"I Am A Shadow, The True Self!" Twisted Wonderland X Persona!

"I am a shadow, the true self!" Twisted Wonderland x Persona!

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Hi! So, I reblogged it a first time with my input in the tags but I kept thinking about this headcanon and there's not enough tags for me to fully go on about it. Allow me to hijack your post to tell you about what I know as an ADHD moron (of course it won't be all ADHD experiences since I have the fun molotov cocktail of ADHD+Autism), and how it does fit Jamil.

First allow me to rewrite what I put in the tags :

His global hyperactivity can stem from his job as bodyguard/retainer needing him to be hyper vigilant 24/7, but it's also possible that he's just like that. Contrary to popular belief, hyperactive people can appear calm on a regular basis (like me) but it'll show in tiny things like stims or simply always doing something like chores or homeworks. Jamil's physical hyperactivity seems to show, as you stated, in him being unable to keep in place when in a rush of adrenaline (so in a fight), or his being incapable to just rest by always having to do something (like how he does in chap6 despite being away from Kalim).

For his mental hyperactivity, Jamil ALWAYS over calculates/gets lost in thoughts/mumbles about whatever catches his attention. Being unable to shut one's thoughts is a good sign of ADHD. Yes it means we can be better at pattern recognizing (and so we can be very foreseeing thanks to this, right Jamil?) but it also means we can get stuck in the thinking part and never go on the acting part (once more something Leona calls Jamil out for in chap6)

ADHD also tends to mess up one's notion of time. Most people know that someone with ADHD tends to forget to keep track of time and thus is often late to everything, but something that can happen when you mix ADHD with anxiety is an hypervigilence to time. For example, I'm always ready hours in advance and the one to remind everybody that it's time to get going because we're gonna be late otherwise. Likewise, Jamil is the one to always remind Kalim about his timetables and his appointments.

Jamil's hyperfixation seems to be food, according to the 4koma series. That's also the thing he mentions the most in game (besides Kalim obvs), and as a minor hyperfixation of course there's poison (this one is more about his "work" and past experiences, but that doesn't make it any less of an hyperfixation). What's great is that food is an hyperfixation he enjoys! Sometimes you have the terrible luck of hyperfixating on something you hate (like me who sometimes hyperfixates on video games I despise and being unable to get it out of my head before having made a three hours long video essay in my own head about why the game sucks *looking at you MW3*)

Dancing is, indeed, a good way to healthily exteriorize hyperactivity. Plus basketball. (Plus martial arts probably) Jamil is a very fit person who obviously does a lot of sports so it can explain why he manages to appear so calm at first glance.

One symptom of ADHD you might have heard about is the difficulty with starting projects that's due to a lack of dopamine. Jamil doesn't seem to have problems with those, but there's a trick to it that Jamil could very well be using : having pets/people under one's care tends to act as a stimulant. No matter how forgetful or frozen in place you are about a task, when you have a pet or a child bother you to do something, you do it. Sometimes they don't even need to bother you because you feel responsible for them so you get on with projects that have an impact on them even when you don't want to. With Jamil's role as Vice Housewarden and him being a retainer, he always has people under his care which might help him with starting projects.

Linked with the previous paragraph is the lack of satisfaction at the end of a project. Most neurotypical people apparently do feel a sense of satisfaction/feel rewarded when they finish a project, but many neurodivergents (among them ADHD people) feel absolutely no satisfaction beside the "F*ck I'm glad I'm finally done with it!" In game, Jamil has only shown satisfaction over something being done with the final performance of the SDC. Other than that (correct me if I'm wrong, I'm not yet caught up with vignettes and lore) he doesn't seem to be feeling any satisfaction to a job done. Mostly he's just glad when the day ends and he can take some time to himself.

ADHD people can also have troubles regulating their anger (which, yeah, chap4 hello!) If you're like me you'll keep in check for as long as possible and suddenly burst a nerve without warning (does that remind you of something ?) The thing is, we are always keeping ourselves in check when we can because otherwise people get bitchy about us moving all the time or feeling "too strongly". When we're happy, we're ridiculously happy. When we're angry, all hell breaks loose. The rare times Jamil doesn't keep himself in check, he often goes overboard.

To finish, as you said, Jamil would be very good at hiding the most bothersome/disruptive sides of ADHD. He is a certified liar who had a whole dorm under his spell (lol) so it's not farfetched to believe he is constantly masking about this too. The rare times he's not lying/masking, he does get very hyper and over expressive, which is something that can happen with ADHD when you're too excited about something and your mask slips off. To the untrained eye it can look like a mania episode when it's just that even the most outwardly calm ADHD can go "uncontrollable" when they finally let loose (I'm referring to GloMas and chap6 and the Halloween event here mostly)

Anyway ! Is Jamil ADHD? Maybe. You can explain all those behaviors another way with his general upbringing. But I believe this headcanon is pretty well grounded and you can find details in game to support it!

There's this very random head canon that I have... Jamil has ADHD.

I have no idea what I mean, but like... It just. Yeah. I thought of this during a battle and ya know how all the little sprites have these little motions that they do? Jamil's sprite wouldn't stop moving. Every few seconds, Jamil would shift around. WAY more than any of the others.

(I'm not very familiar with what exactly ADHD/ADD is or what it entails, so I hope I don't offend anyone. It is not my intention at all.)

Obviously, Jamil had to train himself to be very vigilant as a retainer (as anyone in that industry would have to) and he has a very good poker face. I don't know where I'm going with this, I think he would be really good at hiding it. But I feel like maybe he fidgets a lot or has to constantly have his hands doing something. Maybe dancing is his outlet.

All this to say, I want other head cannons on this. I want to know about Jamil's hyperfixations. Anyway. What do you guys think?

(I'm sorry if this was offensive at all, I'm working to learn more about ADHD/ADD to avoid that. If anyone has any information they're comfortable sharing, I'd love to hear it. I feel like all I know is hyperfixations and being fidgety as well as losing focus a lot, which is a gross understatement about what ADHD actually is. Please let me know!)

what if.. what if Jamil turns into a cute snake🥺

Gonna post more abt it later

Leona and Jamil is a rare but nice ship and you only made it cuter by adding Vil

Azul’s first plan to stop Jamil’s plan was an elaborate roleplay scenario where he called Jamil master and i’m just putting this out here cause this man was told “hey this guy is tricking everyone, has kidnapped the protagonist, and is gaslighting/manipulating someone using his mind control powers”

and azul’s first response was

“ok so i have to take him to a secluded location so i can stare into his eyes for a bit while he evilly monologues at me after spending a lot of time with him… for the everyone’s sake obviously”

like this guys plan was

-spend a lot of time with jamil

-spend time with jamil alone

-roleplay

AND WHEN HIS PLAN WHEN THIS FAILED WAS:

plan b- call him handsome and telling him that he never noticed how good his figure is

azul really went up to jamil mid-breakdown and went “nooo you’re so sexy… don’t kill me ha ha”

especially in reference to the jasmine seducing jafar Aladdin scene?! (also this movie has a lot of questionable things i completely forgot about, that scene is so gross)

his plan was “ok jade you go interegate people i’m going to go play board games with jamil.” and i know that he had actual reasons to go distract jamil and sorta investigate him a bit but really???

also right after jamils breakdown and overblot the second thing after essentially just asking, “r u conscious?” was “heyy, wanna move closer to me u r super smart and interesting, please hang out with me more, i think we would be an awesome couple- i mean business partners, please please please transfer into my dorm and move in next to me please”

and like okay azul. chill out. please you are embarrassing all of us.

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