Working On Finishing Up A Cloak For A Cosplay While Nugget Was Out. She Thinks She Needs To Steal My

Working on finishing up a cloak for a cosplay while Nugget was out. She thinks she needs to steal my fleece.

First of all, Faas’s debut on this blog. There should be some art of him soon as well.

Second, yes, look, stim account for happy brain reasons

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For my troll changeling character Faas. Just gonna infodump cuz I can, but- Numerous neurodivergent (especially autistic), ill, blind, or deformed babies, along with older children and adults with personality disorders, were abused emotionally and physically, and some even murdered, because they were exhibiting signs of being a "changeling". Faas is autistic, but that will never actually be confirmed verbally in his book. I won't say tons, but he's got a daughter named Enya (who will get a board shortly) and they live in this marshy forested area in Pennsylvania. Cottage beans.

So I’ve been struggling to find Jesus music that scratches that stimmy itch in my brain for the last year or so. I’ve also been holding God at arm’s length for a while. I’ve been wrestling with a lot of things in my faith. But I think I’ve come to a place of possibly embracing while I wrestle. Tonight I found a playlist with a lot of really good songs. I’ve cried and my brain has buzzed and I’ve sat in prickle skinned shock. I’m still vibrating a little. Feeling like I’m on the brink, almost there; closer than I have been in many months. It feels scary. And raw. But not in a bad way.

Explaining Jesus - Jordy Searcy (took me completely off guard. One of the best songs- spiritual or secular- that I’ve heard in a very long time)

How to be Yours - Chris Renzema (a song I was already using for characters but realized was meant to refer to God-Human condition and I cried)

The Hope Inside - Colony House (too close to home)

Ring the Bells - Johnnyswim (no, not christmas. very powerful wording but also just really buzzy and good)

Sweet Ever After - Ellie Holcomb - (also very good wonderful lyricism and music contrast and just makes me wanna scratch my arms and flap my hands)

Will update if I find more. Wish there were more female solo ones tho.

Doodles I did of Gus and Wrenfield. Probably gonna end up doing summer and winter molt adults too, but we’ll see. Look at nugget’s little face tho- she’s just she’s so happy with herself.

Eventually, these will be stickers purchasable on my Etsy shop when I open it, I just want to finish enough first.

I have more reasons but I don’t have the energy to write them right now.

But yeah, I’ve been thinking about what I’d be if I were in Faas and Enya’s universe and I thought I’d be a changeling as well for a while for many reasons, but upon further consideration I think I was wrong. So here’s the first concept art for a my avian persona.

As for the songs (which was one of the main influences on why I started thinking about avians because I realized that over the last six months the majority of songs I’ve been obsessed with have bird centric undertones at the very least) you can find them here

Personally, I find Matthew and Mary to be like the cutest of platonic little beans. I love them. The fact that they both just sit and help each other deal with their shame and regret and trauma of their past lives is. It is really nice to see. I just got to the part with the prayer tastes in season three and now I kinda want to draw that too. Also I think this was the first time Peter ever actually found respect for Matthew, and I’m enjoying watching the change in how he treats him from this point on.

Context below cut

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Mary: “I can’t face Him.”

Matthew: “-I’m a bad person, Mary”

Mary: “Mathew-”

Matthew: “No. My whole life, all for me. No faith.”

Mary: “I do have faith in Him. . . Just not in me.”

Matthew: “I’m learning more about Torah and God because of you. I’m studying harder because you are such a great student.”

Simon: “Remember when we were at Zebedee’s? And they lowered that man after breaking Zeb’s roof? We did that together and they got to meet Jesus because of your care for them and your good ideas.”

Matthew: “And Ramah is beginning to read and write, because of you. He saved you to do all these things.

This scene is right around the twenty minute mark of Unlawful