I STAND BY IT! Still Very Hurt About This To This Day. I Despise That Dumb Shit Jiara. We Couldve Had

I STAND BY IT! still very hurt about this to this day. i despise that dumb shit jiara. We Could’ve Had It All. stupid ass show 🙄 (i really mean every word lmao 😐 deadess 😐 how could they waste the opportunity of making a GAY friends to lovers/ coming out arc. GOD.)

i was thinking. isn’t it sad that jj and pope probably won't be a Thing even though they have so much chemistry and seem to be WELL MORE than just good friends, just because jj and kiara are the majority vote? this is fair? i dont think so

the way every single one of those takes changed my life. you wouldnt believe it

When BoJack Horseman (2014-2020) said "you can't keep doing shitty things and then feel bad about yourself like that makes it ok. you need to be better" and "all we have are the connections we make" and "I really should've thought about the view from halfway down" and "sometimes you have to take responsibility for your own happiness" and "you do the hokey pokey and you turn yourself around, you turn yourself around, THAT'S what it's all about" and "things have to get worse before they can get better" and "in real life, the big gesture isn't enough, you need to be consistent" and "if we hadn't met each other until now, we wouldn't be the people we are now" and, my personal favourite, "every day it gets a little easier, but you gotta do it every day, that's the hard part, but it does get easier".

i was thinking about making a new list about my favorite books of all time™️ but i’d start with A Little Life and would ramble about it non-stop. also — i would be so lost into it that A Little Life would be the ONLY book in my list. at this point of my life, that might be right.

(it is not! my 17 year old version still have A LOT to say about some books; my boring 20 yrs old version, however, got lost in track of time and — guess what! — barely reads anything but academic texts. what a shitty end)

now that twitter has been down for a while in my country bc Someone is a fucking moron (im def referring to that ugly dumb fuck *BI*llionaire) im migrating to other social media and Boy. none is as good as that stupid website. Oh twitter despite elon’s efforts of making you worse almost daily how im going to miss every obnoxious thing you allowed me and others to do. rip tho. next time @ elon how about you Respect a country’s law. we’re not a bunch of dogs you can just whistle around to. kys ❤️ [said kindly]

and when bojack said

Life is a bitch and then you die, right?

and diane replied

Sometimes. Sometimes life is a bitch and then you keep living

AND WHEN LIFE IS A BITCH AND THEN YOU KEEP LIVING and there’s no resolution to your sadness or rage or whatever is troubling your mind. and then you come home after spending the whole day living that routine you despise, and there's nothing you can do about but accept it and collapse, exhausted, into bed, enjoying the counted minutes of a monotonous relief that never ventures beyond that. and then you wake up the next day to the same condemnation, knowing that your life will be a repetition of that Dull feeling, varying only in degrees according to the situation. and then you find palliatives here and there, useless little things that make you tolerate the next minute, but the next hour still comes — and the hour after that too. and then the years keep passing and you do nothing but keep accepting it, bc change is merely the illusion of a hope, a concept to cling to. and life is a bitch, and you're exhausted, and everything seems so desperately Wrong and Way Too Much, but you don't die. you don't die. worse, even: You Keep Living. and then you have to deal with everything you did and everything that was done to you.

And Then— And Then— and then what.

next time just stab me in the heart

they're each other's missing half