Idolaters - In The Dark

Idolaters - In the Dark

- Stop playing with shiny toys, darling, they were never meant for you: starlight, sunlight, heaven's light... your eyes were not made for such bright things. Don't worry, dear. That little angel almost made you soft, but he's gone now. You'll be one of us again. Unforgivable, remember? That's what you are. One of the bad guys.

What? Is that Satan himself speaking? Where is this series going? But most importantly: did I draw all the things I intended to draw this time? We'll see in a few hours when I look at it again and realize that I missed half the drawing.

WITCHCRAFT!!!!!!!!

I am trying to figure out what my options are to permentally stop my period.

I first heard of hysterectomy but then I saw lots of risks like dementia heat flashes and more.

I have also heard of a type of ablation where they destroy the lining in the uterus.

It just is kinda freaky what things could go wrong. I never wanted a period, as a kid I knew I wasn't a girl, but I knew I wasn't a boy, so I decided I had to be a girl, but I felt I wasn't girl enough for all the puberty things I had been told about. When puberty happened my world fell apart.

I'm still too young for any surgery right now, but I feel like I need to better know my options. I want to make the right decision. I want to stop my menstruation cycle permentally, with as few negative side effects as possible.

If any of you have feedback or could tell me about your experiences, I would love to hear it.

I have had a hysterectomy and lemme tell y’all smthn real quick about my experience.

Pros:

No babies.

No period.

Less dysphoria.

Better mental health literally immediately.

Cons:

No drinking/smoking for set amount of time each. (I use cbd for pain and that is not allowed during Big Pain Meds, after which I can have supplements but not carts)

No sexual anything for set amount of time (both external and internal for different amounts of time).

Body requires so much fucking calories and liquids. Get high calorie food and drinks. You will thank me. It’s annoying how often I have to eat.

For the first 24 hours after discharge I could feel the empty space where the removed tissue once resided. This is a wild experience as my body attempts to adjust to the new space and everything fights to take up as much of it as possible, as if they ascribe to Manifest Destiny.

Currently (day 19) suffering the third day of my belly button nerve being triggered from the inside by my shifting organs. This feels like I still have the ghost of my umbilical chord attached and it’s attempting to pierce me and suck out my insides but it hasn’t figured out the sucking thing yet, as well as it’s made of ghost so it’s just… touching the nerves in a ghostly way. Tartarus hath found me before my soul has left mine body and teases me with what is yet to come.

Farting. So much farting. Also, constipation is the worst. Take your anti constipation stuff. It’s not worth shitting rocks.

Will update with more Fun Facts as they come!

All I want is to not need a binder anymore.

starting a tag game cause i'm bored and i hate my notifications :D

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picrew: here!

tagging @random-doctor-on-the-internet @cataperat @discoveredreality @ladykiller-yt and @midnights-dragon

I have scrolled past this once already today, but this time I read the caption.

Cars I've drawn