Why Will I Always Love Her? Why Must I Always Think Of Her? Why Must She Always Be My Forever?

Why will I always love her? Why must I always think of her? Why must she always be my forever?

I’m fine when you aren’t here.

The problem is just that.

You’re always here.

On my mind.

In my heart.

In my dreams.

Why can’t I just hate you?

Instead of hating myself.

- M. N.

Now that I am sitting here in my pool all I can think about is her. Why is she on my mind now? I wish that she could have loved me as I had loved her. I wish I could have fulfilled my dream of my life with her always in it.

I knew what I was getting myself into when she became my dream. 

“The moment we give our hearts entirely, we know that it is not a task, but a duty. We must embrace this responsibility. We must act upon diligently, soberly, withstanding love and respect to each one.”

— Chuck Akot, “We give our hearts e n t i r e l y.”

I let her destroy me and now I am paying for it. I wish she would come back to me, but I know she is his. I know that I lost. 

Did you destroy me?

Or did I let you destroy me?

-M.N

Old Sport left sometime ago now, and I am just realizing how lonely I truly am.

She knows what she did, but I do not know if she truly cares. 

“You broke my heart without even knowing it.”