grabbed a fist full of my hair as he bobbed my head further as his cock it the back of my throat. I moaned around him feeling his cock twitch in my throat, I wiped the corner of my mouth with the back of my hand before going to straddle him.

His hands cralwed up to my upper arm sliding the straps from my dress off making my breast fall out, we made eye contact for millisecond before I glanced away down at his tatted chest. I rubbed his hard cock a few more times before rubbing his tip against my folds making me become wet, I grunt lowly slowly sliding my body down on his cock.

I closed my eyes as I started to ride him rolling my hips making him groan softly, I felt his hand slide up from my waist and grab hold of my breast rolling my nipple between his thumb and index finger well squeezing causing a moan to slip out. I stop my movement feeling his thumb rub against my clit, he smacked my ass making me tense at the weird new feeling that shot through me.

"Come on, love. I'm not paying ya to sit and look pretty. " He said gruffly, I gave him a shy apologetic look before moving again. His thumb went back to my clit making the feeling in my stomach tighten and pussy to get wetter, I bite the bottom of my lip moving my hands on to his board chest. His hand left my breast slide down back to my waist as he thrust hips into me making me whimper, he held tightly in my waist as we fall into a rhythm.

I was getting close and so was he, he moved his hand again between my breasts and towards my neck squeezing it lightly as he fuck into me a bit harder with his thumb still circling my sensitive clit. I couldn't help the small cry out as the orgasm vibrated through my whole body, he pulled me down by my neck as he kissed me sloppily well I still rocked my hips against his cock. His other hand moved from my clit to my ass squeezing it as he came inside me with a low groan.

I couldn't help but slumped against him with my breast flash against his chest, I could feel dick still inside me twitching. I slowly slide off of him sitting on the other side of my bed, I moved to put my straps back on my shoulder before glancing at him as he fixed his trousers and button up his shirt.

"Fuckin hell." He grunts rubbing his bad knee, I frowned softly at his pain remembering people I helped with the same problem.

"May I?" I asked, he looked over at me as I pointed at his knee.

"...knock yourself out." He said gruffly laying back down watching me closely, I moved at the of the bed facing him before digging my thumbs into his thighs massage the muscles. He grunted in pain before going reflex when my hands moved down to his knee carefully massaging the side to try ease the muscles.

"Does that feel better?" I asked still massaging his thigh.

"Yeah...where you learn to do that?" He asked curious, I looked up at him for a second before shrugging.

"France." He hummed before moving off the bed, he went over to the dresser to grab his hat and cane.

"I'll be back tomorrow." I suppress my surprise and nodded.

"Same time, Mr.Solomon?" He looked over at me before nodding.

He left a couple pounds on my dresser before tipping his hat toward me and walking out the room, I buried my face into the pillow as I brought my cover to my chest feeling exhausted. I sighed as my mind was too tired to think about anything, but my mind did slowly drift to the man who

I haven't seen tommy since our last encounter but I have been seeing the sweet brute name alfie around more often, the second time he came back I was sorta surprised he didn't want to have sex. Instead, he wanted me to do what I did the day before with his leg and he started up a conversation.

"What's your name?" He asked, I looked up well massaging his thigh.

"Whatever you want my name to be." He shook his head.

"I want your real name." I looked at him a bit taken back, I hesitate for a minute before telling him my name.

"That's a pretty name." He hummed leaning back watching me work on his calf.

I asked for his name feeling a bit confident and he told me his name was alfrie...not alfred he made it clear how much he dispised being called alfred...he told me I could just call him Mr. Solomon if I was more comfortable with that.

"Or daddy." He winked at me causing me to chuckled lowly before smiling at him.

"I'll keep that in mind."

That was our routine he would come in tell me what he wanted to do and we do it, and at the end he tell me he see me tomorrow. One night, alfie came back he asked me a peculiar question.

"How do a smart girl like yourself end up here..." alfie asked as he rubs my feet and vise versa, this is one of those times alfie stay a extra longer to talk with me. I wasn't hesitant to tell alfie anything anymore now that he consider me his friend.

"My half-brother owned a debt to arthur shelby, he couldn't pay it so he drove his car into the canal." I said flat, I barely knew him and when my father introduced us he didn't want anything to do with me unless he needed money.

"Did they find the body?" I nodded.

"Yeah, my dad called me to identify if it was him and it was..."

"Must have been hard for your family." I shrugged, my dad was the only one broken up by his son's death well everybody else knew he was manipulative thief.

"I can't found sympathy for the bastard who put me in a 2,400 dollar debt." I threw a quick smile to alfie before going blank, I could be finishing school getting a real career and making something of myself but I'm here getting fucked for money.

"2,400 isn't that much." Alfie mused looking off to the side, I looked back back at him with a look.

"maybe not you, Mr. Camden Gangster," I smirked making him laugh, "...but to us common folks it's a lot of fucking money." I could feel his hand wrapped around my ankle dragging me slightly from my spot, I looked at to see me giving me those "fuck me" eyes.

I moved from my spot and sat on his lap with both legs on either side so im straddling him, alfie lay his hands on my side looking at me.

"what if I pay your debt?" He mutters, I smiled down at him shaking my head.

"you dont have to–" He cut me off as his hand slide to my ass pinching it making me glare softly at him.

"why not, huh? I have the money if you worried about paying me back–" I kissed his lips stopping him from talking I didn't want to talk about it anymore the thought of leaving here felt like a pipe dream, my hand brushed against his cock feeling how hard felt beneath his trouser.

"looks like someone ready for round 4. " I giggled, my lips kissed down his neck before leaving love bites. Alfrie held my wrists with both hands making me grin at him.

"stop trying to distract me, luv." I sighed as he gave me a look.

"tommy told me the same thing a couple months ago, but he changed his mind saying my pussy was too good to let go." I furrowed my brows back then I thought it was vigor what he said, but now I'm kinda flattered.

"I can't argue with that but do you think I go back on my word like shelby?" He asked a bit offended.

"Can you blame me? I got dragged into something that had nothing to do with me." I rubbed my forehead with back of my hand.

"And now if I leave I won't have no place to go my father won't allow me back if he founds out what I been doing for the past year and half. I can't go back to school. I cant get a job. I'm stuck here debt or not." I closed my eyes to stop the tears from forming, I spent most of my days waiting for the day my debt would be clear. Now, I dread for that day to come knowing I have no home and no money to fed myself knowing I would come back crawling begging to be let back in.

"All I know is this life now, why not just accept it." I shrugged looking back at him I couldn't help but admire his tatted chest and move my fingers across his chest.

"Now, can we go back to what he were doing and forget you say me at my lowest." I joked trying to bring up the mood again, i didn't want ruin a nice mood.

Alfie gave me a small smirk nodding before pulling bsck for a kiss, he flipped me on my back now hovering over me.

"Alfie. Your knee.' I said worried.

"Don't worry it doesn't hurt much right now. Now turn on your side." He motion his head as I turned on my side facing the mirror in front of me, I heard shuffling with his pants. I laid my head on my arm waiting for him, I felt him placing kisses up and down my neck and shoulder before his hand came around and started rubbing my clit.

"aw, alfie." I moaned putting my leg bending my leg up giving him more access, alfie's cock played in my folds making me wet teasing me ever so slightly. He held my breast as he thrust into me causing me to moan out his name again, his other hand hook under my leg spreading me wider. My finger rubbed my clit as pleasure shoot through my body, alfie beard tickled my neck as he left wet kisses and bites marks.

He groaned feeling me clench around him, he pulled my hair to turned my hair before his tongue explore my mouth. The sweet tightness of pleasure building up in my stomach bust, my body vibrated against alfie as he continued to fuck me from behind soon coming inside me with a huff before kissing my shoulder.

That was week ago. I haven't seen or heard from him since, I didn't take it personally I kinda hoped he leave. I couldn't start falling for this man...alfie had responsibilities to his gang and to people who counted on him, we wouldn't work out he comes here to blow off steam from the underworld and to have me in his life 27/4 would just cause both of us to be unhappy.

I turned my head yawning opening my eyes, I see aflie sitting on the end if my bed with his cost and hat still on.

"Hey, you. What time is it?" I stretched out my legs and back before settling back in bed.

"10:30." He asked watching me, I frowned sitting up.

"Fuckin hell." I whispered to myself before looking back at him.

"Did you just get here?" He shook his head no.

"Got here at 9 to found you sleep."

"An hour and a half, alfie. Why didn't wake me up. " I groaned making him chuckled.

"You look pretty when your sleeping." I gave him a look.

"You were watching me sleep." He shrugged as if it wasn't a big deal.

"You my dear friend are a proper weirdo." I said moving over to him and kiss him on the cheek.

"Can you use a type writer?" He asked, I stopped midway putting my cover over my shoulder before nodding.

"Uhhh, yeah." A bit thrown off by the question, he nodded.

"Can you cook?"

"Yes."

"Can you do laundry?"

"Yes?"

" can you drive?"

"Yeah."

"Can you clean?"

"What is this? I feel like I'm being interview to be your wife." I giggled, I could see a slight blush come across his face.

"You didnt answer the question."

"Yes, alfie. I can clean. What is this about?" I asked smiling confused.

"I have a proposition for you." He said matter of factly with both hands on his cane.

"...okay." I said curious.

"You work for me as my secretary/assistant, and come stay with until you can get enough money to find a new place." He said, i looked at him with unbelievable expression.

"I cant just leave I still have to pay–"

"Already paid in full." He stood up, I stared into his eyes trying to figure why he doing this for me.

"No time to think. Just yes or no." I looked around my room before looking back at him.

"Yes."

The drive to alfie's home was not long as I looked outside at the buildings and the people walk to or from home, we finally pulled up to his home getting out.

Alfie pulled out his keys as I looked around to see some people out and about, I see a old couple giving me a look making me hold up my hand with a small smile.

"Oh, shit. I forgot to warn I have–" before alfie could finished his sentence a bark came from down the hall and a big dog rushed towards us.

I yelped as the heavy dog's paws pushed me into the door as it stand on its two feet sniffling me.

"Oi, Cyril. Get." Alfie tried to wave the dog away as he got down and started nudging my leg with his nose.

"Oh, what a cute baby." I smiled rubbing his head and snatching behind his ear, the dog, cyril, tail wagged as I scratched his stomach.

"You like dogs?" Alfie asked.

"Like? I love dogs. Oh, I can tell me and him are gonna be good friends." I smiled as the dog started to lick my face, I got up looking around the house before looking back at alfie to see him staring at me.

"Let me show you around." I nodded as he took me around the living room and the kitchen, we soon went up the stairs where he showed me the bathroom and my room. He pointed down the hall at his door.

"That's my room. If you need anything and i mean anything my door is always open." He said with a hint of a deviant glint in his eyes, I leaned closer to him smiling at him feeling his hand go to my hip.

"I'll keep that in mind." He smirked as I leaned in giving a heated kiss.

"I know it's your first night here, but why don't we get you settle in my bed for tonight." He asked huskily.

"I'm already liking it here." I grabbed his hand pulling him towards his room, he used one hand to unbutton his shirt before kicking the door close behind us.

Hi could you do one on what it would be like for the twilight wolf pack to date a black girl. Thank you 💙😊

I haven't watched twilight for over 8 years, so I'm gonna try my best.

Incandescent

requested by × @paisholotus

(Y/N) watched as her daughter ran around the playground, she nervously tapped the letter in her hand on her lap as she waited for tommy arrival. The sudden feeling to runaway creep its way into her chest, she let out a huffed of air trying to calm her nerves. She leaned forward planting her elbows in her thighs as her hands hold her face, she wondered if he ever thought about her after so long of being apart.

The last time they saw eachother was at the train station where him and his brothers were being drafted to france, she remembered the looks people gave her as they held hands. The memory of him close to her whispering sweet nothings making her giggled and smile, she wished it didn't have to end she wished they could run away from it.

"Let me take a good look at you." He says stepping back still holding her hands, he stared at her with adoration top to bottom burning the beautiful siren in his head for safe keeping, but unknown to him (y/n) is doing the same thing memorizing his soft eyes and his bright smile.

The train whistled causing (y/n) dry eyes to become misty again, Thomas gave her a small smile pulling her into a tight hug.

"Come back to me, okay?" He nods rubbing her back, she sniffled trying to blink away the tears. He sighed pulling away stating into her eyes, he caressed her cheeks before locking their lips. The whistled blow again causing the lovers to pull away and rest their heads on one another trying to let this moment last a little bit longer, he place a kiss on her lips one more time before pulling away.

"Hey, you don't need to cry and wanna know why." He says removing her tears with his thumb.

"Why." She sniffled again moving her coils out of her face.

"Because I'm planning on bugging you for a long, long, long time until we're old and wrinkly." He smiled seeing her laugh making his heart feel warm.

"Until YOUR old and wrinkly this face is never gonna age." She smirked making him chuckled at her response.

"Lucky me." She rolled her eyes glancing down at their entwine hands.

"I love you, (y/n)." She closed her eyes in pain.

"I love you too, tommy." He pecked her cheek and lips before pulling his hand away, she held her hands togther tightly watching him follow his brothers on the train. The train slowly started to move when she let out a chuckle waving as he waved at her through the window blowing kisses, she pretend that she caught them and placing them over her heart. The man who held her heart soon disappeared from her sights causing her heart to clenched, she was pulled away by Ada and her sister back to the car to go home.

It wasn't that long she found out that she was pregnant with her little girl, her mother was disappointed that she falled pregnant but angry when she realized it belonged to tommy shelby. Which brought her a train ticket out of watery lane, (y/n) didn't tell anyone of the women wanting tommy to meet their daughter first when the war was over. It wasn't until two months past, when she got a letter from Ada telling her the horrific news she been dreading for weeks.

(Y/N) was in her room rereading some of the letters tommy sent to her to pass the time, the last letter he wrote told her he was assigned to be a tunneler so he wouldn't be writing to her for a bit. Her heart clenched in her chest, now every day she has to live with unbearable doubt if her lover is alive or dead.

A knock came from her door causing (y/n) to put down the letter on the nightstand and open the door, "You got mail." A bright smile plastered over her face taking the envelope out of her sister hand, she didn't waste time in ripping open the envelope.

Her eyes scanned through the letter reading what Ada wrote not tommy, she frown a little reading Ada's rambling. The words didn't make sense she couldn't understand half the words the girl was writing, (y/n) blinked at the last paragraph on the letter.

"(Y/N)? You alright?" (y/n) didn't her sister's concerning voice as she started to take deep breathe as she stared at the letter.

"(Y/N)." Her sisters came up to her as she ripped the paper apart, she broke down crying into her older sister shoulder.

"His gone, his gone, his gone..." she mutters crying, her sisters held her looking at each other with sorrowful looks.

(Y/N) rubbed her face thinking back at the horrible memory, she had a choice to go back to watery lane and raised her child with the Ada and Polly deciding against it. She didn't want to be surrounded by so many memories of tommy, it was selfish keeping the family away from the only thing that had left of him and moved to the london. But, then she found out he wasn't died like she thought and was now a gangster, news of the peaky blinders traveled fast especially when he started burning pictures and paintings of the king.

She was hesitant opening the letter addressed to her from tommy when it made its way to her doorstep, he explain why he didn't come found her after the war and how he wanted to meet their daughter. That worried her even through tommy made it clear in his letter his doing legitimate business now, but that didn't mean he still didn't have enemies who want to see him and his family dead.

"Hey." (Y/N) snapped out of her thoughts and looked up to see tommy standing next to her, he looked so different the last time she saw him.

"Hello." She greeted scooting over on the bench as tommy took a seat next to her.

They sat there in silence, (Y/N) glanced over to him to see him looking at the playground his eyes searching for his daughter.

"She's the one in the black boots and brown coat." She utters looking back at her daughter playing on the merry-go-round.

"She's beautiful." He said softly, she looked back at him curious.

"How did you found me?"

"Last year, I hired someone to look for you." Her eyes harden turning her body towards tommy.

"That was you." She said angry.

"I needed to see you–" He said desperately.

"He scared the hell out of us, did you know he was talking to her? Or that he was lurking around my house." Thomas let out a exhausted sighed before nodding.

"For fuck sakes, tommy."

"That's wasn't his intention or mines." (Y/N) huffed out irritated, when she first saw the guy at her daughter's school she thought he was a parent. But, then she saw him in the neighborhood, at the market where she shop even standing in the building she worked.

"I'm sorry that I scared you two. I'm really am." His hand laid on top of hers squeezing it, she gently rubbed her thumb on his palm tracing circles.

"Listen why don't you and..." (y/n) said their daughter name causing a light in thkmas's eyes to brighten.

"Why don't you two come over and have dinner with me and my son," (Y/N) looked over at her daughter thinking about it.

"I don't know tommy, all this will be too much for her. Finding out her father is alive and that she got a brother, she going to have questions that I can't answer." Tommy cold hand held her warm cheek turning her head towards him.

"I know and I will answers them as much as I can, but for now I am a friend inviting another friend and her daughter to dinner." She sighed accepting the invitation.

"Would you like to met her?" He smiled nodding, they both got up and walked over to her at the swings.

"Hey, pumpkin. This is tommy his an old friend of mines." The little girl sat on the swing looking at the grown man.

"Nice to meet you, sir." She nod to him, he chuckled tipping his cap.

"Nice to meet you, young lady." Tommy pointed at the swing next to her.

"Mind if I join you." The little girl nodded again, Thomas looked over at (y/n) before taking the spot on the swing to his daughter.

(Y/N) watched as Thomas and her daughter swing togther, she smiled as her daughter sparked up an conversation with tommy. Thomas isn't surprised his daughter was a very bright young girl, it's obvious she got that from her mother and himself. He glanced at (y/n) to see her watching them with a smile, his chest grew warm being here with her again. He hope that (y/n) will found it in her to take him back and do what he promised he do when he came back from war, because can't imagine a future without (y/n) in it.

If By Chance

requested × @pollysgirl

My head nodded towards the gentleman as he handed me my bags, I sway my way around passengers getting off the train.

I looked around trying to find a familiar face, I walked around passing people before setting my suitcases on the bench. I digged in my coat for my lighter flipping it to pass the time as I waited for an old friend.

"What's shakin' bacon?" I grinned turning around and seeing my favorite person in the world world.

"Not a thing, chicken wing." I winked at her holding my arms out as she ran into me.

"Oh, I missed you." She held me tightly.

"The feeling is mutual, darling." I kissed her cheek, we pulled away smiling at each other before I notice a little boy walking up to us.

"Does my eyes deceive me, or is that baby karl." I squat down at eye level with the boy, he shy away behind his mother only peaking from behind her to look at me.

I reached in my pocket and got out a small toy car for karl making him stepped from behind his mother.

"I know your birthday was last week, but I didn't want to meet you empty handed." He hesitated to take looking st his mother before me.

"My mother says I shouldn't take things for strangers." I smirked looking at Ada as she smiled down at her son proud.

"Smart boy. Good thing I'm not a stranger, am I ada." Ada shook her head no looking down at Karl.

"No, she's one of my closest friends. We're basically sisters. " She grins rubbing his back, he looked back at me before taking the car out of my hand.

"Thank you." He says softly admiring the red fire truck.

"You welcome." I stood up straight looking at Ada, the sound of thunder ringed in the distance making us head towards the car.

"Next stop: home." Ada says starting up the car.

We finally reached Ada's house as the sun starting to set, I laid my suitcases on the bed in the guestroom she offered me until I can found myself a flat.

"Thank you for letting me stay here, Ada. It means a lot." I said sitting at the kitchen table watching her looking through her fridge.

"It's the least I can do for you helping my cousin out and all." I waved my hand as if it was nothing, imagine my surprise when I ran into Michael. He was a smart guy but he was too ambitious....reminding you of someone.

"It was nothing. I'm just glad his back here safe and sound, he was wild card back in New York." I said shaking my head taking a sip of my beer.

"Yeah, I heard. Did you met Gina." Ada asked.

"Yeah, she seemed like a good girl." I shrugged.

"Good girl?" Ada laughed before taking a puff from her cigarette.

"That girl is snake in a fur coat." I laughed with Ada at her take on the young girl.

"Oh god, I missed this..." she giggled.

"What? Talking shit." I grinned.

"That and talking with you."

"You might not be able to tell, but I'm blush right now." She coughed inhaling the nicotine as we laughed not second later karl walks staring bis hungry.

"How about pasta for dinner, I remember seeing a Italian restaurant when we past by...I pay." I asked.

"No, way. Your a guest–"

"A guest who is staying here rent free, come on Ada you know you can't win argument with me." I smirked getting out my wallet.

"You win this time, but next time I'm paying." I gave her a look saying otherwise.

The next time came sooner than I thought as I took Ada out on a lunch break.

"Guess who asked about you today." I raised my eye sitting across from her outside a Cafe.

"Does his name start with T." She nodded playing with her necklace as she rest her chin in her hand.

"He wanted to know why you haven't visited yet." I hummed tilting my head up to the sky as the sunglasses I had on blocked the sun from hitting my eyes.

"What did you tell him?"

"That you were busy trying to find a job and a flat." I looked back at her.

"Did he buy it." She shook her head no making me groan.

"He gonna want to see sooner or later." Ada says softly.

"I know." I sighed taking off my shades and putting them on my shirt.

Ada break was over and offered to drive me back to the house, but I decline telling her I was going to the park to clear my head. I kissed her cheek before we parted way, I took in the fresh cut grass and birds chirping as I found a bench under some shade with a great scenery of a field with people on the grass having picnics and childern playing.

A group of childern ran around with a football kicking it around reminding me of a memory that meant dearly to me.

I stomp in a puddle of mud getting my black shoes dirty, I could hear my mother stern voice cussing me out when I get home. I walked along the schoolyard at recess watching the other kids play, my head snapped up hearing crying from the tree I was a few feet away.

"Hey, are you okay?" I asked the little girl, it wasn't unusual to see younger kids around here since we share the same recess in the small school she shook her head clenching a decapitated doll.

"No, a big kid ripped my doll head off." She sniffled rubbing her eyes, I frowned down at her before looking around for a teacher to find and surprise surprise they weren't any around.

"Come with me." I hand out my hand and she took it as I pulled her to the art room we were lucky we still had and sat her down in the chair.

I went to the cabinets and grabbed some thread and a needle that the teacher kept in case, I moved back over to her and started to fix her doll.

"I seen you around watery lane, your a friend of charlie?" She asked.

"My dad and him use to work togther in the mines, before he moved away." I said making her nod.

"I'm Ada. Ada Shelby." I told her my name and shaked her hand after I finished fixing her doll.

"Nice to meet you, Ada." I handed her back her doll, she smiled happily clenching it to her chest thanking me.

The next day I was under the same tree reading when i glanced up to see a boy from my year walking towards me, I looked back to my book ignoring them knowing they just want to cause trouble.

"What's your reading?" The boy asked, I looked up staring into his piercing blue eyes.

"Frankenstein by Mary Shelley." He nodded walking a little closer towards me about to say something when the same little girl from yesterday came running over.

She stopped next to me taking a seat, she smiled towards me before looking over at the older boy giving him the second degree.

"Why are you messing with my new friend." I looked surprised at her before hearing the boy snort.

"I'm not messing with her, I just came over to tell her thanks for what she did for you." He huffed rolling his eyes.

"Oh...well you thanked her now kick rocks." She sassed making me giggle, the boy glared at me as I continued laughing.

"I assume you know each other?" The boy opened his mouth to say something when Ada beat him to it.

"Sadly yes, this is my older brother Tommy." I chuckled again closing my book between my index finger to save the page. I grin at Tommy.

"Hi." I said.

"Hey." The bell ringed signaling recess was over, Ada said goodbye to me not even glancing at Tommy as she ran back to her class.

"Can I walk you to class." I asked smirking, he looked at me with raised eyebrow before nodding.

I never told them this but meeting Ada and Tommy was the best day of my life, I was a outsider and its hard to befriend new people you barely know. I usually wouldn't look twice at what happened to Ada but I did...why? I don't know...but I'm happy I did it, if I didn't I wouldn't have met Polly, John, and Arthur.

Thomas and I grew close we hanged out ever chance we got with Ada and John tagging along with the us, Arthur would come too just so he didn't have to do chorus...I remember having a crush on Arthur. I was always teased by Ada and John by it and I think Arthur knew too, Thomas laughed about it wondering why I a thing for his older brother.

"I don't know maybe because he knows how to have fun, unlike someone I know." I jest looking at him, he rolled his eyes.

"I know how to have fun." He grins before taking a another of his beer before handing it to me as he ran and jump off the quarry into the water below.

"Holy shit." I said looking down over the edge to see Thomas splashing in the water, I finished off his beer before launching myself off the rock and into water.

We had so much fun back then but it seems liked when we started our 11 year we had to stop, we started to changed...I started to changed my body actaully...my once small chest grew a bit and so did my hips I got a bit taller...and thomas notice this...and arthur.

Arthur and Thomas flirted with me every chance they got either in my father's shop or at the garrison, one day after coming home my mom told me we were moving back to the states and I was devastated. He messed up again and we had to move...again, I got drunk well everyone was having fun at our going away party I sneaked off and drunk kissed thomas. It was the best first kissed I ever experience even though we were both a bit tipsy, what hurt the most was that he didn't send me off me off as I boarded the boat to America.

It always amaze me how a happy memory of mines can also lead to a sad one, I looked up hearing someone clear their throat to see the very man who been on my mind every since lunch.

"Hello, Tommy." He nodded wearing that same look when we first meet.

"Hey." He took a seat next to me as I looked back at the scenery in front of me.

"How did you know I was here."

"Ada told me you were having lunch at the Cafe, so i drove over and hope for the best." I looked at him in surprised.

"What if I wasn't here."

"Than i would have took it as a sign." He said taking out a flask, he took a sip before handing it towards me.

"A sign for what?" I asked coughing a little at the strong whiskey.

"That we weren't meant to be togther." I handed him back his flask and looked down at my boots.

"Oh."

"It's that a good 'Oh' or a bad 'Oh'..." he asked.

"It's a bit of a not so happy since you took my first kiss and didn't show up to send me off kinda Oh." I said snarky.

"So...a good oh?" He joked making me slapping his chest.

"Don't get smart with me, Shelby." I glare softly at him with a faint smile.

"You haven't changed a bit." He chuckled lowly rubbing his chest.

"I don't think so..." I looked away from him, he frowned a little looking at me before grabbing me hand and caressing my hand with his thumb.

"I'm sorry for not being there when you left." I looked over at him.

"Why weren't you?"

"I was angry at you for leaving." He sucked his teeth shaking his head.

"I didn't have control over that..."

"I know you didn't and I knew then too I was mad that after we kissed it was...perfect as if we fit togther like–"

"Two puzzle pieces." He grinned nodding.

"Yeah, it wasn't fair." He sighed taking off his cap and raking his hand through.

"I know." I glanced at him and scooting closer.

"Good thing i waited in the park a little bit longer." I said smiling at him.

"Is that you saying you willing to take a chance on me." I moved my to left and right thinking.

"...yeah." I nodded leaning in making the first move capturing his lips, I held in him as hid tongue explore my mouth making me feel greedily.

"We should leave too many prying eyes." He said whispered in my ear making me look around seeing some people give us looks.

"Good idea." As we stood up tommy put his arm around my shoulder pulling me closer to his side making me put my arm around his waist as we walked towards his car.

What would it be like for the twilight wolf pack to date a black girl.

Jacob Black

requested × @shyjellyfish1

The reader would always hang out at La Push that's how she met jacob.

He wasn't that into her at first since having feelings for bella.

But after the reader helped jacob fix his car, he was intrigued by her.

"You know how to fix cars?"

" Yeah, my dad owns a auto shop. How did you think your dad got that red pickup truck to work?" She smirked.

After that his feelings for bella evaporated and he started to hang out with the reader more.

Jacob and the reader begin dating almost a year later.

They spent most their time hanging out at La Push and sitting around a bonfire telling stories.

Whenever Jacob sat next to her jn class she would start drawing patterns or little doodles on his wrist to pass the time.

After two months, Jacob finally asked her out and she said yes.

Not too long after, he finally told her about his lineage.

"This gonna sound crazy but...I'm a shape-shifter–or what people call these days...a werewolf." He said nervously looking at her.

"Babe...you okay?"

" I fucking knew it!" He let out a breathe of relief and she kissed his lips.

Sam Uley and Emily Young

Emily and the reader been dating for a couple months, before Sam walked in their life.

Even through the reader lived in La Push, she always find a way for her and Emily to spend time togther.

The reader couldn't help but take her out to the diner in town to get some alone time, without Sam and the others sticking their nose into their business.

"Hey, wolf girl." The reader smirked hearing Emily's nickname for her.

"Hey, gorgeous." Emily blushed before walking up to her giving her a kiss.

After the reader and Sam phase, Sam and the reader imprinted on Emily.

Emily didn't care that Sam was her mate, she stilled was with the reader and that made Sam mad as hell.

After the incident, the reader and sam had a ( physical) fight and she threatened Sam.

"Mate or not, uley if you touch her like that again I will not hesitate rip your throat out with my teeth." She growled before going to see Emily.

Sam apologized to Emily, and after a well Emily forgive him...the reader did too but not as much.

They decided they couldn't live without each other, so they became a trouple.

At first the reader thought it be tough, but cuddling with Emily and Sam was the best.

And surprising Sam was a decent mate, he may look cold hearted on the outside for his psck but with the reader and Emily he was pure gold.

Embry Call

Embry really pretty quiet when his around a group of people.

That's why he liked the reader so much, she didn't like large crowds either.

That's how they actually met. Embry was sitting alone outside, well a party was going on inside and the reader walked out trying to get away from the loud music and drunk teenagers.

"Oh, sorry I didn't think anyone was out here."

"It's okay."

They stayed quiet for a well, before embry offered a seat next to him. Which the reader gladly took.

They made small talk here and there causing them to laugh sensing they both wasn't big of talking.

When the party ended embry traded numbers with the reader to stay in touch.

After that night, they texted each other nonstop and every night after that.

He finally asked her out after year and a half of hanging out.

Embry and the reader spent most of their days in their house with each other.

Either watching TV or making out on her couch.

Whenever they were feeling social, they go out with Jacob and his girlfriend to La Push and swim.

Quil Ateara V

Quil first meet the reader at Jacob's house while she was grabbing some stuff for her mom.

"Sup." He nodded towards her leaning against a wall gaving her a goofy smile.

She looked over him before rolling her eyes and grabbing the boxes Mr. Black gave her and leaving.

The next time quil meets her she is waiting in lane with Jacob at the movies.

"We meet again."

She groan recognizing the voice behind her, she watch as Jacob and Quil trade greeting before asking what movie they watching.

"Oh, God I heard that movie suck ass." Jacob laughing agreeing and ask if he wanted to join making her slap him in the chest.

"I would love to..." he said before turning smiling at the reader.

"Great." She said monotone before paying for the tickets.

Quil didn't last half the movie before running out of his seat and out the doors, making them follow after him.

The reader rubbed his back as he vomited into the trash can.

"Plesse, tell me. She stayed in the theater." He asked Jacob.

"Nope." The reader said next to him making him as he rubbed his back.

Jacob left living Quil and the reader to hang out, after a well of talking she decided to give him a chance.

She was glad she did, Quil made her laugh with his childish jokes and his silliness everytime his around her.

Whenever the reader didn't want to be alone she go over Quil'a house, and they play video games on his Playstation.

If they got tired of playing they cuddle on his bed and watch whatever was on his TV.

Paul Lahote

• The reader and Paul were in an on and off again relationship.

• She just like Paul phase, and ever since then he been acting like asshole. Which doesn't sit right with the reader's attitude.

• He cheated on her with Jacob's sister couple causing her to phase out and attacked him.

• But it always ends the same with Paul afucking the reader in the woods.

• " I hate you." She breathed out as they lay togther on the dirt floor.

• "No, you don't." He smiled before getting on of her again for fourth round.

Jared Cameron

• Jared and the reader were friends for a long time, before actually dating.

• He would help the reader with her hair whenever he came over to spend time with her.

• "How much you wanna bet I can do this plait in one go?" He smiled down at you as you plait other side of your head.

• "20 bucks." He snort before plaiting...well trying to plait her head.

• He didn't make it half way until he had to undo it and start over, she had to smack his hand away to show him how to do it.

• Jared got better at it, after a well making the reader reward him with much needed kisses.

Seth Clearwater

• When Seth and the reader started dating it was looked down upon by both their families and pack.

• The reader didn't give a damn what they said about them just as long they were happy.

• "Screw them. If Edward can knock up a human you can mess around with a vampire." She smirked planting a kiss to his lips making him smile.

• Seth would help the reader hunt for food giving them a chance to see who really were faster. ( it was him but she wasn't going to admit that.)

• Sometimes when they train together the reader would use her power to throw Seth off which gives her time to make her real attack.

• Which is giving Seth belly rubs well his phasing.

• "Whose a good boy?" She grins snatching under his chin and stomach.

Leah Clearwater

• Leah didn't mean to imprint on the reader, but it just happened causing a shift between the pack.

• Not because the reader was the half sister of Sam and mate to his ex, it because Leah and the reader were actually into each other.

• Sam didn't like how Leah was over him and how everytime the reader whispered in Leah's ear she giggled.

• Giggled!...thats how happy the reader made Leah, the reader even helped Leah with her temper.

• the reader and Leah would spent time in the woods as Leah took out her anger on the trees and go hunting, the reader would be on the log watching and be ready to hold her when she's finish.

• "Why are so good to me." Leah sighs twirling one of the reader's dreads in her finger as she looked up at her.

• "Becasue my dear mate, you deserve every drop of it." The reader straddle her girlfriend before peckering her face until she finally kisses her lips.

@oneaboveallovervoid

I don’t have enough room to explain this in a reply so I’m writting a full response.

This isn’t to attack you directly (its mostly a vent) but just to speak on why what you said isn’t true.

How can you say to use your imagination when almost all reader inserts say “your face turned red as a tomato” “your hair fell down your shoulders in waves” “he ran his fingers through your hair” “your beautiful (gem color) eyes” “your pale slender shoulders” “you ran your fingers through your silky hair”??? Your comment shows you don’t have to think about this. As a person of color, specifically an unambiguous black person (afro-caribbean and afro-latina), the things listed above immediately rule me out. I won’t blush and turn red. My skin is as brown as the soil that gives the world around me life. My hair doesnt fall down my shoulders in waves. Its defies gravity and ascends to the universe like a cloud. My eyes can’t be described as something as simple as a “beautiful gem color” either, we all know the person who writes that thinks of blue, green, and hazel color eyes. Not my deep dark brown eyes that almost look black, undauntingly taking in the racist world around me.

So how can I, an unapologetic black girl from New York City, use my imagination in reader inserts when I’m not even in the imagination of the writer?

Just fucking look at Lord of the ring! Not a single black person is in it. Technically the first black person I saw was in the hobbit… Specifically when they got to laketown and it was just 2 random extras that talked amongst the crowd, debating on whether or not the mountain should be reclaimed. And because they are there for about a minute with no major role they might as well not be there at all. It would make no difference either way. The only reason why they were put there is for publicly sake. Just think about that. Think about that for a second. Rewatch ALL of the movie and you’ll see everyone is either white or white passing. There is no represention in it. Poc are not included in fandoms or movies UNTIL THERE IS BACKLASH or UNTIL WE MAKE OUR OWN SPACE. And yet when we are put in its based on stereotypes.

This is why I write exclusively for brown and black people. Because if I don’t write for us who will? A random person that only has stereotypes to base their character off of? A person that would only write their character as the [insert any poc group here] best friend that’s sassy, has no dad, a tiger mom, constantly switches between languages mid-sentence(for example spanglish), and is over-critical over everything around them?

So to say that reader inserts shouldn’t be specified based on race shows that you’re used to seeing yourself in them. I don’t have that luxury. My brothers don’t have that luxury. My friends don’t have that luxury. My sisters don’t have that luxury.

We. Dont. Have. That. Luxury.

So once again. I write exclusively for those that are black and brown people. Because nobody else writes for us.

And yet despite of all this, I am aware of the language I use and do try to be vague. I’m not stopping anyone from reading my stories. I’m just allowing those who are used to not being seen to feel heard and appreciated.

So to anyone else that is upset that poc make their own spaces after being excluded from/forgotten by fandoms, mind your business or make the fandom more accessible. We wouldn’t have to write for each other if others wrote for us.

Signed,

Black and Brown writers.