TW: Suggestions To Current Abuse.

TW: suggestions to current abuse.

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All the imagines for survivors I’ve seen are a snapshot of the aftermath, of being out and dealing with the beasts lurking in your mind. They hold a special place in my heart, in my deepest wishes for the future, in the scrap of hopeless romanticism I have left.

But this is for the ones who are still There and can’t get out.

It breaks your F/O’s heart when they find out. No matter how it came to be known — from the quietest murmur of truth to a self-deprecating quip others would laugh at — they’ll feel a tug of wrongness, of pain in their core. In times of tears, they’ll hurt with you because you are more than worth hurting for.

You can let yourself unravel in their embrace. All the masks in the world couldn’t work on your F/O; you’re their beloved, not their one-second crush or a toy to discard, and they would never dare to turn a blind eye to your words or your pain. From the texts you can only send at an hour unholy enough to go undetected to the bitter tears that have been forced into silence, they want all of you. Maybe your F/O will pull enough strings to get you away, or perhaps they’re helpless to do anything but whisper truths into your ear when the world tells you you’re worthless, but nothing on this Earth and beyond can dissuade them from being right next to you every step of the way.

They’ll celebrate your strength on the better days, making fun of the sorry people who try to get to you and mockingly plot against them (whether they actually carry out said plan depends on the F/O). They’ll hold you on the worst days where you fear even thinking badly of those who berate you, squeezing your hand and murmuring reassurances in a soft croon. They’ll write down your triggers to keep you safe, remind you to take care of yourself and your body, assure you that a day will come beyond this night and that they’ll liberally treat you like the royalty you are once you’re free.

Your F/O is more than willing to peel away the layers of guilt and hate and doubt with a silk touch, to reach your most vulnerable self and show you unconditional warmth and love.

All you have to do is let them.

of course your f/o will worry about you!!!!! they care about you!!!!! you are important to them!!!! they'll make sure you live knowing you will always have them by your side!!!!!

Have you ever imagine, ever wished with your whole heart you could just leave everything behind and actual be with your beloved f/o.

Like falling asleep during the current life you have and wake up the next in a whole different setting. A whole different life. A life you wished to have, a life filled with peace, a life with f/o. All your worries, stress, triggers…they are gone.

You can breath, feel free to be you and get the support of the f/o’s you hold dear as your friends and/or family. They listen and accept any thing about you. They wouldnt let you fall the moment you made a mistake or showed a flaw. Them and f/o will be really there for you❤️

y'know sometimes.... you just gotta believe that your f/o thinks that you're pretty/handsome/cute. No matter what you think is wrong with you. Whatever, and I mean whatever it is that you think makes you undesirable, just know that your f/o thinks you are a mf snack. You don't have to be the most conventionally attractive person for them to love you and find you attractive. You have features that are unique to your face that make you YOU and your f/o LOVES all of them. So please don't ever think you're too ugly for your f/o because you're NOT. And dont think that you're not enough for your f/o because you ARE. Having that small positive re-enforicment in the back of your head of your f/o saying "what are you talking about??? You're gorgeous!" when you're down on yourself can really help so don't ever feel like your f/o wouldn't want to kiss you all over your adorable face because they WOULD and they WILL if you don't start loving yourself right mf now.

Having some issues with depression and bad thoughts so I'll write something. Hopefully it helps.

TW: Mentions of depression and su!cidal thoughts.

You're crying in the bathroom since you don't want to wake your f/o. The thoughts have gotten really bad.

You're ugly.

You're stupid.

You're useless.

You're a bother for everyone.

You'll never pass high school.

You'll never get your dream job.

You just want to die.

You just want to stop being alive altogether.

You sob and sniff and you know you're not even a pretty crier like in all those tv shows, movies and animes. You try to be quiet but your f/o opens the door of the bathroom, having heard you and just silently moves over to hold you tightly but gently against their chest. They just let you cry while they rub your hair and back, sometimes also kissing the top of your head softly.

You just cry and cry and they stay with you, comforting you because they know it's what you need. No words. No nothing. Just the feeling that someone for once is seeing you at your weakest and stays with you because they genuinely care. They're not gonna leave like everyone else did.

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you are cared for - treasured - adored, by each and every one of them. they understand that it can be hard to accept, to believe, when every little thing in your life seems to say the opposite.

if you cannot love yourself right now, they will do that for you (in whatever way, shape, or form that will bring you comfort). if you can barely even tolerate yourself, they understand that, too.

they know that you are worth their time, their effort, their energy. no matter what conditions you may or may not have. no matter what help you may or may not need. no matter what.

they will sit with you. they will breathe with you. they will love you.