Idk But I Love Sad Thoughts, Crying And Emotional Things. When I'm Feeling Fine, I Find Myself Searching

Idk but i love sad thoughts, crying and emotional things. When I'm feeling fine, i find myself searching for sad things to make myself cry. But now, i feel like I'm stucked with the feeling that i dont wanna exist anymore. I missed the times where i wake up in the morning with a happy mind and thinking about having a productive day (turns out to be a not-so-productive-day) and then now, i feel like i don't want to get up on my bed anymore, my head is heavy, im tired even after waking up and so many unpleasant feelings, i lost interest on my hobbies like painting, drawing, and listening to music. I don't know what im gonna do next.

P.s sorry for any wrong grammar🙂

For the past few weeks I've been reflecting over so many things, and it's been quite a ride so far. This post really resonated with my healing process. I kept wondering why I was being treated a certain way even though I followed every instruction and guidance given by them, but alas I've been deemed as a failure on so many levels. Nothing is ever enough with them. So the only sensible solution I can see is to tell myself I am enough - in other words self love.

Current SPY x FAMILY Visuals for episodes 1-7

Sooo cuteee

Tiny unit

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Taehoon w Yeonwoo glasses

"What if they really dont love me?"

“I’m not used to being loved. I wouldn’t know what to do.”

— F. Scott Fitzgerald