You Aren't A Burden To Your F/o's

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you are cared for - treasured - adored, by each and every one of them. they understand that it can be hard to accept, to believe, when every little thing in your life seems to say the opposite.

if you cannot love yourself right now, they will do that for you (in whatever way, shape, or form that will bring you comfort). if you can barely even tolerate yourself, they understand that, too.

they know that you are worth their time, their effort, their energy. no matter what conditions you may or may not have. no matter what help you may or may not need. no matter what.

they will sit with you. they will breathe with you. they will love you.

Please. Please be kind to yourself. Please know that you're important.

Please know that they were wrong when they told you otherwise.

You deserved to be cared for. You deserved to be safe.

Please understand that you are not a burden for existing. Please understand that there is more to life than trying to make yourself as small as possible.

You deserve good things.

You always did.

Having some issues with depression and bad thoughts so I'll write something. Hopefully it helps.

TW: Mentions of depression and su!cidal thoughts.

You're crying in the bathroom since you don't want to wake your f/o. The thoughts have gotten really bad.

You're ugly.

You're stupid.

You're useless.

You're a bother for everyone.

You'll never pass high school.

You'll never get your dream job.

You just want to die.

You just want to stop being alive altogether.

You sob and sniff and you know you're not even a pretty crier like in all those tv shows, movies and animes. You try to be quiet but your f/o opens the door of the bathroom, having heard you and just silently moves over to hold you tightly but gently against their chest. They just let you cry while they rub your hair and back, sometimes also kissing the top of your head softly.

You just cry and cry and they stay with you, comforting you because they know it's what you need. No words. No nothing. Just the feeling that someone for once is seeing you at your weakest and stays with you because they genuinely care. They're not gonna leave like everyone else did.

Your F/O If You're Sensitive To Fireworks: 🎇🎆

• Just to be clear, your f/o completely understands if you have different sensory needs and would never want to make you feel ashamed of that!

• Your f/o would never ever imply that you're overreacting and will immediately see to your comfort.

• On and around firework celebrations your f/o makes sure you eat and sleep well and get plenty of water. They'll even make your favorite food, and snuggle with you in bed.

• As firework time approaches you and your f/o grab some snacks, change into your jammies, and build a small but cozy fort.

• You have noise cancelling headphones to help block as much sound as possible. As well as a couple stim toys on your side of the fort.

• As the sun begins to set and time moves quickly to the appropriate time to set off some fireworks, your f/o pops on one of your favorite movies/shows/videos and crawls into the fort beside you.

• They wrap you up in their body, pull a cozy blanket up to you, and begin leaving soft kisses on your neck and shoulders.

• As the first fireworks of the holiday are set off your body jerks in your f/o's hold. They tighten their grip on you, whispering, "It's okay, my love, it's just fireworks, it's okay."

• As the fireworks continue, they begin to notice you shaking slightly and begin massaging your shoulders, caressing wherever you feel comfortable.

• "It's okay, my love. I'm here..."

• They do their best to keep your attention on what you're watching by making small comments like, "oh that's cool," "what the fuck are we watching," "[insert friend here] would be this character, no questions asked," "that character is cute," and various ways to say to the characters, "you are dumb!!!"

• Your f/o has your tells memorized. They can easily spot when you lie by the slightest shift in tone, the far away look when you dissociate or having flashbacks, and the way your whole body tenses when you're afraid.

• They've picked up on these emotional cues through years of loving you. You two are comfortable, and at home in each other's arms, you fit so well.

• Your f/o, not only doesn't mind when they have to comfort and assure you, but they feel honored that you have allowed yourself to be vulnerable with them.

• As the night ends for the two of you, your f/o puts on a movie/video/show that you've seen 10000 times, and you play soft music in your headphones.

• They guide your head to their chest, and let you rest upon them. Running their fingers through your hair, humming a soft tune, they gently lull you to sleep.

• "Close your eyes, my love, I'll always be there to protect you..."

imagine your f/o finding out you haven't eaten for a good couple hours and angrily making you some food

Your f/o scoops you up in their arms. They don’t hold you too close, just keep you nearby. They want to give you your space.

“My love, I won’t tell you everything will be okay. I cannot promise that, but you know what I can promise?”

You look over at them, a bit confused at their words. You just shrug.

“You will smile again. You will laugh at funny things, and eat yummy food. You’ll see pretty things, and wear nice clothes”

Their voice is oh so sweet and oh so genuine. You can feel their thumb brushing against your arm lightly.

“I can’t promise everything in life will be good, or that things will be okay forever, but I can promise that things will be good again.”

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