LOLLIPOP CHAPTER THREE.

LOLLIPOP ♡ CHAPTER THREE.

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series summary. choi soobin only wanted a part-time job to survive the semester — and hopefully — save some money for a quick summer trip with his friends. sadly, life got other plans for him when his friend signed him up to be the babysitter of a famous rockstar's little brother.

chapter warnings. some swearing and teasing. a kid being a bit threatening and bossy. WRITTEN AND SMAU FORMAT.

A / N : hello hello here's the first written scene of lollipop! I hope you guys enjoy the update and let me know your thoughts. Have a good week!

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CHAPTER THREE : CUPCAKE TALKS.

“What’s your favorite cupcake?” Soobin stops by the entrance of the cafeteria and holds both handles of the double door before looking to his right. The little kid steps on his tippytoes and looks up, nearly breaking his neck to reach the sight of Soobin’s eyes properly. He pouts before repeating his question. “I said, what’s your favorite cupcake?” 

“Now you want to talk?” Soobin asks dumbfounded. 

For the first four hours of the shift, the kid told him nothing. After having the most awkward encounter with his favorite musician and a horrid experience signing contract papers, the toddler simply greeted him respectfully and then walked by himself to a common room. Once Soobin reached the place, Sunwoo signaled him to sit down on the opposite side, opened his green school bag and took out some papers and colors. ‘Stay quiet while I draw. Thank you.’ He said softly and started ordering his colored pens by size before picking one. 

Soobin, not really expecting to be silent for so long, limited himself to shrugging it off and nodding before opening the folder of instructions for babysitting to read it more thoroughly. 

Simple instructions such as “make sure to check his studying notepad for homework” were mixed with oddly specific requests like “do not give him salads. Separate all vegetables with dividers and add double portions of meat or chicken, or he won’t eat them.” And the more he got to read, the weirder the requirements got for him. 

It got to a point where Soobin was sure he’d have to study the folder as if it was information from college given how complicated and specific all points were. 

After going through it thrice though, he noticed the kid was engrossed in his drawing and Soobin had close to nothing to do so he simply recomposed himself on the chair and tried to grab his phone from the pocket of his jeans only to get glared at by the kid who raised a tiny finger to his mouth, reminding him to stay quiet. 

His big bambi eyes narrowed towards his new babysitter and a huff escaped through his lips before he brought his index finger to his mouth and Soobin gulped. 

There was something odd about the kid. Maybe Soobin found him weirdly off-putting because of all the theories the fans liked to throw around over him; many believed the toddler was probably rageful or spoiled enough to the point he’d threaten his own babysitters without care. Or maybe Soobin was not really someone with enough emotional strength to establish a level of authority over anybody, including a kid so tiny he could step on it by accident. 

Who knew?

Regardless, Soobin didn’t mutter one single word until the kid was done drawing, and only when he received a text from you saying you should meet for brunch now, did he dare to open his mouth and go as far as moving too much in front of Sunwoo. 

Surprisingly the kid didn’t mutter a single complaint and got up from his spot on the floor, dropping the pen and eagerly sprinting towards the door, waiting by it until Soobin caught up with him and could turn the knob to let him out. 

They both walked side by side in silence until they reached the doors, mainly because Soobin was not sure if he was allowed to speak or not yet and didn’t want to accidentally send the kiddo into a frenzy, but oddly enough he decided to open his mouth last minute and take Soobin by surprise. 

“I think it’s important to know which cupcakes you eat.” 

“Why?”

“Because if you like carrot cupcakes I will tell sister and have you fired.” 

Soobin takes a deep breath and opens the doors. “I don’t think your sister would fire anyone over cupcakes.” 

“So you like carrot cupcakes?” The little kid walks fast by his side and reaches for his hand, holding onto him. 

“No, Sunwoo, I don’t like carrot cupcakes. I don’t eat cupcakes that frequently to know that many flavors either.” 

“New babysitter Soobin, your life must be sad if you don’t know much about cupcakes.” 

“Woo baby?”

Soobin and Sunwoo stop deadly on their tracks and look to their side only to see Yeonjun approaching them through small jumps, with the biggest of smiles. Once he is at a short distance he kneels down and opens his arms, expecting for the toddler to run to his arms and he happily obligues, nearly tackling him to the ground on a hug. “Uncle Junnie!”

Nearly seconds after Jaemin and Jeno enter through the main doors as well with you and Bang Chan behind them and you all way towards them. Jeno scans Soobin up and down before rubbing Jaemin’s shoulder in comfort and the new babysitter looks at them back in confusion before dropping his gaze to his shoes, feeling out of place and nervous pretty suddenly. 

Perhaps, the scariest thing about taking this new job wasn’t really the kid but who it was associated with. 

SALEM as a band may of be really famous now but Soobin had the pleasure to follow them pretty early on their career and being so close to them now, about to talk to them in a much more personal way was nerve-wracking. That if he didn’t count the fact that since day one, Soobin felt somewhat infatuated with you out of all people as well. There was something about you that could make you stand out for him in between the many people he followed and admired and he felt terrified of having you so close now; his heartbeat was becoming erratic the more steps you took towards him and your little brother Sunwoo, and once you were face to face with him he could truly say he was breathless. 

You were simply ethereal. 

He did not care if he got to greet you hours prior, he wanted to re-introduce himself and leave an excellent impression on you. He wanted so badly to stand out and leave a good mark on you if only for a day at least as a way to retribute all the years your music and words brought comfort and joy to him. 

“I’m…I’m Ch-choi Soob —.” 

“Soobin, we talked yesterday and today too. You don’t have to keep on introducing yourself,” you giggle and ruffle Sunwoo’s hair. “How’s everything going?” 

Your eyes sparkle so prettily. Your giggle sound ten times better in real life. Your perfume is the sweetest…

“Is he giving you a hard time?” You tease and Sunwoo lets go of Yeonjun to wrap a hand around your wrist, tugging you down so you can hear him better. “What baby?” 

“Soobin doesn’t know about cupcakes. That’s really sad.” 

“It-it’s not like,” Soobin stutters, “I just don’t eat them frequently.” 

“Well man, now you’ll be having them all the time.” Jaemin interrupts walking towards you and bows down to Jaemin. “No exceptions.” 

“He’s bullshitting, don’t worry,” Jeno also joins the conversation while Bang Chan decides to stay behind and only observe for now. “You don’t have to eat what we eat. We just do it because Sunwoo likes cupcakes quite a lot, don’t you Satan?” 

“I’m not Satan!” The kid sticks his tongue at the boy. “But you are dumb!” 

“Sunwoo,” you call him in a scolding tone. “Let’s go sit down to eat okay?” 

“Yes, Soobin, you can sit next to me!” The toddler says in a cheery voice and practically starts dragging the gigantic babysitter to the nearest table taking everybody aback with his unusual enthusiasm. "Come on! I will tell you everything you need to know about cupcakes."

“So you designed all of these?” You ask impressed and Soobin quivers on his spot, downing another bite of a cupcake under the inquisitive eyes of Na Jaemin. “They seriously look so cool.” 

“Why would you want so many tattoos, Choi Soobin?” Jaemin questions observing the outline of a dragon tattoo that goes from Soobin’s wrist and disappears under his halfway rolled up sleeves. You groan and turn a napkin into a ball before throwing it at your friend’s head. “Hey!” 

“Quit on being annoying, my God — you know he is being noisy because he hates that you are taller than —.” 

“Shut up!” Jaemin interrupts fearful and throws you a glare. “I am just curious.” 

“Noisy, I said,” you correct him and look at Sunwoo who’s busy playing with the empty boxes of cupcakes you already finished. “You need to understand…” You sigh, “we aren’t the most skilled when it comes to making friends.” 

“Most of the time we are trapped in here,” Jeno adds. “But your tatts? They are fucking cool.” 

“Yeah,” Bang Chan finally speaks. “We don’t really sit down and chat with the many babysitters Sunwoo has had either. They come from a trusted service and already know the drill but your case is different and we just want to make sure that you are alright with this and all. To be quite frank here, the idea of having a fan near Sunwoo isn’t the most exciting.” 

“Channie…” Yeonjun breathes out a bit surprised. 

“No, no, it’s okay.” Soobin decides to speak back in reassurance. “It was really shocking to me when I landed the job and I completely understand how you feel. You can be as wary as you want, after all I am a fan of the band and I get how that might make you all feel a bit uncomfortable. I bet a lot of people approach you with second intentions and you don’t want me to turn out to be some crazy stalker or anything else but I promise I’m just here because I need the money.” Jeno to Soobin’s words and grab another cupcake. “It’s probably dumb but me and my friends have this tradition since kids where we would have a big trip with our families during summer and now that we are older we want to go by ourselves without the help of our parents and everything, so I took the job to pay for some of the expenses and have a good time.” 

“Do you really think you can handle Sunwoo, though?” Jeno says with his mouth half full of frosting. “He is kinda…” 

“Yeah, I know. I got many papers with specifications. It’s kind of scary the amount of care he actually needs but I can pull through. I promise if you give me a chance I will make it worth it. I won’t meddle in your business and if it makes you feel safer I can stay outside whenever you guys stop by to visit Sunwoo to give you extra privacy. Whatever you need to feel more comfortable just let me know.” 

Jeno and Jaemin seem content with the response, nodding along and humming to themselves but on the opposite side, you and Bang Chan still appear to be a bit apprehensive. While you don’t show outright disgust or discontent with his answer, you don’t appear fully convinced either, and Soobin starts to feel nervous again. 

He is not sure if he can actually mutter an entire sentence without stuttering again, especially with Chan nearly scanning him up and down. 

“You said you like to draw, right, Soobinnie?” Yeonjun asks softly and the babysitter mutters a small yes. “Sunwoo enjoys drawing and painting quite a lot. He is really connected to his art and I think, judging by your tattoo designs, you are also connected to yours, exactly? Like, you really enjoy what you do.”

“Yes, for sure.” 

“I think he is alright,” Yeonjun announces to the rest of his band members and Soobin blinks a few times in confusion. “It can be of help to have someone that actually knows about arts,” he continues talking and completely forgets the tall boy is there hearing them out or maybe he chooses to pretend he is not there. “He can teach —,” he pauses and looks back at Soobin. “You can teach him a thing or two, right?” 

“I-I guess so? I…uh, I’m majoring in drawing. I can always bring some of my stuff and teach him whatever he needs or let him use some things to draw in general.” 

Yeonjun wiggles his eyebrows at you and you roll your eyes then sigh. “Okay fine. You can stay as long as you can last with Sunwoo, and Woo?” The little kid raises his head and smiles. “Be nice, okay?” 

“Okey-dokey,” he nods. “If you know so much about drawing you will show me now. Let’s go to the room again!” 

“Easy Woo, he is not done eating yet,” Yeonjun warns and Soobin simply picks the rest of his cupcake and stuffs his mouth with it all in one go, throwing everybody a thumbs up before getting up from his seat and extending a hand for Sunwoo to grab. “I…well, we will see you later then?”

The babysitter eagerly nods and Bang Chan clears his throat to catch his attention before he leaves. “Whatever you need to teach him arts you tell us okay? Don’t bring your stuff. We will buy him our own.” 

“And always contact me or the guys if you have any problems with Woo or need anything, not the manager. Got it?” You add a bit more sternly than intended yet the rest don’t seem to care or don’t notice. 

Soobin nods yet again and bows down, feeling the cupcake climbing to his throat after a particularly harsh swallow. He think it’s important for him and Sunwoo to leave as soon as possible because something is telling him you may or may not want to discuss a few things about this whole babysitting situation with the rest of the band in private and he frankly does not want to be there anymore invading your privacy but also feeling painfully uncomfortable. 

“Okay, you two have fun I guess. I will see you at night.”

Once Sunwoo waves at them all he is free to leave on his merry will with the little child, ignoring the curious stares he feels on his back as he walks out.

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𝐒𝐔𝐌𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐘 ❆ you met choi soobin one fateful summer when you were nineteen and then he became the one that got away. now you’re twenty two, and just when you think you’re ready to move on, the only boy you’ve ever truly loved shows back up in your life. but your friends are determined to keep you together this time.

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ME AND YOU. HUENING KAI.

DATA. PG short scenario. established relationship. gender-neutral reader.

summary. the fear of not being loved back by the person you love the most slowly consumes you until you reach a breaking point.

— WARNINGS. mostly light angst only and insecurities with a cute ending for once (can you believe it? a happy ending finally).

A / N : i'm low on energy for multiple reasons but I got this idea out of nowhere and felt like writing it for the sake of it. I didn't proofread it because I'm pretty sure if I do I will end up changing everything lol but I hope you enjoy

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Intimacy. 

What did intimacy implicate? Tangled limbs underneath the sheets or deeper connections besides carnal ones. 

You thought both could be considered valid answers. You could feel intimacy in every touch, every look, and moan, but also you craved the deepness between feelings that could be shared and reciprocated; the problem was you had a hard time asking for the latter option. 

More often than not, you found yourself stuck between the desire for connection and near obsession with your loved ones, and the superficial aspect of loving someone without needing to feel so attached to them, — and the thing is, love for you had no measure, but when Hueningkai was near, you limited your devotion, afraid it would be overwhelming. 

Having jumped into your first real relationship, many things had to be learned on the way and the lack of experience could be thrilling at times because everything could be felt for the first time. Still, the lack of knowledge sent you into a stupor quite frequently as well and you couldn’t bring yourself to discuss much deeper topics with Kai sometimes. 

It simply scared you to voice out what was going on through your heart and mind sometimes. You didn’t want to hear Kai just giggle and shy away from your confessions or simply blush. Sometimes you wanted sincerity and words, touches and softness. You wanted tenderness and profoundness. 

You wanted romance. 

Though your boyfriend wasn’t one too scarce on affection and puppy love, he tended to run away from deeper connections like his life depended on it. Even the simpler emotions sometimes could not be expressed by him properly. 

To the world, he was bright and sunny, like a good summer day. His persona was warm and welcoming, cheery, but he masked many things underneath and you wished you could uncover his true self sometimes. You knew he was more than sweet smiles and loud displays of affection. 

You wanted his love and you wanted his hate. You needed to know what he felt even if it was negative. You had to know if he loved you enough to press you closer and only look at you, or if he’d rather keep to himself and have you as a companion for certain things only because you wanted everything of him. 

‘Please let go,’ you used to think, ‘or let me go.’ You’d repeat before going to bed sometimes; with Kai’s arms wrapped around you for a late-night cuddle before dozing off, you’d feel okay but not complete. The confessing words you wanted to mutter jumping at the tip of your tongue and never coming out. 

You’d fail to express what you wanted and he’d never notice either. 

It was beginning to frustrate you to feel this way so one early morning you woke up a bit agitated. You had a vivid dream; You were wrapped in Kai’s embrace, rocking side to side slowly while standing up with him pressed so deeply into your soul that you felt him as an extension of yourself. He didn’t have to say much, the silence was speaking for him, and once you pressed your head against his chest, you could hear it…his heartbeat. 

His heartbeat, erratic as ever, bombed a mile per hour like a speeding car, and your loved one pressed you closer, as if saying “hear it, this is for you”, and it was enough. That was enough to make you mutter those damned words you wanted to say so much but were afraid to do so in real life. 

“I love you,” you whispered mainly to yourself after you had woken up and calmed down a bit. The confession bittersweet inside your mouth.

“Well, good morning to you too, baby,” Kai responded back in between laughs. He appeared to have woken up shortly before you, with his sleepy gaze still intact. “Do you want breakfast?” Your eyes start burning. For two or three seconds all you hear is your own heart beating alone and nothing else with Kai’s voice echoing in the background but never truly reaching you close enough to make any sense. Whatever gibberish he says after dismissing your accidental confession falls on deaf ears and you feel suffocated and alone so quickly that you choke out a sob, alerting him. “Baby? Oh my God, what’s going on?” He presses a hand to your cheek and you let the first tears fall. “Baby?” 

Nearly numb, you push yourself back into reality only partially and reach out for his hand, lowering it to your chest in pain. Your heart is beating so strongly it hurts yet he doesn’t understand. He does not hear.

“Why-why can’t you love me?” You babble dumbly and Kai’s eyebrows furrow. 

“What?” He questions dumbfounded. “Where is this coming from?” 

“I feel so alone.” 

“Baby, I’m right here —.” 

“Are you?” You let go of your firm grip on his hand and he slowly retreats. “Because I don’t feel you here.” 

“I don’t think I’m understanding…” He sits on the bed and looks down at you. “But I want to understand. What is going on?” 

 Your lower lip trembles before you speak. “Sometimes I just feel like I reach out and you are not there. I try to be sweet and get closer to you and all you do is back down and joke around. You can’t spare me one nice comment —.” 

“I compliment you every day.” 

“Not like that,” you reply nearly annoyed. Though, you aren’t sure if you are feeling this way because of him or yourself. “That’s not enough. You can say I look pretty any day and it would be nice, but it feels like a duty. When was the last time you truly showed me you loved me or wanted me to be with you? Everything is fun and games, but I don’t want to play. I just want my boyfriend to actually show me he cares, to make me feel like he loves me as much as I do. Even now I just confessed and you brushed me off. Why is it that whenever I try to dig deeper you get scared? If you aren’t ready to say you love me back I understand, but if you don’t feel anything at all then let me know because I can go.” 

Hueningkai drops his gaze to his palms and seals his lips on a thin line long enough to make you think you should truly get up and start packing your things. 

‘Let go of whatever is holding you back and love me. I will love you back.’ You nearly say on the brink of desperation, but his uncertainty speaks for itself to you and the moment you move the covers to the side, Kai snaps back into reality. “Stay,” he basically demands and you stop dead in your tracks. “I want to love you.” 

“You want?” You retort and move again but this time your boyfriend grabs your hand. “What?” 

“I want time to love you,” he admits. “I love you the way I can, but if I can show it more, then I want to. Give me enough time and I will love you the way I truly should and want. I don’t want to shy away anymore. I want you here with me.” 

“I need you to talk to me,” you whisper and he nods. 

His hand creeps up your arm and reaches for your cheek again. He moves forward resting his forehead against yours. “And I need you to talk to me too. I want you, I love you, I need you. I’m here with you. It’s you and me.” 

Before you can place any doubts or insecurities into his words, he brings you closer until you are sitting on his lap. He caresses your face softly, underlining your jaw, before tracing lower, stumbling on your beating heart. He can’t help but smile fondly, bringing your hand up to his chest and making you feel his heartbeat. 

Erratic. 

He beats erratically, the rhythm of his heart mimicking yours. 

“I love you. It’s me and you,” he repeats and you nod tongue-tied. “Say it back…” he whispers. “I want to hear it.” 

“I love you too. It’s me and you.” 

Intimacy. 

“Me and you.” 

“Me and you.” 

The act of loving him and being loved back to the point only you two exist in this world even for a fraction of a second. 

↬part forty one — badmouthing

↬watercolor

↬hwang hyunjin x reader | college au

you have a crush on him, he feels nothing. you'd do anything as long as you get to spend time with him, he takes it for granted. but even those who have feelings for someone can reach their limit, and hyunjin is the only one to blame.

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▸▸ now playing: everyday, ben&ben.

▸▸ dedicated to: lee heeseung.

genre/warning(s): friends to lovers, toxicity if you squint, wine is included in some parts, a drop of angst, but mostly fluff !! unproof read. let me know if i miss something <33

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in high school, you had a crush on lee heeseung.

no one knew, not even your best friend.

heeseung was one of those hopeless romantics, you noticed. you saw him go around, look at one of your friends with his doe eyes. he was adorable, you could stare at him all day long. even though his eyes were on somebody else.

it was just a happy crush anyway.

you were about to enter your homeroom when you felt a hand on your shoulder stop you, “hey.” you hear, causing you to look up. heeseung smiles at you and you smile back, asking him if needed something. “uh, can you hand this to (name).” he asks, handing you a letter and a chocolate bar.

their favorite chocolate bar.

“sure.” you say with a smile, taking it.

“thank you.” heeseung says with a grateful smile, walking away. he was too nervous. so, you went to your friend, handing it to them. from that, they started to date. heeseung would always tag along, he was the perfect boyfriend. even if their relationship slowly started to grow… not so ideal anymore.

your friend became controlling and you saw miserable heeseung was, but he never broke it off. he was in too deep. they even once fought when everyone was there and heeseung surrendered right away.

the graduating year was almost over, so you spent most of your days in the library, just reading since you were done with your requirements anyway. you see heeseung pass by and you frown.

your heart ached for him.

you wait for him to pass by again and when he did, you speak up. “did you make up?” 

heeseung stops, looking at you. he sees your concerned eyes and he forces a smile, nodding. “did you apologize?” you ask and he nods. “why did you?”

“they wanted to spend time with me, i—”

“they spend time with us, their friends. but with you, you’re not allowed to spend time with your friends?” you softly say. “you shouldn’t have apologized.” you said, going back to your book. “you are their boyfriend, but doesn’t give them the right to control your life.” you say and heeseung looks down. “imagine your parents let you do what you want, but you can’t because of your partner. kinda…” you trail off shrugging.

“what am i supposed to do, y/n? i just want to fix our relationship.” heeseung says.

“it’s unfixable.” you deadpan. “they’re my friend, but they’re wrong.”

you felt like you were betraying your friend because you had a crush on heeseung, but even heeseung’s friends felt that way. your friend is wrong.

you went back to reading as heeseung leaves the library. the next time you saw him was during graduation, he was with his friends. he looked happier. his eyes caught yours in the crowd and he waves at you, giving you a big smile. you wave back.

you felt guilty, you really did. but when your friend got into another relationship within less than a month after breaking up with heeseung, not so much anymore.

two years passed by when you next saw him. he transferred to your university when he saw there were more open opportunities there. it was funny how when he last talked to you, it was in the library of your high school. now, he sees you in the university’s library… sleeping. heeseung giggles softly, deciding to take the seat across from you as he starts working on his own work. after an hour, you wake up, sighing as you sit up straight, eyes meeting heeseung’s.

“good morning.” he softly teases and you only close your eyes, hiding your face in your palms.

“don’t you go to the university in… another town?” you mumble and heeseung giggles at how you were basically still asleep.

“i transferred. i’ve been meaning to text you, actually, but i realized i don’t have your number.” he says and you chuckle, grabbing your phone as you give it to him for him to put his number in. “i take you’re doing great, sleeping in the library.”

“i was stressed for weeks for my presentation, i didn’t get to sleep. so when it was done, i came here to do some work, but i dozed off.” you mumble, chuckling and heeseung smiles.

you two became inseparable and slowly, your happy crush on him rekindled. heeseung got into relationships, but always ended right away. every semester, it was a different partner. when heeseung felt conflicted about his relationship, he would run to you for advice. ever since you talked some sense to him in high school, he trusted you.

but you didn’t trust yourself. you didn’t know if you were being biased since you had a happy crush on him… which is slowly turning more than that. you were convincing yourself it was just a stupid happy crush, but you know it wasn’t. 

it’s not a happy crush anymore when it’s starting to hurt.

a month before graduation, you were surprised that heeseung wasn’t in a relationship. but at the same time, not really. you know how focused he is in his internship that he hopes to be his full time job when he graduates. 

at past seven in the evening, he comes knocking in your dorm with a big smile. “i have a job when we graduate.” he says and you smile widely as giggles come out of your mouth, hands covering your mouth. 

“congratulations!” you exclaim, pulling him in a hug. you knew how much he wanted to work with big hit and now that he is, you were more than proud. 

it was a big day for heeseung. he is now a full-time worker in big hit, he finished the song he is to pass as a final requirement. he was happy. although, the hopeless romantic in him never died. when he was younger, he hoped that when he reached everything he would have the love of his life celebrate with him, graduate with him. he was in no rush, but he wanted to finally have the person he would make songs about all the time.

as he sits on your small dining table with wine as you two talk, he catches a spark in your eyes as you talk about how much you know he wants the job. you were so proud of him. you rambled about how happy he is going to be and how happy you were for him. heeseung smiles, looking at you.

it wasn’t a goofy smile. it wasn’t his grin when he finds something funny. it was a smile reserved for something else.

that night, heeseung realized how stupid he was.

you were there right in front of him for so long, but he only saw you after years of trying to find his muse.

“what?” you ask, noticing how silent he was.

he only smiles. “nothing.”

he realized he was in love with you and he saw that you felt the same.

graduation comes, the ceremony ends in a bittersweet manner. you were supposed to get ready for the graduation dinner in the university, but heeseung was pulling you somewhere. your hand in his as you two walk, reaching a meadow. not to mention, you two were still in your togas. heeseung was carrying a backpack though.

when you two reach a tree, heeseung softly lets go of your hand with a lingering touch as he takes his bag off his back, opening it and taking out a blanket. you help him lay it out on the ground. heeseung proceeds to take out a bunch of food and a bottle of wine and two glasses. you giggle.

“ooh, having a picnic with heeseung.” you giddily say.

“no, love.” he catches you off-guard with the nickname. you look at him, confused. “we’re having our first date.”

you look at him and he only smiles. “did you ask me on a date?” you ask, dumbfounded. you probably forgot since your schedule was hectic lately. 

heeseung laughs, shaking his head. “i thought it was cute,” he says. “i had some realizations and one of them being i should have been with you all along. you always treated me right and i always gravitated towards you. you were right in front of me all along and i…” he shrugs. “so, if it’s not too late yet, will you accept?”

you smile, taking one glass from heeseung’s hand and he opens the bottle as he pours the glasses in half. “happy first date.” you say with a smile, raising your glass and heeseung softly clinks his glass against yours.

years passed by, heeseung never thought he would be this happy. he was having a bad day at work, but you were there for him. he was curled up against you, head on your chest as he started to feel light. “hee, it was a mistake. you’re inevitable to make a mistake, you’re human.” you say, playing with his hair as he closes his eyes.

“i will never get how you manage to choose me everyday even though i’m not perfect.” heeseung mutters and you kiss his head.

“because you’re real.” you answer.

“i know, i’m real. i’m not pinocchio.” heeseung mumbles against your chest as he turns his head and you laugh.

“come on,” you say. “you know what i mean. when a person is perfect, they’re not real, hee. you have your flaws, and i love you in spite of them. it makes you real, transparent. no secrets from me.”

“i love you, y/n. i really do.” heeseung says, lifting his head as he towers above you, pressing his lips against yours. the rest of the night pass by, positions have changed as you were now the one laying on heeseung’s chest, his arm under your neck as his hand was holding yours. it was already five thirty in the morning, but heeseung couldn’t sleep.

there are a lot of times when he wouldn’t sleep and just soak up the feeling that you were the one he gets to sleep and wake up with. heeseung softly intertwines his fingers with yours, raising it so he can see your hands hold together. the soft rays of the sun slowly entered the room and heeseung could see himself putting a ring on your finger soon. he puts your intertwined hands down, pressing a kiss on your head as he closed his eyes, feeling content with everything.

you are his everyday and he is yours.

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