THE FIRST I LOVE YOU | D. Holfield

THE FIRST I LOVE YOU | d. holfield

pairing: dinger holfield x fem!plus size!reader

warnings: body image issues, i think that’s it but if there’s anything i missed please let me know. also if i never can’t find a partner who is like this i don’t want them.

I SIGHED AS I LOOKED at my reflection in the mirror. i never really liked my body, but i never hated it either. i liked it when i wore certain pants it complemented my hips and thighs, but i hate that it brings out my hip dips.

i shook my head and decided i wasn’t gonna deal with this today. i just threw on one of my old hoddies laying around and out on a random pair of leggings, and decided that was it. i was almost out the door when i ran back to my dresser and grabbed the necklace dinger had gotten me for my birthday last year.

“well don’t you look comfy” my mother chuckled as i walked out to the car. i rolled my eyes and got in the car.

“hello honey!” i cringed at the stupid accent dinger did as his arms wrapped around me from behind. i felt his lips peck behind me ear making me laugh and squirm out his his grip.

“hi dinger” i smiled as he took my hand and walked down the hallway. i could see girls looking at me, i tried to ignore them but by the time we had gotten to class i already wanted to go home.

i sat in my desk, dinger behind me, and put my head down on my arms. this was nothing new, i always sleeped in science. it was boring plain and simple. i felt my desk shuffle a bit so i looked up to see dinger sat on top of it.

“you okay?” dinger asked as he messed with my hair. i swatted his hands away, causing him to pout. “why can you play with my hair but i can’t play with yours?”

“because your hair is messy, it won’t matter if i mess it up, it will look the same” i laughed as dinger mocked hurt.

“okay, i see how it is” dinger got up and went back to his seat. i could hear him muttering the words i told him. the bell rung making me sign and put my head back down.

by the time it was lunch i was done with the staring. instead of going to the lunch room i walked down the hallway, acting as if i was going to the bathroom as a teacher walked down the hall. once she was gone i booked it for the exit door.

once i was far enough from school, i took a cigarette and lit it, letting the smoke burn my lungs as i walked down the street.

i knew my mother would be home, but i knew she wouldn’t care that i came home, after all i did it often enough. i walked in the door and headed straight for my room.

i flopped into my bed and pulled the covers over me, just wanting an escape from reality. i sighed as a hugged my pillow before my eyes got heavy.

“hey…wake up” i heard fingers voice as i turned over to see him sitting on my bed. “wha lt happend? why did my leave”

“i couldn’t handle the stares” i sighed as i sat up in bed.

“what stares?” dinger asked with a real looo of confusion.

“you can’t tell me you don’t see them” i told him as i looked down at my hands. i could see dinger shake his head through the corner of my eyes. my eyes teared up as all i could see were the judgemental stares.

“hey. hey. hey. what stares?” dinger said as he held my hand. he knew i didn’t like being touched when i was emotional, that’s one of the things i liked about him.

“all the stares from the skinny girls, staring at me as if i was the ugliest person on earth. the stares from girls who wonder why your dating a fat girl instead of some skinny cheerleader who doesn’t have a stomach, or fat thighs, or ugly hip dips.” i cried. dinger looked at me with wide eyes before he pulled me into him and let me cry into his chest.

“baby. baby. you are beautiful okay. i don’t care about those other girls, okay? i care about you. i don’t want one of those skinny girls because, you have way more to love. i love your stomach, because when we’re watching a movie or just laying around it’s like my own personal pillow, same with your thighs. i love that when i put my hand on them, or when i squeeze them your cheeks heat up. and your hip dips, don’t even get me started on those. they look so pretty when your in your swim suit or any pants in general. so please, please, believe me when i say i don’t want anyone else” me and dinger just stared at each other before i leaned forward and kissed him. we stayed that way for a while before we had to pull away for oxygen.

i looked down at my hands before dinger tackled me down to the bed and layed on top of me. his arms wrapped around me as his hands went under my back, and his head went into the crook of my neck.

“i love you,” he said as my eyes widened. we had never said i love you to each other. i looked down at him to see him looking up at me with a small smile and those puppy dog eyes i could never say no to.

“and i love you” i told him before i leaned down to kiss him. i could feel him smile into the kiss, as i did the same. i pulled back and dinger his his face in my neck again. my hand went to his hair as i felt him sigh into my neck.

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THE LOST BOYS (1987) dir. by Joel Schumacher

guys/girls/gender-fluids/non-bianays, i need some requests!

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hihihihi, just wanted to say that i adore your writing so much babe, quite literally stumbled across your page a few mins ago but i’m in awe with how incredible it is, you’re doing absolutely amazing ! ! ! <3

ahh thank you! i’m sorry i just saw this now but tysm!

ANGST PROMPTS

1: " Give me a chance.

2: " Not you again..

3: " Leave me alone.

4: " I don't love you anymore.

5: "Why do you hate me? "

6: "I lost the baby.

7: " I thought you loved me.

8: " I don't need you anymore.

9:" I can't believe you!

10: " We cant keep this up forever.

11: " You're a monster.

12: " I hate you.

13: " Don't leave me...

14: " You're a disappointment.

15: " Don't die on me- Please.

16: " I never meant to hurt you.

17: " Are you upset with me?

18: " I wish id never met you.

19: " I'm going to kill you! "

20: " Please don't hurt me like this.

21: " Thanks for nothing.

22: " Dont call this number again. "

23: " Why did you spare me?

24: " You need to leave."

25: " I'm sick.

26: " I'm dying.

27: " I wish i'd never met you.

28: " I thought we were family!"

29: " There was never an us."

30: " So that's it? It's over?"

31: " I fucked up.

32: " I came to say goodbye.

33:" He's dead because of you."

34: " I don't deserve to be loved.

35: " About the baby. Its yours."

LOVE PROMPTS:

36: " I'm so in love with you."

37: " Dance with me!"

38: " Isn't this amazing?"

39: " I wish we could stay like this forever."

40: " Will you marry me?

41: " I'm pregnant.

42: " I need a hug.

43: " You're special to me. "

44: " I'm going to keep you safe.

45: " Do you trust me?

46: " Can I kiss you right now?

47: " You're cute when you're angry.

48: " I've liked you for awhile now.

49: " Lets have a baby.

50: " We'd make such a cute couple. "

51: " I want to take care of you.

52: " Can we cuddle? "

53: " It's lonely here without you.

54: " I can't stand the thought of loosing you.

55: " Shut up and kiss me already.

56: " Are you flirting with me?"

57: " Is that my shirt?

58: " How did we get here? "

59: " You own my heart.

60: " You'd be a great dad.

61: " You'd be a great mom.

62: "I want to protect vou.

63:" Whats the matter?

64: " You're so beautiful.

65: " Did you do something different with your

hair? "

66: " Is that a new perfume?"

67: " Stop being so cute.

68: " You're making me blush! "

69: " You're teasing me again.

70:" This is why I fell in love with you."

71: " You're the best!"

72: " They're going to love you, don't worry!

73: " Oh, Are you ticklish?

74: " Of course I remembered! "

75: " You're one hell of a girl.

76: " You're one hell of a guy.

77: " Are you jealous?

78: " Hold me and never let me go.

79: " Stop hogging all the blankets!"

80: " Lets run away together.

GENERAL PROMPTS:

90: " Catch me if you can!"

91: " I'm fine.

92: " Are you drunk? "

93: " Are you high?"

94: " We cant go in there…..

95: " Give it back! "

96: " Well this is just great.

97: " Don't touch me.

98: " Not sure if you could tell, but I'm not

exactly a people person. "

99: " This was fun- Lets do it again

sometime!"

100: " I didn't do it!"

101: " I did it...

102: " I don't remember that!"

103: " Well that's pretty rude of you to say."

104: " Get that thing away from me!"

105: " You owe me.

106: " Do you believe in aliens?"

107: " Do you believe in ghosts? "

108: " Are you hitting on me? "

109: " Why are you naked?"

110: " You did what?!"

111: " You have... Superpowers?"

112: " Why are you bleeding?"

113: " Where did all these puppies come from?"

114: " Don't make me come over there myself!'

115: " That wasn't funny.'

116: " This tastes horrible.

117: " This is delicious!"

118: " Are you mad at me?"

119: " Stop ignoring me.

120: " I love that show too!"

121: " Can I borrow that book of yours?"

122: " Lets blow this joint."

123: " Let me help you with that.

124: " Take that back! "

125: " Wanna go see a movie with me?"

126: " No way, that's so lame.

127: " What are you listening to?"

128: "I brought you your coffee.

129: " Don't fuck this up.

130: " Run!"

131: " Lets run away together.'

132: " I haven't slept in four days..

133: " Your turn to do the dishes.

134: " Was I really that drunk?'

135: " Was I really that stoned?"

136: "Give me back my phone! "

137: " You're an asshole.

138: " Are you cold?"

139: " This place gives me the creeps.

140: " I swear my house is haunted. "

141: " Did you hear that? "

142: " It's just your imagination.

143: " Just how stupid do you think I am? "

144: " Stop being such a baby.

145: " Go back to bed. "

146: " Are you okay?"

147: " I can take care of myself just fine."

148: " Thanks for helping me back there.

149: " Since when have we ever been friends? "

150: " What on earth are you wearing?"

151: " I can't feel my legs!"

152: " Stop texting me weird stuff so late at

night."

153: " Put me down! "

154: " There's only one bed...

155: " It isn't what it looks like! Okay. Maybe it is

156: " How did I loose it? "

157: " I read your diary.

158: " This is awkward.

159: " Didn't you read the sign?

SEXUAL PROMPTS:

161: " Bite me.

162: " Make me.

163: " Fuck me.

164: " Stop teasing me so much...

165: " Do you like it when I touch you like that?"

166: " Okay.. This is new.

167: " Want to head back to my place and have

a little fun?

168: " You're in trouble now. "

169:" What a pretty sight.

170: " Bend over.

171: " On your knees.

172: " The food looks great but.. There's

something much more delicious i'd like to eat

right now.

173: " Lay back.

174: " Take off your clothes.

175: " Well, fine; just this once."

176: " I'm waiting.

177: " You're so beautiful.

178:" As you wish.

179: " First one to make a noise looses."

180: " You have no idea what you do to me. "

181: " If you're bored; Wanna have sex? "

182: " Ive wanted this for so long.

183: " Car sex looks so much more easier in the

movies.

184: " Can I touch you? "

185: " Open up.

186: " No strings attached.

187: " Already? Do I really have that much of an

effect on you? "

188: " Mine.

189:" The nights still young.

190: " We cant do that here!

191: " Behave.

192:" What did you just say?"

193: "Good girl"

194: "Good Boy"

WHY DO YOU HATE ME? — dean thomas

summary: dean finally has enough of y/n and confronts her

pairing: dean thomas x fem!gryffindor!reader

warning: strong language, kissing

type: angst?, fluff at the end

dean say at the gryffindor table listening to the conversations around him. neville was going on and on about plants while seamus was trying to figure out a way to not blow things up.

"wow, dean thomas not talking for once, that's a first" y/n said as her and her friends past behind him. dean rolled his eyes and decided to ignore her remark before going back to his food. "no witty response? what cat got your tongue?" y/n and her friends laughed as they sat across from him.

"whatever, l/n" he scoffed before getting up and sitting on the other side of seamus and neville. he could hear y/n talking about him, he tried his best not to let it get to him, but he finally got to his breaking point.

he stood up and grabbed y/n from her place, pulling her out of great hall, ignoring all the stares he got.

"what the hell! let go of me!" y/n snapped as she tried to get out of his grasp. dean finally let her go as they entered the gryffindor common room, everyone was at dinner so he knew no one would be in their at this time.

"why do you hate me so much?" dean asked as they stood in the middle of the common room.

"really? that's what you dragged me here for?" y/n scoffed and went to walk twords the door but dean quickly stepped infront of her.

"no no no your gonna tell me why you hate me so much." dean told her as he continued to stand infront her.

"im not telling you shit." y/n snapped as she tried walking past him only to get pulled back. "fine, you wanna know why i really hate you? i hate you because you've had everything handed down to you on a silver- not wait golden plater since the day you stepped foot in the school! you have the perfect grades, the perfect friends, for fucks sake you have the most perfect fucking reputation! all the teachers love you! the fucking bartenders at the three broomsticks love you for christs sake! and in their eyes you can do no wroung, your perfect little dean thomas, the perfect boy next door!" y/n went on as she slowly walked twords dean making him go backwards. dean finally fell backwards onto the couch looking up at y/n standing infront of him.

y/n watched as dean opened and closed his mouth like a fish before she scoffed and started walking away. dean quickly scrambled up and grabbed her turning her around. y/n looked at dean their faces inches apart.

"im not the perfect boy next door, i don't have the perfect grades, not everyone loves me, y/n..." dean said before closing the gap between them, putting his lips on hers. he could feel her tense but slowly relaxe and start to mimic his actions.

y/n backed dean up till they fell onto one of the chairs of the common room. dean sitting, and y/n on his lap, legs on either sides of his hips.

"well shit." they heard a voice say before they quickly got off of eachother and turned to see neville, seamus, and the weasley twins standing at the doorway.

"i told you freddie boy!" george laughed as fred handed him a sickle. they both chuckled before walking up into the dormitories.

"i-im just gonna g-go." y/n said before hurrying up the stairs and into her dorm. she could hear the faint voices of seamus and neville asking dean what just happened, only to hear dean say 'i really don't know...' she laughed before belly flopping onto her bed and bringing her finger to her lips.

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