Selfshipoctober, Day Two

selfshipoctober, day two

blanket | flame

rlly enjoyed making this one ..

and also its human sebastian this time, hehe

a little thing before you read, this will contain a little bit of fluff, thats all :3c

ANDDDD HOPEFULLY THIS WONT HAVE ANY SPELLING MISTAKES TOO :sob:

it was raining outside.

...

ahem...

wait... you don't know?

ah, this is the past.

before me and sebastian were separated.

and why am i talking about the past?

because our memories... are special to me.

i mean, you do know that we are back together, reunited after so long...

...

we miss our human selves.

because... we're no longer humans, obviously.

alright alright... ill stop with this veeeeery long and confusing introduction.

and ill just start to talk. :)

...

it was a cold and rainy night.

i was staying at sebastian's house for the first time ever, he said it was a sleepover.

expect he only invited me, i thought he was inviting his collage friends or something...

i didn't mind it, he knew how socially awkward i was...

...

knock knock

a door opened, it was me.

"glad to see you." sebastian said.

i waved at him and quickly got inside.

"jesus... is it THAT cold outside?" he reacted to my sudden move.

i slowly nodded my head as a response.

he sighed and held my hand, as he took me on a little tour around his apartment.

it was a tiny but yet cozy place, no wonder why he loves this place so much, hehe.

and as we walked to his room, he just sat down on his bed.

"sooo... whatcha think?" he asked, looking at me with a smile.

my cheeks turned to a bright pink as he looked directly to my face.

"um.... yeah! it's nice." i answered as i smiled back.

he chuckled at my response.

we both admired eachother for a couple minutes as we both stayed silent, it felt... a little awkward but yet, cute.

and suddenly, he would break the silence, asking me a question.

"you wanna... watch a movie with me?" he asked.

i immediately nodded as he said that.

he laughed and got up, holding my hand again as we walked towards his living room.

afterwards, we would start making popcorn and very weird snacks, basically grabbing whatever he had on his fridge, wowies.

as i held our snacks to his coffee table infront of the tv, he would get a bunch of blankets, pillows, plushies... a looooot of things.

i looked suprised, he looked so happy to spend time with me.

ehe... how silly.

as i took my shoes off and sat down on the couch, he placed a couple blankets above me.

and sat down next to me.

"so... what type of movies do you watch?" i asked.

"mmm... anything really." he answered.

he grabbed the tv remote and started going around to find a interesting movie to watch.

meanwhile, i would place my head on his shoulder and yawned a couple times.

its been like... ten minutes and he hasnt found a movie and yet, i was already so tired.

he looked at me and smiled.

"already tired, hmmm?" he whispered.

i nodded my head, not saying much.

"well... if that's so..."

he gently lifted me up and placed me in his arms gently.

his back was against the couch, getting a comfortable position for himself.

i was surprised and my cheeks turned red, i didn't knew how to respond that well.

he saw my expression and he immediately looked nervous.

"ah shit, am i doing too much? im so sorry, i ca-" and before he could finish the sentence, i interrupted him.

"can we stay like this for a while..." i silently said.

i wrapped my arms around him, hugging him as i placed my head against his chest.

his face was red as a tomato, he completely froze.

there was silence for a couple seconds before he suddenly spoke.

"of... of course." he answered.

he looked down and saw how calm and relaxed i was in his arms.

and as the night drove on, we cuddled together on that tiny couch.

until we both fell asleep.

so cute, so silly even.

it was just me and him.

just... me and him, wrapped around those blankets.

that day still plays on my head sometimes, it's so dumb but yet, special to me.

i hope he still remembers how much that day means to me. ♡

i miss when we would record videos with our friend group

i miss when we played roblox all together

i miss when we would call for hours with them and laugh at the dumbest shit ever

i miss when you were still alive

step misses you

banish misses you

and i fucking miss you so much donut.

we love you so fucking much.

im in a very happy and silly mood today so expect to see some wholesome writing tonight!! cant wait to write more for selfshipoctober today :3

i wish i could give up

i dont want to live anymore

im so tired of everything

i cant handle anything without breaking into tears

im sorry malachi

im sorry for being weak

im so fucking sorry.

hi! i decided to come back from my hiatus now, it only ended up being a tiny break to get my mind off stuff, ive been doing better and im ready to be back on posting!

i have a lot of stuff to post, including the writing for selfshipping october thingy that im excited to post :3

dont ask why i did this (art credit in alt text)