WAIT, WAIT, WAIT

WAIT, WAIT, WAIT…

I just realized something. Kojo came to the door just a minute after Lucy entered her apartment. That means Tim and Kojo were probably already there just waiting for her to show up. Somehow that makes that scene soooo much more sweet to me.

"You can choose to see that tattoo as your greatest failure. But I see it as proof that you're a survivor. It wasn't your day of death, Officer Chen. It was the first day, of the rest of your life. And no one can take that away from you."

Thoughts on Nolan as a TO

I saw that this prompt was given to several other people as well, so check out their thoughts, too.

Firstly, he’s a rookie TO. He’s going to make mistakes because he hasn’t actually been a cop for a long time. He makes plenty of mistakes. Is he learning from them? Hopefully, but I don’t feel like we’ve seen a lot of progress in that direction.

Secondly, Nolan has been portrayed as a bit of a bumbling (but kind with good intentions) idiot for a good part of the show. So did anyone expect him to be any better once he was a TO? 🙂‍↔️🫤 Meh. I don’t think so.

Thirdly, he’s in the role to make the title of the show relevant to the story. Since he is the titular character, it is consistent that he was be a part of the ‘rookie’ role.

Lastly, I would like to see it blow up in his face a little bit more when he screws things up. Other than extending his rookie year (and much of that again was a tool to keep a rookie in the show for the title of the show), he’s faced very few consequences for any of his blunders. Consequences would push for further development and growth. So I hope we see something like that in the future.

Thanks for asking!

I wonder if they’re going to use any hospital video footage to figure things out.

I work in the hospital and have had the sad experience of reviewing footage with the police in the past when a patient’s mom threatened my life.

That could be part of the solid evidence they need to convict Monica. I know they don’t have cameras everywhere, but they often do in hallways…

What does this shake of his head mean to you?

Is he regretting all of his choices and reeling with the aftermath of them?

Is is disappointed that Lucy didn’t follow Kojo around the corner as he secretly hoped she would?

Is he coming to grips with the fact that he can’t come any closer and still respect her boundaries? That he’s actually understanding how much he’s lost?

I’ve watched this scene many times now, and I’ve flipped my opinion just as many times. Perhaps it’s a combination of all of them. But he’s clearly dealing with his emotions here. You can almost watch the walls he’s building around them go up.

I’d love to hear your thoughts.

Let me gush over that last scene for a bit because there was something magical in the way it was filmed and acted… The cinematography… with Kojo sitting behind the door waiting for Lucy, pretty much the same way he did after he destroyed her apartment and she came home - which, incidentally, was also the first time Tim set foot in her place… With the nod to the history these two share in this hallway : Tim's moment of clarity after their practice kiss, the time where they almost crossed that line after Vegas, that breakup scene (that technically wasn't a breakup but felt like one)… Only now, they are further apart than they have ever been, not even standing in the same hallway, not even facing one another. Separated by walls - literally and metaphorically… And yet, the song in the background gives a more hopeful tone to this… "All this trouble's only gonna last for a while".

And the emotions… The way Lucy lit up when she saw Kojo was so heartwarming… Before it slowly became heartbreaking when her tears feel down… It was painful in an almost cathartic way. If I'm not mistaken, we haven't seen her really cry since that fateful night. And Tim's face… It was like he finally let himself feel all those emotions he has tried to contain and pretend weren't there ever since. There have been some glimpses here and there but I could truly see beyond his wall here. There was pain, there was regret… and I'd like to think that he was starting to comprehend what he has done. Which would be a fitting parallel to his epiphany after that kiss if this is indeed what happened. And then, there's the gift… It was perfect because it came from him. Up until his conversion with Aaron, he wasn't planning on doing anything to mark Lucy's birthday, aware of how this could make things worse and hurt her… But deep down, he knew he couldn't not do anything either. He couldn't let her think he didn't even care, not after all the hurt he has already caused her. So in the end, sending Kojo was perfect. To me, what made this so special was how symbolic this was. This felt like a subtle reminder of their past, of their bond… of what made them them, while respecting her boundaries. This gift wasn't about him or trying to win her back or anything of the sort. This was all about Lucy and letting her know that she is loved.