Memories

Memories

Realizing that he has very slim chance of making it back, he says over the comms:

“Tell them I love them”

As soon as those words leave his lips, his jet disappears from the radar.

At his funeral, you are standing next to your kids, watching people come and go from his casket.

You hear someone clear their throat behind you, making you turn around.

It's Rooster.

Benjamin guides his siblings further away, giving you and him some privacy.

You give him a small smile.

He gives you a flash drive, you take it, looking up at Bradley.

“It's recording from the mission”

You nod, looking at the small drive in your hands.

“I know it doesn't bring him back but thought you still might want it”

“Thank you”

Bradley nods, squeezing your arm and walking away.

Later when you are home and the kids are in their rooms already for the night, you quietly go up the stairs to your bedroom.

Your bedroom.

Not his and yours like it should be.

Yours.

The thought alone breaks your heart all over again as if it hasn't been broken enough already.

Somehow you get the willpower to step over the threshold of the room. Shutting the door behind you, you flip on the small light on top of the drawer left of you.

Taking in the room, tears start running down your cheeks again.

Alarm clock beeping in the morning, arm reaching over you to make the sound to stop. A kiss placed on your temple.

“Sorry, honey”

You crack open one eye, looking at your husband getting up from the bed, going around the room, looking for his clothes. You hear the shower starting to run before sleep overtakes you. A while later, you feel light kisses placed all over your face.

“Sweetheart, you gotta get up”

“Five more minutes” you say and turn around in bed.

Jake's having none of that, pulling the covers down, attacking you with kisses.

You scream and laugh, trying to get away from his kiss attack.

“Are you gonna get up now?”

“Fine, fine, I'll get up”

Jake smirks as you lift yourself up from the bed, wandering down to the en-suite bathroom.

By the time you are done getting ready for the day, Jake has disappeared from the room. Stepping into the hallway, you hear laughter and delighted screams coming down from the kitchen.

Heading towards the sounds, you stop at the kitchen door, taking in the sight before you. Benjamin is making himself cereal, Cade is eating pieces of toast, Eden is being held upside down by Jake.

You smile, walking into the kitchen.

You ruffle Cade's hair as you go past him, knowing how much it irritates him. Benjamin kisses your cheek as you walk by him.

You grab two mugs from the drying rack, pouring coffee into them. Taking a sip from your mug, you go over to Jake and Eden, giving the other mug to him, which he gratefully takes, you tickle Eden's belly. She giggles, continuing to munch on her toast.

Soon you are all in the hallway, more or less good to go.

Jake says bye to the kids first, then to you with a kiss to your lips.

All five of you manage to get out of the front door, Jake in his car, you and the kids in yours.

Jake backs out of the driveway first, waving at you before driving off. You follow, turning your car in a different direction to get the kids to school on time.

After you've dropped them off, you go run some errands.

After the drive home, you place down the groceries on the counter.

You've put the last food in the fridge when your phone buzzes in your back pocket. Fishing it out, you press the green button.

“Hello?”

You go over the bed, grabbing your laptop from the side table. Sitting on the bed, you plug in the flash drive and press play.

Listening to the recording, listening to his voice, makes your heart ache, ultimately cracking it in half when you hear his last words before his comms crackle and go dead. You hear the others begging for him to answer, to make any sound at all.

They get nothing.

You hear the command to land followed with multiple voices protesting, but the voice again commands them to land.

The recording goes on for a while after the command but no one is saying anything.

You stop the recording.

Unplugging the drive, you place it and the laptop down on the side table.

His last words echo over and over again in your mind.

“Tell them I love them”

“Tell them I love them”

“Tell them I love them”

You cried yourself to sleep that night and countless nights after that, dreams filled with memories of him. Thinking about how you never even had a chance to say goodbye,

None of you did get that chance.

The first bit written in italics is what happened during the funeral (read kisses on fingertips) and the second part in italics is what happened before the call, all the way til the call comes to answering it.

This is like a prequel/sequel/continuation to "Kisses on fingertips" because there are things happening before, during and after it, I think.

Benjamin is 17 years old, Cade 14 years old and Eden is 6 years old when they lost their dad.

If anything is unclear, just ask and I'll try my best to explain.

You son of an bitch!

"Logan, you son of an bitch!" You yell.

"Why you calling me that for?"

"You freaking drank my coffee!"

"So?"

"It was mine!" You state.

Logan just shrugs his shoulders, walking off. You grab his arm and make him turn around.

"Make me a new pot of coffee, then we're even"

"Make it yourself, I have students to teach"

"You motherfucker!"

Then Professor X wheels in.

"Language, my darling Y/N"

You shoot him a very angry glare. He wheels to the coffee machine, putting it on.

"Logan, get to your classes, we'll deal with this later"

You turn around angrily.

"Why'd you let him go?"

Because now isn't the time to solve this fight"

"It was the perfect time, that bastard drank my coffee!"

"Now, don't you have classes to attend to?"

"Shit!"

You turn on your heels and run off. You run down the corridors, until reaching your class room. You sigh, seeing none of the students on their respective seats yet. Well at least you aren't the only one late for class. You wait for good ten minutes until the students pile in.

"I'm going to ignore the fact that you're late, since I'm being nice, but as a warning someone again drank my coffee, so I might be little cranky today"

Soon you dismiss the students, they leave the room to go to their next classes. You step out of your class room, seeing Logan talk with Storm in the hallway.

"Logan!"

"Uh-oh, did you drink her coffee again?"

Storm asks.

"Might have"

Storm sighs and walks away. She knows exactly what is coming.

"You once again drank my coffee"

"Yeah, so?"

"Why do you do it only when I make coffee?"

"Because I can"

You let your powers swirl out your finger tips. Logan lets his claws come out. Then you hear a voice in your minds, it's Professor, he's asking you to come to his office. You reluctantly walk towards his office, Logan following you. You reach the room, pushing the door open and stepping in.

"Sit down"

You two do as he says.

"Alright, now, you seriously need to stop this bickering"

"But.." You say.

"But.." Logan says.

"No buts, I'm serious"

"Now apologize to each other and you may leave"

Logan stands up, trying to leave the room.

"Logan" Professor says.

"Alright, I'm sorry I drank your damn coffee!"

"Apology accepted and I'm sorry as well for calling you names"

You get up and leave the room with Logan.

As soon as you're out of the door, you say:

"Though you deserved being called names" You grin at him.

"Haha, real funny, shorty"

"I'm not short!"

And there you two go again bickering like a married couple. You and Logan walk down the corridor, hurling playful insults to each other. Professor X watches your receding backs, smiling to himself.

Not broken

"Don't come any closer, please!"

"Y/N.."

You raise your hand and stop him from coming any closer to you. You struggle to keep him away from you, hand shaking by the strain of using your powers.

"Just stay away, I can't control this"

At the same time your mind is screaming at him to help you. He hears your thoughts loud and clear.

"Y/N, let me come closer, I can and will do anything to help you"

"N-no, I'm dangerous"

"Only when you want to be"

You stare at him, still holding your hand towards him. You look down, then lower your hand, so that he can come closer. He walks himself closer until he's right in front of you.  He then proceeds to grab your chin gently, making you look up to his brilliantly blue eyes. You collapse on your knees, he kneels and moves his arms around you.

"Why, why do you keep doing this? I'm broken"

"That is the exact reason why, because you're not broken"

You look up at Charles with teary eyes.

"You really mean that?"

"With every fiber of my being"

He gently guides you to stand as well as standing up himself. He then grabs your hand and puts his other hand on your lower back. You two walk down the path to the mansion.

He promised you one thing that day and that promise is being fulfilled every single day, that he would help you. And so far he has done a remarkably good job. With him by your side you can take everything life decides to throw at you.

My masterlist for my blogs mcavoy-girl and callsignmayhem

mcavoy-girl:

Loving and losing Dean Winchester x female reader

We'll be okay Dean Winchester x female reader

Stay with me Dean Winchester x female reader

Till we're grey and old Charles Xavier x female reader

Just like you Charles Xavier x female reader, Erik Lehnsherr x female reader

You son of an bitch Logan Howlett x female reader

Not broken Charles Xavier x female reader

Let me help you Charles Xavier x female reader, mentions of needles, alcohol and drugs used as medicine.

The final act of kindness/I gave them their happiness Robbie Turner x female reader from Atonement

Live without shame Robbie Turner x female reader from Atonement

Come back to me Robbie Turner x female reader from Atonement

The life you lived Robbie Turner x female reader from Atonement

callsignmayhem:

Kisses on fingertips Jake Seresin x female reader

Memories prequel/sequel/continuation to Kisses on fingertips, Jake Seresin x female reader

The letter he left you (kisses on fingertips-universe) Jake Seresin x female reader

Pictures (kisses on fingertips-universe) not a fic but pictures I made for the story

Flyboy and his darlings Jake Seresin x female reader

Others:

List of characters we need more fanfiction written about

Also this song which I think somehow fits both "kisses on fingertips and "memories" (just my opinion)

I might edit my fics every now and then

Just like you

"Charles!" You yell.

"What the hell is he doing!" Someone yells.

You run towards the place where he jumped off the ship and on the water to save that stranger on the water. You peek on the water, trying to see them. You yell someone to shine light on the water.

Soon the light hits them, you order someone to go and get them.

Soon Charles and the mystery man are on the ship.

"Charles, what the hell!"

"I couldn't let him drown"

You sigh, putting your fingers against your nose. Then you shake your head and drag the both men towards your ship cabin.

"Sit down" You could care less that they're dripping wet.

"Now, who are you?" You ask the mystery man.

"I'm Erik Lehnsherr"

"Alright, nice to meet you"

"But what the hell we're you doing, trying to stop that submarine?"

"It had someone.. from my past inside it"

"Ah, I see and you thought your metal controlling powers could stop that submarine?"

"Well, yes"

"You know you can tell us anything you want to, we can be trusted"

"How so?"

"I also am just like you"

"Wait you're a mutant as well?"

"Yes, and as Charles surely assured you already, you're not alone"

Erik lets out relieved laugh.