To Young Lesbians

To young lesbians

You don’t have to “verify” or “test” your lesbianism by being with a man “just in case”. In that young lesbian self-doubt stage that some of us have, you don’t need to double-check yourself by “trying out” being with a man. 

Too many times have I heard older lesbians lament the fact that they slept with men as a form of self-hate and self-harm, or to try to convert themselves to be straight. My heart breaks for them

Too many times have men said to me “just try it” or “but how do you know you’re a lesbian if you’ve never been with a man?” or “there’s no harm in experimenting!”

Don’t worry, young lesbians, you never have to be with a man. There are lesbians who have lived their whole lives without being with a man. You know you’re a lesbian by the fact that you’re solely attracted to women. That’s it. 

Matisse

The Blue Room

i love listening to someone’s favorite song its like im mentally holding their hand

Academic aesthetics

Dark Academia

Long Black coats, thunder but no lightning, red wine, blood, forests in winter, a single guttering candle, latin, bones, all of history in your hands, Tchaikovsky, piles of old books, the hour before sunrise, complicated cravats, Hozier, true crime, Donna Tartt, secret diaries.

Light Academia

Sunshine in shallow water, white cotton, lacy dresses, champagne, the plays of Oscar Wilde, summer rain, wind rustling the pages of a book, jacket over on shoulder, Maurice, frost covering new flowers, Florence + the machine, roses, bare feet, girls school, old books about species of plant or butterflies, biological Diagrams, flowers in your hair, perfect notes.

Chaotic Academia

Two top buttons undone, scribbled notes in pencil or biro, kill your darlings, untied laces, so much coffee, all nighters, crying in the library, Mozart, writing film scripts for fun, rain Storms, moorland, swimming in the dark, movie soundtracks while studying, procrastination, muddy boots, unsent letters.

Grey Academia

Jane eyre, sunrise, cold hands, perfect handwriting, beat gen, Edgar Alan Poe, crows, small animal bones, writing essays until 2am, Vivaldi, February or November, zodiacs, loving history and art, Leonardo davinci, Tamino.

Romantic Academia

Billowing pirate sleeves, Lord Byron, theatre, violets, achilles, reading poetry aloud, bloody cheekbones, love letters, doodling in class, doc Martins, long ball dresses, gothic churches, dead poets society, sword fights back stage, wind and mist and violent Storms, tea, long journal entries, wide brimmed hats, museums.

Spring Academia

Cotton shirts with large jumpers, celendines, maypole dancing, reading short stories, old traditions, Jane Austen, new term, beautiful notes, pastel colours, period dramas, magpies, 2005 pride and prejudice soundtrack, new leaves, cold feet, dancing.

Summer Academia

Flower crowns, studying late while the sun is still up, full moons, parties outside, sun dresses, warm rainstorms, exam season, bare feet, ancient Greece, herb tea, singing to the radio, lying in the grass, bird song, biology textbooks, the Lord of the rings, studying outside, mystery of love by sufjan Stevens.

Autumn Academia

Foxes, dead leaves, large coats and scarves, old stone walls, steaming black tea, mist, travel journals, forgetting to study until the last minute, frankenstein, old songs, nostalgia, carrying a book everywhere, rebel rebel, the picture of dorian gray, soup, studying in the morning as the sun rises.

Winter Academia

Long walks, misty breath, so much reading, shunning capitalist society, sad music, learning about witch hunts, philosophy, wuthering heights, mystery books, Dracula, black and white photos, transcribing music, old statues, silence.

Feral Academia

Pin stripe jacket with jeans, Dionysus, "norse" makeup, cold sweet tea, running through the forest, mythology, I got an unconditional so I don't need to try hard, scraping the grades, shouty music, helenic polytheism, obsessive interests, reading a 500 page book in one sitting, love learning, hate the education system, vive le revolution.

Okay but The Magicians has:

A bisexual man with depression that isn’t cured by love or discovering magic

A Native American woman who is suffering ptsd because of sexual assault and is never belittled for this

A woman who is allowed to be intelligent and sexy at the same time, as well as being selfish when she needs to

A gay man who suffers from alcoholism and drug addiction that isn’t treated like a joke

An Indian-American man who calls out racism, homophobia and sexism, and supports the women in his life

A Mexican-Indian-American woman who starts off as a party girl and becomes a great ruler who is allowed to be a bitch

A Native American-Israeli woman who is both mean and compassionate and these traits are able to coexist

A black man who is blinded but still retains his position of power and badassery

A woman who seemed like she was being brought in as a plot device but became a fleshed-out character with a storyline outside of her husband

Villains who are pervs and rapists and paedophiles and never shown as redeemable

A deaf character played by a deaf actress who is powerful and her deafness isn‘t just a plot device

A trans actress portraying a character who started as a villain and became an incredibly complex anti-hero