Im So Sorry, Not

I’m So Sorry, Not

Vinsmoke Family x Platonic! Sibling! Reader

Warnings: Colorful Language ofc, Bullying, Mentions of Suicide, Toxicity if i can write the characters well, abandonment, drugs, murder, neglect, death, torture

PAINFULLY LONG AND POORLY WRITTEN.

Well, you’re technically a Vinsmoke. You don’t have the same mom as the rest of your siblings.

but you all have the same dad.

you turned out to be another failure.

your father- Judge, has had enough and kicked you out of the empire? 

he left you on the worst island possible

You were so young too. almost turning 7 when your siblings were 13-15 years of age.

you felt alone and abandoned

you had no hope.

you couldn’t even leave the island if you wanted to.

an old woman took you in.

you tried your hardest to find ways to kill yourself.

you even took hand-full of drugs in hopes of overdosing.

yet, you didn’t have the guts to kill yourself. you felt as though, if you kill yourself. you’d be proving your “family” right.

one day, a ship awfully familiar to the one you were kicked off of was sailing closer to the island you resided on.

once it arrived, the island you’ve come to know for 10 years, was burning down slowly.

you ran towards the old woman’s house, you had called grandma after three years of staying on this island.

only to witness her being brutally slashed in the chest by someone who you used to call brother.

Niji smirked when his eyes landed on you,

“y/n! how have you been? we thought you would’ve been dead by now.”

you stayed silent as he approached you, breath hitched.

“hey, say something!”

he was in front of you now…

you watched him warily, slowly backing away.

“Niji, stop bullying the weak. you know she’s a fucking failure like Sanji”

Shit!

Yonji was here now.

Niji’s smirked widened and gripped your hair tightly by the scalp,

“listen here you damn germ, you’ll be coming with us wether you like it or not”

Niji started to pull you by the hair, not stopping despite your protests.

“Let me go!”

you tried clawing on his arm, but you knew it doesn’t affect him at all

you screamed in pain when you felt a sharp pain in your stomach…

‘did this sonic looking bitch just kick me!?’

once on the ship, you were instantly in front of that man.

we know who it is fellas💪🏽

you stared into his emotionless eyes but you already know what he was feeling,

disgust.

“so we meet yet again. we should have left you on an island filled with beasts, that would’ve killed you much faster”

“Shut up! i fucking hate you Vinsmoke Judge”

You try to pull away from hands that where restricting your arms. AKA Yonji.

You see two more, no, three more people behind Judge, from your observation.

Ichiji, Reiju, and someone else.

‘who is that?’

Judge followed your gaze.

“that is your other brother, Sanji”

you can hear the gruffness in his voice, as if he didn’t want to talk to you and say Sanji’s name.

“wait a minute… “brother”? im not a part of this family!”

you shouted, filled with rage and despair.

as much as you feel hurt, but its the truth.

Vinsmoke Judge had disowned you from the family.

“that is true, but we need you to save face. behave yourself failure #2”

Ichiji chimed in.

“save face?”

Yonji let go of your arms and suddenly you were pulled towards the ground, hurting your face in the process.

Judge had stomped on your back.

“don’t screw anything up or we’ll kill you”

you had no choice but to reluctantly agree.

what can you do?

you cant beat up emotionless, sadistic robots and walk away scotch free.

you pursed your lips, trying to find a way to escape.

you snapped out of your thinking process when something clamped down around your wrists.

“you cant be 6 feet away from any of us or the castle, except for sanji, unless you want to lose your hands.”

You cant be serious right now.

your escape plan was now rendered useless.

“let’s head over to Whole Cake Island”

You were basically thrown into your room by Niji and Yonji, with them smirking down at you.

“dicks” you murmured.

a few days had passed, you never left your room, since you had a bathroom attached to it and you requested to one of the servants to deliver food to your room.

there was a knock at your door, you looked at the clock.

it was not lunch time yet.

you opened it and immediately scowled

it was sanji, you did not want to get hurt again.

“wait, wait”

Sanji held up his hands in defense.

you noticed the same golden colored device around Sanji’s wrists.

“can i come in?”

you moved to the side, silently observing Sanji as he walked in.

“you’ve grown, i honestly thought you were still on the ship…rotting and being abused. but, im glad. im glad your still alive”

Sanji tears up and pulls you close to him.

He made a vow,

“I promise you, once i get married. i’ll give you anything that you didnt get to experience as a kid!”

You wanted to tell him that it was okay and that he didnt need to.

you held in your tears, voice shaky as you actually did tell him that it was okay.

that led him to hold you tighter.

after that day, Sanji actually tried his best to be there with you on Whole Cake Island.

The day before Sanji’s wedding, while riding the carriage, Sanji’s friends tried to get him to come back.

Straw hat Luffy….

The events that happened next, shocked me.

Sanji beat up him own captain.

You did not care about what happened to you, you wanted the best for your only brother.

during the wedding, you were panicking hard.

Big Mom planned to annihilate the Vinsmoke family in order to gain their scientific creations.

being stuck in melted candy did not help your despair.

suddenly, Big Mom let out a big wail, hurting your ears in the process.

Sanji broke everyone free from the confines of melted candy.

you watched as Germa 66 did their transformation half way and started running towards Bege’s castle.

You felt self conscious.

you weren’t anything special, you did not have any abilities, you did not know how to fight, all you do know how to do is run.

but you weren’t fast enough.

you felt someone loop their arms around your waist, zooming towards Perospero, and throwing a punch at him.

“Kneel before Germa’s scientific might!”

It was Ichiji.

As everyone had gotten into the castle, Sanji disowned Judge and the rest of Germa.

Unknowingly, you stood in front of a mirror, with your back towards it.

You felt you mouth being covered tightly and was dragged into the mirror, no one batting an eye.

You were then tied up by your perpetrator.

You took a glance at a mirrors reflection and it was Charlotte Amande.

‘im going to die!’

That wasn’t the case, she had brought you into a confined room, no windows.

‘ah….this is a torture chamber’

after 3 hours of being tortured, i managed to escape.

you came to the realization that you’re on Cacao Island.

injured and all you could do was lean in the wall.

“huff….huff….” you panted, just a few more steps before you reached the plaza. The pain became unbearable.

It was already dark out.

I assumed there was battle going on, since Germa 66 was fighting off the Big Mom Pirates. “Go back to your ships, Germa 66! Mission Accomplished!” Ichiji yelled out, his eyes spotting me leaning against the wall. He grabbed the back of my shirt and we flew back to the main ship.

Once we had arrived, Ichiji placed me down on the ground gently. ‘well thats a surprise. I’m guessing Sanji left with his crew, im glad that he made it out’. My head felt light, i could barely hold myself up. “Germa 66! We’ll withdraw!” Judge said as he turned around and halted.

Big Mom was coming. Germa 66 was on guard for battle, even though they took a bunch of damage in the past few hours.

After trying to fend off the Big Mom Pirates. Germa was defeated. 2 super humans and 1 regular human were captured by the enemy.

I tried to pull from one of my restraints, but i was already physically drained from the torture i had endured. i am going through yet another torture. this time it was with Charlotte Daifuku.

Daifuku held me still as Oven used his devil fruit to sear the skin on my left forearm. I screamed in pain, not knowing Niji and Yonji can hear me in a room above them. Then, Mon-d’or made a gash in my leg. He then poured boiling water onto it “oops! Im sorry, not!”, he smirked. I bit my bottom lip hard, trying not to make a sound. This continued for who knows how long…

It felt like a while when they left. I felt so lifeless. the door opened and i was prepared to endure more torture. But it turns out it was Germa and….. Caesar?? Reiju used her poison to melt away the chains holding my body down. I couldn’t move. i could barely move…Ichiji nodded at Caesar and Caesar slung me over his shoulder, mindful of my wounds.

We made it back to the main ship of Germa. my body started to become more and more numb by the second. Ichiji took me into his arms and steadily walked towards the infirmary. “You okay? You’re not going to die are you?” He said, as he slowly started to pick up his pace after only getting a nod from me.

We’ve reached the infirmary. But the nurse there told Ichiji that I needed surgery to stitch up any open wounds and that i probably wouldnt make it. Niji tried arguing with the nurse, “what do you mean that she doesnt have enough blood? don’t we have blood packs here? why do you just give it to her?”. of course, the nurse tried to reason with Niji but she stopped not wanting to piss him off.

Yonji, clenched the blanket on top of him into his fist. ‘she cant die. we owe sanji for saving our lives.’ he thought. “im sorry, but she already looks like shes about to pass on”, the Vinsmoke brothers turned their heads towards their little sister. little sister?

sister?

when had they considered her a little sister? she did not share the same blood as their mother, so why should they consider her as their sister? just because she shares blood with their father doesn’t mean- “how long will she live?” and feminine voice chided in behind Ichiji.

Reiju and their father came in the room.

The nurse fumbled with her watch, not wasting anytime before the brothers become ruthless. “a-about an hour, ma’am!”, the nurse wanted to slap herself for being too nervous. Ichiji laid you onto an empty infirmary bed. Your breath hitched in pain.

Judge strutted towards your bed and stared down at you, “You did well, for a failure”. You deadpanned at him, even though you were dying. Yonji cursed under his breath, the Vinsmoke family turning to him. “why did it have to turn out like this?”.

Although he wouldn’t admit this, Yonji had cared for you. Ichiji and Niji narrowed their eyes at him. Ichiji started, “don’t tell me your getting all mushy already”, “don’t tell me you did not care for her all along, notice how you saved her the most?” Yonji retorted. Niji snorted “care for her? shes nothing but a weakling in the Vinsmoke bloodline”. The brothers were going back in forth, Judge chiming in here and there.

Reiju sneakily brought her hand to hold yours and gave it a reassuring squeeze. She smiled down to you, letting you know she loves you in her own way. but her eyes widened a little.

you were cold. cold to the touch.

she noticed that your eyes were lifeless. she knew. she knew, you had already passed on. With a wobbly smile, she closed your eyes and looked at the time. Trying to hold in her tears, “time of death is 4:37 p.m.”. As soon as she said that. The brothers felt their cold hearts shatter, yet they could not shed a single tear.

They had lost a sister. Their little sister at that. Sanji didn’t get to hear the bad news at all.

“In the back of my mind, you died. and I didn't even cry, no, not a single tear. and I'm sick of waiting patiently for someone that won't even arrive….” - d4vid, Romantic Homicide.

Ughhh. I want to write an angst soooo bad! Like Jujutsu Kaisen angst. Everyone at the collage does not get along with y/n and then smth happens. Then the students at the collage start to regret and UGHHH😩😩.

IM A WHORE FOR ANGST YALL.

A Little Unlikeable||JJK ANGST Pt.3

(Various!Jujutsu Kaisen x fem!Reader + oc)

WARNING!: Character death, Mentions of Blood, Bullying(I think?), Mentions of suicide, Angst, Cringey stuff, Grammar errors

A/n: This is the last part of the minnie-series! Requests are open! Feel free to request. p.s. please reach out to someone if you are struggle with something :)

Pt.1  Pt.2

Finding the obnoxious Gojo Satoru was easy on campus. Ijichi had asked Gojo to follow him to the infirmary(?). 

“Hey, hey, Ijichi, where are we goinggg?” Gojo sang. Gojo Satoru isn’t a dumb man. He has a feeling there was another death. Another body to bury. Finding another soon to be sorcerer.

As Gojo and Ijichi arrived into the infirmary. Gojo had noticed a covered body on the operating table. Shoko revealed the head of the late sorcerer. Gojo’s eyes widen slightly. He swallowed hard.

Yeah, another body to bury...

No, it wasn’t another body to bury. Its an empty seat when he enters the classroom. 

He was in denial for a bit. This must be a prank. Yeah, a prank. He gave the other students a prank as well. “What happened?” Gojo calmly asked, Ijichi was nervous. “She-” Shoko was interrupted by the door opening and soon came in the other students.

The students were shocked, except for one. That one student was delighted.

Nobara couldn’t believe her eyes. “W-What? We just saw h-her this morning. Why is she-” She couldn’t finish her sentence as a sob came out of her mouth. Nobara turned to her right and cried on Itadori’s shoulder.

‘Why did this happen? This wasn’t supposed to happen.’

Itadori didn’t know how to react. He couldn’t cry.

He was used to losing people in his life.

Itadori slowly lifted his shaky arm and tried to comfort Nobara. This was unbelievable. I mean it was bound to happen. Why did it happen now? Why today? We were supposed to hang out today.

Megumi was in shock. He kept himself calm and composed on the outside though. He felt hurt and doubtful.

Did you not want to hang out with them? Did you not care about their feelings? No, he shouldn’t think like that. Not now. Not ever.

“Ok-Okaka!”

Toge Inumaki was also in denial. There was no way in hell you would go down so easily! Not when he once asked you to train with him, he got his butt whipped 3 times. Who the hell would do this to you?

Its not fair. But yet again, nothing in this world is fair.

Maki clenched her fists. “What happened to her?” Maki couldn’t believe her eyes. Shoko looked at the group with sad eyes, “She was killed by a cursed spirit, stronger than her.” Shoko explained.

No, no, no, no! Just like Inumaki, you wouldn’t go down like that. Whoever did this to you, Maki swore she will avenge you. How will she explain your death to your older brother?

How will she explain this to Yuuta?

Saki was...happy?

Finally, she’s dead. My cousin is finally dead! Now I have to get rid of Yuuta. After I’m done with Yuuta, I will be the next heir when Gojo steps down!

Saki quietly giggled.

That quiet giggle then turned to laughter.

The group of students turned to Saki, even the adults.

Why wasn’t she sad her cousin died?

“Saki,” Gojo spoke with a serious tone, “What's so funny?”.

Saki stiffened, “No-Nothing!”. Saki ran towards your body and picked up your hand. “Aww boo hoo! My dear cousin. Why did you die?” Saki said in a dramatic voice. “Saki” Gojo spoke once more. Saki stood there, with no emotion. Suddenly, she started laughing, “ I don’t know why you care about her. She’s useless!”.

A voice came from the entrance, “She is not useless. It is you who is useless”. All the attention is now directed towards the door.

It was Yuuta!

Saki widened her eyes and tried to attack Yuuta and plan her escape. Key word: Tried.

After Saki attacked Yuuta, she was now considered a curse-user. By-all-means, she was then killed by none other than Gojo. Everyone ignored Saki’s body. Yuuta took the time to walk over to your body and allowed a few tears to fall off his face. He used his hand to brush out your hair and kissed your forehead. 

“I’m sorry, I couldn’t protect you. You weren’t supposed to go before me. Wait for me a little longer, okay?” Sobs were heard in the room. That was the day they had to let go, but not enough to forget you.

END :)

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Loved Her So

Angst: Oikawa x F!Reader x Slight!Akaashi

A/n: I saw @multi-fandom-fanfic wanting to know how the great king and [b/f//n] got together and stuff. Also pls request because idk what to write atm🥺

Part 1

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Why?

Why?

You're such an idiot Tooru!

You should have never left Y/n!

Idiot.

Idiot.

Idiot.

I felt a presence behind me, it was b/f/n. She was clinging onto me.

Her hold felt warm, but not as comforting as y/n’s. Wait….. What am I thinking? I’m in love with b/f/n,

so why am I thinking about y/n?

Am I still in love with her?

No, impossible. It’s been three years since I cut off our relationship. Besides, I have my own kid. Well, my daughter has a doctor's appointment to see if she has my DNA.

You know just to make sure....

I saw my daughter, [random/name], in a cute outfit. I picked her up and walked to the car, fastened her seat belt. We then drove off to the hospital.

-20 minutes later-

“I’m sorry sir, she does not have any ounces of your blood in her DNA”

I knew it.

[b/f/n] made me leave y/n.

But why?

You're probably wondering how I met b/f/n. Let me take you back a notch.

In my highschool days, I met b/f/n at a party y/n and I was invited to in August. Yeah, I was flirting a bit but I was bored because y/n had left for the restroom. Me and b/f/n were still flirting and all of a sudden we were in a room on top of each other.

After we put on our clothes we went back to the party. I saw y/n waiting for me at the table. Once she saw me, her eyes were shining in love and happiness.

Anyways, I took [random/name] to the park. I dialled b/f/n’ phone and called.

“Hey babe!” b/f/n spoke in excitement.

“[random/name] isn’t my kid, right?” 

I don’t have time for this.

“erm...What do you mean? Of course she is” 

Liar.

“Whose kid was I taking care of these past three years?”

“...”

“Well?”

“Okay fine. It’s my ex’s kid.”

“And why was I apart of this”

“*sigh* Because, I was jealous of y/n. Having a hot and school famous guy seemed pretty cool to me. Don’t think I was using you. I was in love with you and I still am.”

No.

I don’t accept this.

“Y/n and I would still be together by now if you didn’t approach me at that party” I spoke angrily.

“It's always “Y/n this” and “Y/n that” why can't you see that I love you more than her?!?”

“STOP LYING TO ME”

“OH SHUT UP! IF YOU LOVED HER SO, THEN WHY’D YOU LEAVE HER FOR ME?!”

I stopped in my tracks, why did I leave y/n for her best friend?

In the corner of my eyes I see someone familiar.

It was the girl I still loved till this day.

Y/n…

Wait, why are there kids coming up to her?

Is that her [brother’s/sister’s] kids?

I hung up the call with b/f/n. I smiled knowing I can finally see y/n again. But my smile fell once I saw a man back hugged her and gave her a kiss on the cheek. I looked closely at the man and saw a ring.

My heart shattered knowing I could never make her mine again.

I’m sorry….it’s all my fault.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Belongs to me: @minnies-mochi

A Little Unlikeable|| JJK ANGST Pt.1

(Various? Jujutsu Kaisen x Reader + an oc)

WARNING!: Character death, Mentions Blood, Bullying (I think?), Mentions of Suicide, Angst, Vulgar language, Cringey stuff, Grammar Errors, switching pov a bunch

A/n: My neck and wrists started feeling so uncomfortable after writing this.

p.s. please reach out to someone if you are struggling with something :)

Pt.2 Pt.3

In a few more days, I’m going to have a solo mission!

Whats this mission you ask? This mission was given to me per request. I had asked Gojo-sensei if I could try going on a mission solo, you know, just to experience it.

Gojo-sensei agreed but he did say Ijichi was going to wait for me until I have finished the cursed spirit in one piece.

In one piece?

Can he say that to the other students as well? Well I guess not because I’m not special. Everyone’s going to get hurt.

“Oi, move it”, I looked up to see Saki glaring down at me. I saw Itadori, Nobara and Fushiguro by her side. I bowed and apologized, moving out of her way. 

“Haa? I would like it if you bowed six-feet-under” Saki looked down at you in disgust. You apologized again. You hear Megumi click his tongue, “come on, lets leave her”. You assumed they left due to hearing footsteps and Itadori’s laughter going away in the distance. You stood up straight, trying to contain your tears. 

What did you do wrong? Saki, Nobara, and Maki started being mean to you ever since you started the Jujutsu college, which was three weeks ago. Inumaki and Panda started to avoid you. Itadori and Megumi tried their best to ignore you but are also mean. The only people that has been nice to you was Gojo and the Kyoto school. Of course, Gojo-sensei had to be nice to you because you were his student. I don’t know how the Kyoto school got along with you, but you were grateful. 

You felt something hit the back of your head, knocking you to the ground. You looked up and saw Maki glaring down at you, staff in hand. “Okaka” Inumaki said, totally ignoring your figure on the ground. Panda stared at you with no emotion shown in his eyes.

“Oh! Its time for class!” Gojo grinned as he opened the door to his classroom. He looked at the scene in front of him, “Oi Maki-sAaAn, don't go and scare my student” Gojo teased. You could practically see a tic mark. Maki tsk’ed and the second year’s left to their classroom. You felt a tug on the back of your uniform. Before you know it, you were already in your seat. 

Not even 5 minutes in, the bottom of your thighs feel numb and looks like there was 4 was on both of thighs, two on each side. So you poked one of the bumps and what looked like a needle, popped out of it.

Oh?

You panicked as more blood was already running down your thigh and onto the wooden chair. “Hm? Are you okay, Y/n-chan?” Gojo spoke. With a shaky voice you replied, “No, I’m fine”. Gojo proceeds to lecture the small class about cursed energy and such. You can hear Saki trying to contain her laughter.

A folded piece of paper slid onto your desk and you opened it, already knowing who it was from.

It was a drawing with you on a noose, lifeless. There was also writing on the note. The note said “Dead without a single tear shed by her ‘friends’” and a tiny “Go off yourself”. You folded the paper and just watched Gojo lecture without a single emotion on your face. You hear Megumi scoff a bit.

After class, you attempted to clean the blood off the chair by using your jacket from your uniform. You then tied your jacket around your waist in a certain position, to make it look like it was covering your entire legs.

“Y/n-chan! Come here please” Gojo spoke, mentioning you over to the front of the class. Taking a few steps up, Gojo grinned down at you, chuckling a bit while he pinches your cheek a little too hard.

“I moved your solo mission to tomorrow morning. I’m telling you this now as your teacher, use as much resources for this mission since you have no partner for tomorrow. Good luck!” Gojo-sensei throwing up thumbs up in your face until you left the classroom.

Gojo thought it was strange, you were leaking through your shorts. He would laugh at your embarrassment when your jacket falls off your waist.

You walked into your room and locked the door. You headed straight towards the bathroom and grabbed a rag and a first-aid kit. You placed the rag in your mouth incase this was going to be painful. Opened the first aid kit and started your task.

Pull. One.

Pull. Two.

Pull. Three.

Pull. Four.

Your screams were muffled due to the rag. You hoped no one heard through the paper-thin walls. Quickly, you damped anti-infectant onto a few cotton balls, placing them on your wounds, and wrapping them with gauze. You secured the gauze and head to bed. 

While you were asleep, there was a meeting with the first years and second years. 

“Uhh, guys. I don’t think me and Toge can do this anymore” Panda spoke. Inumaki nodded, “Shake”. Maki sighed, already apologizing to the h/c girl quietly. If Gojo hadn't told them this stupid dare in the first place. The dare was to be mean to y/n for three 1/2 weeks. Nobara sighed, saldy. She was really hoping to go shopping with the girl. Suddenly another girl joined their convo, “HA! Who even cares about the bitch? She’s such a crybaby!”. Maki, Megumi, and Nobara glared at Saki. The room was dead silent.

“Why are you talking about her like you know her?” Megumi’s cold voice cuts through the silence. Saki snorted, “Why wouldn’t I know anything about my stupid, deadbeat of a cousin?”. All Saki felt was a painful stinging on her cheek. It was Nobara who had punched her.

Everyone left one-by-one, leaving Saki behind. Everyone was planning their apologies to the h/c girl.

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