I Don't Want Much, I Just Want To Learn How To Enjoy Life, Even In The Hardest Moments.

I don't want much, I just want to learn how to enjoy life, even in the hardest moments.

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Anyone knows how to figured out your life?

Cause I'm in college I have no ideas what I'm doing, I don't even know why I get to college, I hate it.

I have no ideas what job I wanna do in my life, I'm so lost, I don't even know who I am anymore.

But like I feel like I can't give up on college cause of money and I would feel like a failure and I didn't know if I could like others degrees in the future unstead of the one I'm doing.

I'm French so it might be different from your perspective but damn college in France is worth nothing. I can't barely go there I already make full panics attack and a tetany attack and I'm under meds but I feel like it's never gonna get better.

It's not that I don't wanna work and go to college. I wanna learn things, I wanna learn so many languages and travel and see more of the world then all of this but I have to much pressure and I'm poor. But I don't wanna go to college for 5 years then ended up having a miserable job and being paid as if my degree is worth nothing.

I don't wanna stay there, I wanna move as far away from my hometown as possible. I can't be there anymore but I feel like with my anxiety that I will never be able to do anything.

Any advices in general to help me,I'm kinda desperate. From people who are older, does it get better?

I spend so much time lost in my mind that I end up forgetting to live.

People empty me. I have to get away to refill.

Charles Bukowski

To anyone reading this I have no ideas what am I doing with my life. I want this to end. I want everything to stop.