Started Out As A Study, Ended Up As A Death Note Fanart.

Started out as a study, ended up as a Death Note Fanart.

An Illustration that I made last year in 2022

Just a bunch of Sketchbook pages. I currently am experimenting a lot with style. Most of the things you see here used references from Pinterest. (other than that TB Choi page, I was studying her by looking at her work on Insta, trying to figure out how she is using shapelanguage to design her characters).

The first 3 pages are my recent ones while the other 3 are from the last two month.

Art Supplies used:

Some Pencil Colors that I found under my bed while I cleaned my room (it's a wild mix of 10 year old Aldi Pencil colors, Polychromos and these Art Grip colorpencils that Faber Castell manifactured back in the 10's

A moleskine Sketchbook

A noname Mechanical pencil that I found at the dollarstore, a blending stomp, an 8b pencil, a 9B graphite stick. a kneaded eraser, a normal eraser.. and an ungodly amount of coffee!

A wild musicmix of Jack Stauber, Coalter of the Deepers, Roar and some Eurovision tracks. And gaming soundtracks. Obviously.

Greenhouse Concept Art

Whenever people ask me why I draw, I have an hard time answering it. While the impact of my life experiences and the result of it being a declining mental health sure plays a big role in why I draw the things I do, the reason of me drawing is not that deep at all. In fact...if I had to describe it with one word it is fun. Passion even.

I never really cared for likes and how many people look at my art. Likes and Follows are just metrics that cause stress for myself and also might lead into me playing a role, slowly loosing the focus of who I am and what I stand for. But who is my art for?

First and for-most I make the art for me. For the pure joy of creating. It is a satisfying feeling to move your pencil or digital pen across a canvas, slowly creating a world that you imagined or dreamed of. To use Symbolism to tell stories. To capture feelings that are difficult to express with words. And secondary. My Art is made for people who stop by and take time to look at my work. Maybe getting inspired by them to pick up a paintbrush and draw themselves. But also for the people who want to sit down and feel stuff from time to time. People who either want a good laugh, a good cry or something inbetween. People who like to dream. Or people that are openly willing to talk about mental health cause this topic ties like a red line across my work. (if it's not leaning towards the dreamy, playful side of course)

The image you see here is a visual representation of the image above. I called it "Passion". The Drawing process was quite interesting, as it originally started to be an artwork which should capture my view of "AI" . How AI could be a good thing but unfortunately that technology fell into the hands of some greedy people which only cause harm with it. But I think I should keep that topic for another day. As an Artist, I must admit that I'm a bit tired of this whole AI talk.

Anyway...

The more I worked on it, the further away it went from it's core idea to a point where I had no idea what I was doing. This was one of the reasons why I was a bit unsure of posting it on social Media but a friend encouraged me to do so, as she said "This Artwork really made her feel something that she cannot describe. And that more people should see it" so here we are. Trying not to be shy about it.

The Program i used to paint this was Photoshop. And in case anyone want to know which brushes I used: I mainly used the Ahmed Aldoori Brushset , some brushes by Jeremy Fenske as well as the Kyle Webster Brushes for the effects)

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^ 100% this

An animation I did back in May. I called it "Lofi Beats to feel burn out too" . This little Gif is still very accurate today.