Idk But I Love Sad Thoughts, Crying And Emotional Things. When I'm Feeling Fine, I Find Myself Searching

Idk but i love sad thoughts, crying and emotional things. When I'm feeling fine, i find myself searching for sad things to make myself cry. But now, i feel like I'm stucked with the feeling that i dont wanna exist anymore. I missed the times where i wake up in the morning with a happy mind and thinking about having a productive day (turns out to be a not-so-productive-day) and then now, i feel like i don't want to get up on my bed anymore, my head is heavy, im tired even after waking up and so many unpleasant feelings, i lost interest on my hobbies like painting, drawing, and listening to music. I don't know what im gonna do next.

P.s sorry for any wrong grammar🙂

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Because at the end of the day nobody really cares if you lay in bed with tears in your eyes and death on your mind.

Current SPY x FAMILY Visuals for episodes 1-7

so you’re telling me, i have to go to school for 13 years just to get into a college where i spend 4 more years to get a 9 to 5 job with two days off a week for like 40 years, and then i finally get to retire when i’m old and run down? when do i get to enjoy my youth? when do i get to enjoy LIFE? why are we all focused on work, work, work, and not on the important things? we get one life, and we’re wasting it by getting involved in this stressful, messy rat race.

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A few days ago, someone was saying that the "Dad Gojo" memes and fan arts are "stupid" because Gojo has a God complex and isn't close to anyone, blah blah blah.

Here's the thing: no, Gojo isn't really a father figure. That doesn't mean he doesn't care; I'm the first person to argue that Gojo is not the unfeeling clown that everyone thinks he is. It means that there are different ways to show care; it's just that his way isn't traditionally paternal.

With his students in general, his role is that of a mentor more than an authority figure. Considering how strong they are (he helped train Maki, remember), he's clearly good at helping them reach their full potential. He is also very open with them, as we see here

(remember, he turned his Infinity off just to let them hug him)

With Megumi specifically, he's a serious mentor when necessary

But generally, is a menace

almost like an annoying uncle or eccentric godfather, which is essentially what he is to Megumi. He was 18/19 when he took 6 year old Megumi in, so their relationship dynamic makes sense.

When it comes to Yuuji, Gojo is very much a mentor to him but they also have a very casual bond as we see here when he high-fived a completely nude Yuuji after he woke from the dead:

However, he knew that Yuuji would need more than just intensive training and lighthearted moments. And here's one of the things I respect about Gojo: he knows his limitations.

He knows that he can't be the adult that a kid like Yuuji needs. Yuuji needs firm, solid support. And rather than deny him this, he called the Adult of Adults...Nanami Kento.

Here's a great audio drama scene of when Gojo asked Nanami to mentor Yuuji. Notice in the audio drama when Nanami refers to Yuuji as "Sukuna's Vessel", Gojo cuts him off and says "he's not Sukuna's vessel", meaning that he's a child, a person, not just a tool for the higher-ups of the Jujutsu world. I imagine he was probably thinking of himself and how he's just seen as "The Strongest" and not an actual person.

Gojo knows how brutal the jujutsu world is. He knows that heartbreak and losses are inevitable, but wants to lessen the emotional burden for his students as much as he can. Gojo was willing to outsource help for Yuuji, which I find admirable. When you consider how powerful Gojo is, it must've taken a lot for him to admit that he couldn't handle a situation and needed help.

So yes, Gojo Satoru does care about his students and he definitely shows it the best way he knows how. I don't like the idea of labeling every caring adult as a "mom/dad"; I believe that there are so many different ways to show a younger person that you care about them, without having to be a parental figure, and Gojo exemplifies this.

Dear diary...

I'm in the process of giving up

I am sick and tired of fighting.. these thoughts are weakening my strength day after day, and on this particular night I am unable to resist..

Will the songs heal the wounds of my soul? Will getting some sleep help me?

I don't know anymore ..

©DonutsCheeks