Idk If U Feel It Or Not But Every Time I Look At The Moon, A Painful Lump Form In My Throat, Tears Threaten

idk if u feel it or not but every time I look at the moon, a painful lump form in my throat, tears threaten to spill as how calming, pleasing, ethereal it looks contradictory to all anxiety and shit I've been goin' thru in this world.

As an artistic soul I'd say Piano is too deep for this world, it feels like breath of crisp mist in winter, like whispers of snowfalls, like silent murmurs of distant lush forest on the hills, like fog on frozen windowsill, like buzzing of fairies

in all honesty, the most gut wrenching and torment feeling is when u look up at the night sky and there's no stars to appreciate and to weave eloquent words about. Just a void dark abyss above us

I may have ear but trust me due to my philosophical skill I can stop listening whenever my mind want and I don't get a single word being said.

I always sleep after reading a novel, deliberately .. to let its claw sunk deep inside my mind and release it's sweet poison throughout my unconscious self. This poison blooms the hazy dreams on the back of my eye lid. where just for a moment I'm in the world built by the book I read..

-24 Jan, 2024..

(Completed Bear And The Nightingale)

When u prefer Ladies instead of Girls, Pardon instead of sorry, Classic instead of cool , Former instead of ex/old.