Are Are Are You, Are You, Are You THE Lloyd Montgomery Garmadon?? :OO

are are are you, are you, are you THE Lloyd montgomery garmadon?? :OO

*sweats* haha- no no, where-where did you get that from?

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: LEGO Ninjago (Cartoon 2011-2022) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Lloyd Garmadon/Brad Tudabone, Lloyd Garmadon & Kai, Lloyd Garmadon & Lord Garmadon, Lloyd Garmadon & Harumi, Lloyd Garmadon & Nya Characters: Lloyd Garmadon, Brad Tudabone, Kai (Ninjago), Zane (Ninjago), Jay Walker (Ninjago), Cole (Ninjago), Gene (Ninjago), Sally the Singer (Ninjago), Lord Garmadon (Ninjago), Harumi (Ninjago) Additional Tags: Lloyd and Brad are the only ones actually in this, everyone else is mentioned - Freeform, Suicide Attempt, Self-Harm, Implied/Referenced Self-Harm, Eating Disorders, Overdosing, Autistic Lloyd Garmadon, Genderfluid Lloyd Garmadon, Depressed Lloyd Garmadon, Lloyd Garmadon Needs a Hug, Lloyd Garmadon Angst, Lloyd Garmadon Needs Therapy, Brad Tudabone Tries, Rated T for swearing, This fanfic is rlly bad… i don’t know how to write Summary:

Lloyd was tired, tired of being the green ninja. Tried of failing everyone. He couldn’t stop himself from walking up to the roof, he had to do this. It was for the best. Ninjago would be better off without the disappointment of a green ninja that Lloyd was.

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please go check the fanfic out if you haven’t already i tried with it, but it’s not the best- but thank you to anyone who enjoys it. 

Fic under cut

It’s Love That I Fear.

Lloyd couldn’t stop himself from sobbing in his pillow at… He looked up at the clock, tears falling down his face, at 2:37 am.

God, Lloyd was really pathetic.

He whimpers and shoved his head back into his pillow. Trying to silence his sobs in the middle of the night, thinking back to earlier…

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Lloyd had decided to take a break from training with the others, still a bit exhausted from the trip to the never realm. So he thought it would be nice to just take the rest of the day off and hang out with his childhood friend.

Him and Brad were on the balcony together, talking about there life’s recently and just having a good time.

But suddenly when Brad laughed at a stupid joke Lloyd had made… a feeling exploded in his chest… It was warm, soft and…. terrifying.

The last time The Green Ninja had felt that feeling was with the Jade Princess, Harumi, the girl who stole his head and shattered it. She betrayed him in that oni cave and brought his fa- Garmadon, back and nearly had his friends killed… His true Family, even not by blood… but Lloyd getting off track, Harumi ruined his life… that’s it. But… It hurt Lloyd. He couldn’t trust people the same.

There was another fear pooling in his gut too… This thought seems so stupid and pathetic but he can’t help be feel fear that he realized he feel for his childhood best friend, who’s also a boy…. Lloyd couldn’t help but feel a sharp stinging realization that he was gay… well, Bisexual. He feels scared. People speak so lowly and disgusted of queer people… He’s one. *He’s one.* He feels stupid for feeling scared of that. All his siblings are queer, people understand him out there. But he can’t help but feel alone, isolated.

Lloyd hadn’t realized he was panicking till he heard Brad worriedly say his name “Lloyd…?” Lloyd snaps out of it and looks at Brad. He could feel his face heating up looking at the elder of the pair.

He had his hand on Lloyds shoulder and his eye brows were pinched together. “Are ok Lloyd? You were starting to hyperventilate there…”

Lloyd just laughed it off and shook his head “I’m completely fine” His hands were shaking and he was sweating. He knew that this was the sighs of a soon to be panic attack.

The scary warm feeling in his chest was still there and he felt like throwing up. He couldn’t stop thinking of Harumi… He was afraid that this feeling for Brad was going to lead him to pain, like how Harumi did.

Lloyd looked at his phone and tried to put on a sorry expression, but really he was nervous and scared. He quickly started to walk into Brads apartment, collecting his things and quickly saying before he bolts out of Brads door “I should really get going! Bye!” And with that Lloyd slammed Brads door, quickly running down the stairs and to his bike that he used to get here.

Brad just stood in his apartment, his eyes wide and mouth hung open. He was shock by Lloyds sudden need to get out and leave… “O-oh… Bye…?” He said quietly to himself after Lloyd had left. He started to feel worried for Lloyd.

Lloyd could feel tears pricking his eyes and his breathing quickening. He was trying to be as fast as possible and get to the monastery before he broke down over something so… stupid ——————————————————

When Lloyd had gotten home, to the monastery, he opened the gates and then quickly closed them with shaking hands.

He could feel his breathing hitching and picking up in pace and the tears trying to fall from his eyes. He was panicking over a stupid crush! How stupid is he?! He doesn’t deserve to be the green ninja if this is how panicked he is after realizing he has feelings he didn’t even want!

Most people don’t panic like this. Most people aren’t like a time bomb waiting to explode either though.

Lloyds thoughts were running wild as he quickly ran through the monastery halls and to his bed room. Right as he was about to close his bed room door he heard a worried sounding

“Lloyd?”

Lloyd sighed and grimaced at hearing Kai’s voice, not wanting to put up with Kai teasing him about Brad or being overbearing with who Lloyd hangs out with.

The Blondie didn’t turn around when he, without mean to, harshly snapped “Leave me alone” And then slammed the door behind him. Leaving a worried Kai on the other side.

Kai could tell that his little brother was upset about something, so he gently knocked on Lloyds door. “Is everything ok, kid?” The worry was present in his tone, Kai can always tell when something is up with Lloyd. So right now, all the alarm in his brain were going off telling him that Lloyd was on the brim on a panic attack or breakdown… But why? Wasn’t he with Brad? Kai gets mad himself now, he swears if Brad did something to hurt Lloyd…

“I’m fine, Kai. Just leave me alone.”

Lloyd had tried to make his voice not sound wet or like he was a second away from crying his head out.

Kai sigh from the other side, he knew his little brother. He knew when something was up, but he also knew when the kid needed some alone time.

So, Kai decided not to push it with Lloyd.

He walked away from Lloyd’s door, but before he did he soft said “Just know i’m here if you need anything, green bean.” As Kai walked away he tried to hear if Lloyd responded but he didn’t. With one last sigh Kai walked away.

Lloyd waited for a bit before he figured the coast was clear and just broke down sobbing. He shoved his head in his pillow, trying to muffle his sobbing.

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And that’s how Lloyd got to where he is now. Sobbing in his room in the middle of the night. He hadn’t gone out for dinner or anything, he was just being a big baby.

After a bit Lloyds sobbing finally died down, so he was left feeling drained and exhausted. From just everything, the crying, the whole day.

The fact that he might have feelings for Brad is terrifying. Because what if Brad turns out like Harumi and becomes a insane revenge thirsty maniac? No. Brad would never, not even Darkly's could make Brad evil, he’s too kind. But still, even with that thought Lloyd still has the fear that. rad is not going to be who he says he is and everyone Lloyd cares about and Lloyd is going to end up hurt.

Also though what if Brads not gay? What if Lloyd comes out to Brad and then Brad thinks he disgusting and they stop being friends? What if everyone thinks Lloyd is gross…? It’s not normal to be bisexual, or whatever Lloyd is. He’s never thought about being gay before. There’s nothing wrong with it, and all his siblings are queer. But he suddenly just feels so alone. Like no one could understand him.

He sighs, the breath shaky and uneven. Lloyd doesn’t want to have to deal with this right now.

He just tries his best to sleep at this point, there’s nothing else he can really do.

Requests for oneshots! :)

Hello ninjago fandom! :D

I would like to write a ninjago oneshot, but i have no ideas that would be able to be short enough to be a oneshot- So i’m asking y’all for some requests! :D  Now i personally would like the requests to be lloyd centric, please and thank you

Now, I will NOT be doing any -

- NSFW requests (unless it’s like a r@pe or sa recovery fanfic ig- idk)

- Lloyd x any ninja or adult or just overall a very problematic ship requests 

- OC and/or reader requests 

- Mulifandom requests

uhmm… idk what else should I not allow?

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It could be anything as long as it is following my boundaries and wishes.

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