And This Is Another Game That Was In The Summer, Ill Just Leave It Here Because I Like How Happy We Are

and this is another game that was in the summer, I’ll just leave it here because I like how happy we are here

I'm not a great archer like Milva, or even the Scoyat'ael, but I found these pictures from the game and I'm so funny from my face in the first one :D

Bonus: watching my husband struggle with the expression “why aren’t you taking care of yourself?”

I really understand you, because I also often come across this. And this also often pushes away from some fandoms. I don't even want to post my arguments in some more public social networks (I don't have anyone I know from real life in tmblr, so I feel a little safe), but I don't write them especially here. I don't want to face waves of aggression. the only thing that saves me is that my husband supports me in my thoughts. the funniest thing is when I start to get carried away at some points (the plot of the second season, I grumbled for a while), in some things he explained to me why they did one way or another. but yes, the toxicity and bile of many people sometimes really hurts. I rub "sticks and stones can break my bones, but words… actually, also hurt"

I wish I was willing to watch things that are enjoyed by everyone right now. I know I would probably enjoy several of these shows. But I simply don't want to watch or to be part of the thing.

My current experience of fandoms isn't very nice (not much in this bubble but more around it - like in general). I just feel strange to like certain things the way I do. I feel they linger longer in me than for most and I can't move on easily.

Yesterday I quitted a stream because the streamer had his mind done already over the game he was playing, and he was trashing every details before even trying to play it. And it reminded me all those witcher video on youtube. Millions of views for trahsing. Ghosting for mixed or positive points of view.

Was it a good game? I don't know, probably not, I don't care anymore. I really didn't want to enter that vibe. So I stepped out.

The fact that he did it, visibly knowing he was gonna hate it, and then finding obviously every stone to throw at it and himself to finally say this is trash and the game was an insult, every way possible, just triggered me bad. Justification. I have to test it, this is my fandom and my work.

Well I guess he feels trapped in something that he doesn't like anymore. That's valid, but why do I have to receive all that passive aggressivity?

The thing is I don't find many places where people enjoy the same things I do. I step out more and more often. Not because they don't like something I enjoy - I am capable to take an opinion -, but the way they don't like, if I make sense.

All details that are like unworthy and so rarely details that are good. Glorifying the bad before pushing the thing out to the bin. To the point where I begin to wonder. Do I really have bad tastes ? Do I have too simple needs to fill? Should I want more ?

So when I see other stuff that I could possibly enjoy, I am like. Hmmm well, how long before people would begin to trash it too ? Do I really want to get invested in something that will follow the same path as everything else that I enjoy ?

The same reason blocks me in writing/finishing my analysis. There are 3 of them rotting in my draft with edits I have made, things that I wanted to talk about, etc. So I put the smallest content. I try to avoid being too enthusiastic.

I am bit jealous that people can invest themselves in several fandoms. Jumping from turmoil to another. For me the transitioning phases look like more like me partying hard in silence. Then just giving up. Then I move on. And eventually pick up something new.

Why do I keep interest in things for so long each time ?! I am talking years there.

I still can't figure out if I am the problem, others are to me or if I just can't adapt to the fast pacing of fandoms.

me: I don’t like characters of the same type

also me: oh Lucius, my boy

I’ll just leave a couple of funny photos for memory, I’ve never worn pink before in my life, but it seems quite cute😅

I decided to re-upload it directly to tumblr, because I really like how it turned out, but it seems to work worse with links (or the video is really crap and I'm wrong). Do you love Yennskier as much as I love them? (watermark is my main nickname🥲)