It's Not Always Easy To Stay Strong For Everyone Else .

It's not always easy to stay strong for everyone else .

I do imagine things can get very overwhelming , there is a lot of hidden burden , hidden guilt , which cannot be outwardly expressed . Having to be strong , especially when one is taken as a reference , a role model , someone others look up to . It is much harder to allow oneself if only to show an ounce of fear , reluctance or sadness . But the same cannot be said behind closed doors

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I really wanted to draw it from this angle for some reason . . but obviously , i am suffering

Cold night 🌧️

Redrawing that one scene from the movie , but he ends up looking at you 🤨

I woke up from a nap and chose violence

Looks like pain is saying "what's the tea sis" 💀

⠀⠀⠀about the Mugen train movie , there is one detail that I couldn't stop thinking of . you know that part when they get into the main characters' subconscious ? Tanjiro's subconscious is extremely clear and peaceful , but Rengoku's was endless fire and unbreathable air , as well as a covered sky . so i immediately thought , there is just so much that he is repressing . as fiery , passionate and kind he may seem on the outside , i think that there is a lot of clash between what he wants to be / show and how he feels ; as much as he doesn't want to ,

i'm pretty sure that the abuse of his father has affected him deeply . perhaps is it that he also possesses the same capacity to anger and be harsh with his words , but refuses to act as such , and instead chooses a different front .

but that inevitably creates inner turmoil since there is conflict . the inability to reconcile how he feels with what he is , following duty instead of heart ; and the fact that there is so much at stake and so much out of his control . especially that he is still desperately searching for his father's approval , which never truly comes .

there is so much that he has to protect , so much that his own heart comes last . and all the fire surrounding him is inevitably burning him inside .

i just thought it was a very interesting detail and i really wanted to comment on that . .

fire can be a good thing , it is warm and passionate ; but fire burns too . and his subconscious just seemed to be very far from tranquil . and i can only imagine that if rengoku were to truly snap , it wouldn't be pretty . he may even mirror his father's actions and words , and that , he would absolutely hate himself for .

a thing to explore . . 👁️

it's got my brain to think about such scenarios . . 🤨