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This monologue is really something else. His voice and acting are incredible. This adaptation is also wayyy more sexual than i thought a 1800s Play could be.
One of the most beautiful passages in theatre history...fight me!
“I love you, I need you, I want you. I go to sleep thinking about you and wake up with your voice winding through my head, I look at you and I can’t focus, the whole world shimmers, I’m ashamed, I’m angry, I’m in love, I’m mad, I’m happy, I’m dead, I’m alive, I’m stupid, I’m tongue-tied."
- Cyrano de Bergerac adapted by Martin Crimp
Most underrated movies of the last decade
1. Filth (2013)
One of the greatest movies of the last decade, maybe McAvoy's best performance ever: A tragic, funny, absolutely unapologetic movie about the downfall of a scottish police officer.
2. Swiss Army Man (2016)
I promise that you have never seen a movie like this before. It is absolutely strange, macabre and loaded with dark humor: a man stranded on a deserted island tries to keep his sanity by talking to a corpse (Daniel Radcliffe).
3. Rush (2013)
Rush is a 2013 biographical sports film centred on rivalry between two Formula One drivers, the British James Hunt and the Austrian Niki Lauda during the 1976 Formula 1 motor-racing season. One of the best Sport Dramas out there.
4. Mother! (2017)
I know some people dislike this movie but I think it is one of Aronosfky's masterpieces. A political, philosphical and brutal allegory of the destruction of our planet brilliantly acted by Jennifer Lawrence.
5. The Flowers of War (2011)
Watching this movie was one of the most eye-opening experiences for me: An American (Christian Bale) tries to protect a group of Chinese students and prostitutes from Japanese soldiers in 1937 Nanjing.
6. Sheperds and Butchers (2016)
A different kind of "true crime story": A lawyer takes on the murder case of a prison guard traumatized by the executions he took part in.
7. Slow West (2015)
The cinematography in this is beautiful: A bounty hunter keeps his true motive a secret from the naive Scottish teenager he's offered to serve as bodyguard and guide while the youth searches for his beloved in 1800s Colorado.
8. Enemy (2013)
This movie will mess with your head: A college Professor (Jake Gyllenhaal) discovers a man who looks and talks exactly like him. A strange tale of what is true and what is fictional begins to unravel.
9. La grande bellezza (2013)
This arthouse movie is for the ones who look for deep conversations, philosopical questions and the horrors and beauties of everyday life. A slow paced and hugely moving tale about modern italy.
10. The Lighthouse (2019)
Everything about this movie is top notch: the acting, the story, the visuals. A modern masterpiece that has the chance of becoming a classic: Two lighthouse keepers are stranded on an island as they slowly dive into insanity.
The ONLY good thing about dark phoenix was Micheal fassbender in a tight black long sleeve shirt with the sleeves rolled up
Some matching pfp I spent way too much time on:
inspired by a conversation on instagram! had far too much fun with this 💀
Just because someone stumbles, loses their way, does not mean they are lost forever
Charles Xavier, Days of Future Past
The life you lived
You watch the officers take him away, tears streaming down your cheeks.
You then turn around and walk away. Your mother follows you inside the house. She grabs your arm, making you turn around.
"How could you?" You ask.
"I had to.."
"No, you didn't have to!" You interrupted her.
"I love him, more than you ever could think!"
"No, you don't, you just think you do"
You let out a sigh, kneeling down to take off your heels. You straighten up again, looking straight at your mother with glistening eyes.
Then you walk away to your room, this time your mother doesn't follow you. She just watches you go.
5 years later, the war has started. You're nurse at hospital, which is located on the country side. You just needed to get as far as you could get from your family, from your old life, from your past.
You are putting the supplies away at the storage room, when nurse running by says that there are soldiers coming. You run out of the room, following her, rounding the corners until you reach the lobby, which is swarmed with soldiers and nurses. You get right to helping the soldiers as best as you can. Then you are asked to tend to one specific soldier. They say he's asking you, you hurry towards the room, where the injured soldiers are located in.
You see the area secluded from the other area with plain light brown curtains. You move the curtains, slipping inside. You turn around, seeing him lying on the bed. You stare at him, he looks at you.
"Robbie" You whisper.
"Y/N" He whispers back.
You walk to his bedside, sitting down. He grasps your hand, squeezing it gently. You let your eyes check him out for any injuries. Only one you can see is that he has his arm bandaged. You put your lips against his, kissing him. He puts his arm around your shoulders, pulling you closer. You break the kiss, putting your foreheads together.
"You have to back to the battlefront, don't you?"
"I don't know, but I hope not"
You nod.
"Can you walk?"
"Yes"
"Then follow me"
He gets up and follows you.
"Now, we'll go and ask someone if you have to go back"
He nods.
"Hey, sir, we have a question for you!" You call out to the higher rank soldier.
"Yes, ma'am?"
"I'd like to know if he has to back to the battlefront?"
"I'm afraid so, we need every single man we can get"
"Alright, thank you, sir"
He raises his hat for you, walking away.
You turn to Robbie, sad look on your face.
He pulls you in for a hug, whispering in you ear:
"Marry me?"
You grab his hand, going to find a church. Soon you're inside the church, holding hands, standing in front of the priest. Robbie's two soldier friends, Nettle and Mace are there as witnesses.
"Now I pronounce you husband and wife, you may kiss the bride"
Robbie pulls you closer to him, pressing his lips to yours.
*small timeskip*
You're at the trailway station, saying goodbye to Robbie.
"Come back to me" You whisper in his ear. He says nothing, just kisses you from the train window.
You step down to the ground, holding his hand until it slips from your grasp. You see the train go further and further away, watching it go until it has disappeared from sight.
*another timeskip*
You're at a small house in the village you spent your time with Robbie until he had to leave to go back to the war.
You stand on the balcony, staring at the sea, you haven't heard from him from a long time.
But you know that he'll come back. You go back inside, seeing the higher rank soldier through the window you encountered earlier at the hospital. He's holding a letter, you already know what it reads. You open your front door, collapsing down to your knees, as the notifier approaches you.
"I'm sorry, ma'am, but your husband has died of septicaemia"
You thank him in whisper, he kneels in front of you, putting the letter in your palm, shutting your hand around it. Then he kisses your head, standing up and leaving. You stay on your knees on the ground. Then you hear small footsteps coming towards you.
"Mommy, where's daddy?"
You look up at your and Robbie's children with glistening eyes.
"Daddy isn't coming back"
Your children walk to you, wrapping their small arms around you.
You let out a small cry, whispering:
"Daddy is never coming back"
You shut your eyes, memories flashing through your mind. The day you first met him, the happiest moments of your life with him and last time you ever saw him.
You whisper into the air:
"If you must die, die knowing that your life was my life's best part"
Weeks later after you have buried him, you receive a small package in the mail.
You open it, seeing Robbie's few belongings, including the stack of letters and photos, cigarettes and a lighter. And of course his wedding ring.
You let single tear roll down your cheek, dropping down on the letter on top. It was never delivered to you. You read the text in it.
"I'm coming back to you"
Except he never did.
You're lying on your bed, surrounded by your children and grandchildren, your eldest child is holding your hand.
"Mom, it's okay, go meet dad, you deserve it" The eldest one says, smiling at you.
You smile at them, looking at every and each one of them. You then look up and mouth:
"I'm coming to you, my love"
You shut your eyes and let out your last breath on Earth. Then you open your eyes, letting out your first breath in Heaven, standing inside the house, you smile. You then look around the small house, it's just like you remembered it. Even the knife Robbie did leave on the table is there just like the day he left to go back to the war. You open the balcony door, stepping out. You breathe in the sea air. You lower your gaze to the beach, seeing him standing near the waterline. You smile, running down the balcony stairs.
You come to a stop right in front of him.
"Hello, my love" Robbie says as he turns around to face you. He pulls you into a hug, vowing to himself that he'll never ever let go again.
You pull back, looking up at his dazzling blue eyes.
"I've missed you so, so much"
"I know, love, I know, I've missed you too"
He pulls you against his chest, wrapping his arms around you, watching the sunset together, for the first time but certainly not the last time in forever.
The end.
Come back to me
You're standing in your small cottage, all alone with your newborn baby in your arms, gently swaying back and forth, lulling the baby to sleep. You look out of the window to the raging sea. The sea perfectly reflects how you're feeling on the inside. You look down at the child in your arms, you softly lie him down into his crib. Then you open the balcony door, stepping outside. The rain quickly soaks through your blue cotton dress. Then you hear a knock on the front door, you go in, shutting the other door behind you. You open the front door, dripping wet.
"Yes?"
"Are you Y/N Turner?"
"I am"
"Then I believe this belongs to you" The courier says, giving you a small package.
Then he turns and leaves. You turn the package around, you see handwriting on it. You shut the door, walking to the table, sitting down. You read the text on the package.
It simply reads "goodbye, my love"
You let out a cry, realizing that you'll never see him again.
You gently open it, seeings his wedding ring on top of his other belongings.
You take the ring and turn it around in your fingers. Then you get up, retrieving a necklace from your drawer. You slip the ring on it, putting the chain around your neck. You sit back down going through the remainings he left.
"Oh god" You whisper.
You move the lighter and cigarettes, seeing his uniform jacket under them. You grab it and pull it on. It still faintly smells like him, you bury your face into your hands. Then you feel a hand on your shoulder.
You turn your head towards the hand.
Robbie is smiling at you. He doesn't say anything, just kisses your head,checking on your child on his way out and then walks through the balcony door. You follow him but by the time, you're outside, Robbie is already on the beach. He turns around and you hear his words in the wind.
"I'll come back to you one day and this I'll promise to you"
The wind tousles up your hair, tears streaming steadily down your cheeks as you watch him go until he fades from view. And he kept his promise, he came back to you again, it just took some time. You got your happy ending, after all the obstacles you had to go through, together and alone.
The end.
Live without shame
"Hello, Grace" You say to Robbie's mother. You are standing at the stairs of her small house, at Robbie's childhood home, holding your children's hands.
"Come on in, darlings"
You nod, letting go of your children's hands, they cautiously go inside.
"This was your daddy's home" You say with slight break in your voice. Grace puts her hand on your shoulder.
"Go make things right with your family, I'll look after them" She whispers in your ear.
You place your hand on top of hers, squeezing it gratefully.
Then you kiss your children's heads as goodbye.
You walk to the door, putting your hand on handle. You turn towards Grace, saying that you'll be back. She promises you to look after them as long as you need. You nod and leave the house. You walk the short distance from the small house to mansion.
You then pull the bell, Cecilia comes and opens the door.
"Cee"
"Y/N?"
"May.. May I come in?"
She steps aside to let you in. You look sadly around the lobby, looking towards the library. Cee squeezes your hand in comforting manner.
"Where's mother and Leon?"
"In the drawing room"
You walk slowly towards it, hesitating to open the door.
"I'll be there the whole time" Cee whispers. You and Cee have kept in touch during these five years, but you swore that you wouldn't contact any other member of your family, especially not Briony. But now has come the time to do that, as you promised Robbie that you would make things right with your family. You open the door, stepping in.
Leon and your mother look up.
"Hello"
"Hello" Leon says.
"What are you doing here?" Your mother asks.
"I.. I promised him that I would come and make things right between us"
"Well, then, sit down"
Hours later, you have spoken everything through, your family met your children and you're preparing to leave.
"Darlings, remember to behave, okay?
Mommy loves you very, very much"
You kiss their heads once again. Then you leave the mansion. You walk to the tree which has gravestone under it.
"Hello, my love" You say while crouching down to touch the stone. You leave wild flowers on top of the grave. Then you turn and leave.
Days later, you're lying among people at Balham tube station. Then you see the lights flickering and hear the thunderous roar of water.
You are seen gracefully floating through the water, hair fantailed around your head. Then the scene fades to black and to older Briony.
"In the end they had their happiness"
Now there are two gravestones side by side under the tree at Tallis grounds. The leaves of the tree move in the wind, the wind whispering the story of two lovers who were at last reunited.
The final act of kindness/I gave them their happiness
Tired voice can be heard saying: "I never made that journey to Balham. So the scene in which I confess to them is invented, imagined."
"And, in fact, could have never happened because Robbie Turner died of septicemia at Bray Dunes on the first of June, 1940, the last day of evacuation"
Months later, you're lying amongst people at Balham tube station. Then you see the lights flickering and hear the thunderous roar of water. The water drowns everything under it.
"And I was never able to put things right with my sister, Y/N, because she was killed on 15th of October, 1940, by the bomb that destroyed the gas and water mains above the Balham tube station"
You are seen gracefully floating through the water, hair fantailed around your head. Then the scene fades to black and to older Briony.
"So my sister and Robbie never had the time together they both longed for and deserved, which, ever since I've always felt like I prevented. But what sense of hope or satisfaction could reader derive from an ending like that? So, in the book, I wanted to give Robbie and Y/N what they lost out on in life. I'd like to think this wasn't weakness or evasion, but a final act of kindness"
She thinks for a moment.
"I gave them their happiness"
Robbie and Y/N crunch across the pebbles and splash gleefully through the waves, below the towering white cliffs on their way back to their white clapboard cottage.
The end.
Let me help you
"Charles?"
You get no response.
"Charles?" You try again.
This time you hear shuffling coming from the room. The door cracks open, not much but at least it's open.
"What"
"I brought you something to eat"
He sighs, letting you come in. The room is a mess, which is putting it slightly. You gently move some papers, placing the tray on the desk. You then turn to Charles who is standing by the window.
"May I organize a bit?"
He just shrugs his shoulders. You take it as yes. You start with his desk, grabbing the papers and sorting them into piles. Then you grab photo frames and such up from the floor, putting them into their respective places on the shelf that covers the whole wall. You notice that he's still by the window, and hasn't touched the food you brought. You sigh, continuing the organizing. Then you hear a bottle being twisted open, seeing him pour a generous amount of alcohol into his glass. You just turn your head away, but soon turn it back towards him. You see the needle sink into his arm, seeing him inject the drug into his bloodstream.
He looks at you with eyes full of hatred towards himself, knowing you dislike that he uses the drug and neglects himself. You love him, whether he has the ability to walk or not. You have many times asked him if it's worth it, but never getting an answer. This time you decide to ask Charles something.
"May I try something?"
He looks at you, raising his eyebrow.
"I could help you walk, if you'd like?"
"How?"
"Stop taking the drug and I'll show you"
Couple of days pass and then Charles rolls into your room, he looks so vulnerable like a child. He fidgets on the wheelchair.
You get up from the bed you were sitting on, walking to him and offering your hand to Charles. He hesitates but nevertheless grabs it. You pull him up, he lies against you. You let your powers come out. Your powers swirl out from the tips of your fingers. Straight into his spine, you feel his tears wet your shoulder. You pull your hand back.
"How does it feel?"
"Amazing" Charles says, eyes glossy.
"I'm glad that I could help"
"You've done more than just helped, you've given me will to live back again"
You smile and he hugs you. You hug him back.
*small timeskip*
The hallways are filled with students who are trying to get to their classes. You and Charles are watching the bustle. Hand in hand, standing side by side. And the most important thing is that Charles is smiling once again. You can't help but smile at that, squeezing his hand. He looks at you, absolutely beaming. The scene moves outside through the window, showing kids playing on the outside. The sun is shining and everything is going to be okay. In fact, everything already is okay.
A/N: I'm pretty sure that something similar has been already written.
Not broken
"Don't come any closer, please!"
"Y/N.."
You raise your hand and stop him from coming any closer to you. You struggle to keep him away from you, hand shaking by the strain of using your powers.
"Just stay away, I can't control this"
At the same time your mind is screaming at him to help you. He hears your thoughts loud and clear.
"Y/N, let me come closer, I can and will do anything to help you"
"N-no, I'm dangerous"
"Only when you want to be"
You stare at him, still holding your hand towards him. You look down, then lower your hand, so that he can come closer. He walks himself closer until he's right in front of you. He then proceeds to grab your chin gently, making you look up to his brilliantly blue eyes. You collapse on your knees, he kneels and moves his arms around you.
"Why, why do you keep doing this? I'm broken"
"That is the exact reason why, because you're not broken"
You look up at Charles with teary eyes.
"You really mean that?"
"With every fiber of my being"
He gently guides you to stand as well as standing up himself. He then grabs your hand and puts his other hand on your lower back. You two walk down the path to the mansion.
He promised you one thing that day and that promise is being fulfilled every single day, that he would help you. And so far he has done a remarkably good job. With him by your side you can take everything life decides to throw at you.
You son of an bitch!
"Logan, you son of an bitch!" You yell.
"Why you calling me that for?"
"You freaking drank my coffee!"
"So?"
"It was mine!" You state.
Logan just shrugs his shoulders, walking off. You grab his arm and make him turn around.
"Make me a new pot of coffee, then we're even"
"Make it yourself, I have students to teach"
"You motherfucker!"
Then Professor X wheels in.
"Language, my darling Y/N"
You shoot him a very angry glare. He wheels to the coffee machine, putting it on.
"Logan, get to your classes, we'll deal with this later"
You turn around angrily.
"Why'd you let him go?"
Because now isn't the time to solve this fight"
"It was the perfect time, that bastard drank my coffee!"
"Now, don't you have classes to attend to?"
"Shit!"
You turn on your heels and run off. You run down the corridors, until reaching your class room. You sigh, seeing none of the students on their respective seats yet. Well at least you aren't the only one late for class. You wait for good ten minutes until the students pile in.
"I'm going to ignore the fact that you're late, since I'm being nice, but as a warning someone again drank my coffee, so I might be little cranky today"
Soon you dismiss the students, they leave the room to go to their next classes. You step out of your class room, seeing Logan talk with Storm in the hallway.
"Logan!"
"Uh-oh, did you drink her coffee again?"
Storm asks.
"Might have"
Storm sighs and walks away. She knows exactly what is coming.
"You once again drank my coffee"
"Yeah, so?"
"Why do you do it only when I make coffee?"
"Because I can"
You let your powers swirl out your finger tips. Logan lets his claws come out. Then you hear a voice in your minds, it's Professor, he's asking you to come to his office. You reluctantly walk towards his office, Logan following you. You reach the room, pushing the door open and stepping in.
"Sit down"
You two do as he says.
"Alright, now, you seriously need to stop this bickering"
"But.." You say.
"But.." Logan says.
"No buts, I'm serious"
"Now apologize to each other and you may leave"
Logan stands up, trying to leave the room.
"Logan" Professor says.
"Alright, I'm sorry I drank your damn coffee!"
"Apology accepted and I'm sorry as well for calling you names"
You get up and leave the room with Logan.
As soon as you're out of the door, you say:
"Though you deserved being called names" You grin at him.
"Haha, real funny, shorty"
"I'm not short!"
And there you two go again bickering like a married couple. You and Logan walk down the corridor, hurling playful insults to each other. Professor X watches your receding backs, smiling to himself.
Till we're grey and old
"Charles?"
You walk around the corner, seeing nobody on the corridor yet you hear his voice in your head giving you orders where to go. You follow the instructions and they lead you to the grass fields of the mansion. You look around but don't see Charles.
"Charles?" You call out once again. You sense someone behind you. He turns you around, looking dazzling in his slacks and dress shirt, which is tucked into his slacks.
"Hello, love"
He steps behind you, wrapping his arms around your waist. Charles puts his chin on your shoulder, looking towards the sunset. You on the other hand look at him, wondering why he suddenly is acting weird.
"Charles, is everything okay?"
"Everything's perfect"
He starts fidgeting with the necklace, with two white diamonds and one green diamond, which he gave you last year as an anniversary gift.
Then you feel his hands leave your waist. You turn around and see him down on one knee, holding an open box, which has a simple and beautiful ring in it.
"I prepared a speech for this, but.. I'd rather speak from my heart"
"Y/N, the first time I laid my eyes on you, I knew that I had found the one, the one I want to spend my life with, so will you marry me?"
"Yes, yes" You nod as he slides the ring on your finger. He stands up and kisses you passionately. You kiss him back just as passionately.
You break the kiss in desperate need of oxygen. You put your foreheads together.
"Till we're grey and old?"
"Till we're grey and old"
Author's note: I don't know if anyone else has used the last lines (till we're grey and old), probably have but I took them from James Arthur's song called Say you won't let go.
My masterlist for my blogs mcavoy-girl and callsignmayhem
mcavoy-girl:
Loving and losing Dean Winchester x female reader
We'll be okay Dean Winchester x female reader
Stay with me Dean Winchester x female reader
Till we're grey and old Charles Xavier x female reader
Just like you Charles Xavier x female reader, Erik Lehnsherr x female reader
You son of an bitch Logan Howlett x female reader
Not broken Charles Xavier x female reader
Let me help you Charles Xavier x female reader, mentions of needles, alcohol and drugs used as medicine.
The final act of kindness/I gave them their happiness Robbie Turner x female reader from Atonement
Live without shame Robbie Turner x female reader from Atonement
Come back to me Robbie Turner x female reader from Atonement
The life you lived Robbie Turner x female reader from Atonement
callsignmayhem:
Kisses on fingertips Jake Seresin x female reader
Memories prequel/sequel/continuation to Kisses on fingertips, Jake Seresin x female reader
The letter he left you (kisses on fingertips-universe) Jake Seresin x female reader
Pictures (kisses on fingertips-universe) not a fic but pictures I made for the story
Flyboy and his darlings Jake Seresin x female reader
Others:
List of characters we need more fanfiction written about
Also this song which I think somehow fits both "kisses on fingertips and "memories" (just my opinion)
I might edit my fics every now and then
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Reddie
Richie Tozier × Eddie Kaspbrak
"If we had five more minutes"
“We’re born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we’re not alone.” -Orson Welles
