Before I Met You, I Swore To Myself That Id Never Let Anyone Into My Life Again. Of All The Disappointments

Before I met you, I swore to myself that I’d never let anyone into my life again. Of all the disappointments in the time before I’d you, I have brought myself back to my old strength. And then you suddenly showed up and I was happy. You brought me back from the hole I was stuck in, even if it was hard at the beginning. You showed me how happy a person can be, how calm the voices in my head can become when we‘re together. And then you let me fall deeper than I’ve could‘ve imagined. How do I get out of here? Will I ever be happy again?

I'm not sure if l've ever loved in my life.

I only know that I was completely satisfied with you for the first time and I felt safe. Near you, I wasn't afraid of the future because I knew I had you by my side forever. It has never been so calm in my head.

And now you're gone and I'm learning to fear again. The fear of never being happy again and having to face the horror of this world alone.

Where did we go wrong?

i feel like the only option i have left is to give up..

I only make mistakes, fall in love too quickly. I fall to pieces a little more everyday.

And then they will leave you ..

“How do you know someone is for you? They bring peace you haven’t found anywhere else. They support your effort. They water your growth.”

— Unknown